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Should I admit myself
I’ve had some seriously disturbing images going through my brain. Im debating on admitting myself. The thoughts are so traumatizing I can’t stop crying I don’t know what to do
I’ve had some seriously disturbing images going through my brain. Im debating on admitting myself. The thoughts are so traumatizing I can’t stop crying I don’t know what to do
I would recommend getting a diagnosis for ocd before anything. This was my exact predicament a year ago and then i got diagnosed with ocd and started therapy with a specialist and life is much more better and ocd has become incredibly more manageable. I know it’s hard and scary but prioritize you!
If you aren’t suicidal and I stress this if and only if you aren’t suicidal don’t do it. Get a diagnosis and therapy and meds if you feel that’s the route you need to go. Psych wards aren’t fun and most recently the ones I’ve been in are borderline abusive to patients. The mental health field is not that great. Take care and if you do have thoughts of hurting yourself and feel you are a danger then go. Take care ❤️
Thank you so much I had to get some anxiety meds to help with the thoughts. They’re really allowing to take a step back and work through them.
@Anonymous That’s great. I find the only thing that helps are benzos but drs are so hesitant to prescribe them and it’s pathetic. It’s a debilitating disease and just because they cause memory loss and can be addictive they don’t want to prescribe them and it’s not right.
these days im feeling so bad, I can’t take it anymore, I have thoughts and images I don’t like that just won’t leave me, I feel so heavy, I want to bump my head into a wall until I pass out so I can have a break, I want my brain ti stop working and leave me alone, I can’t exist like this, I’m constantly thinking about this stuff and feeling disturbed, it just won’t leave, what do I do? sorry if this is written so badly but I really need to vent
i’ve already posted about this before but i keep thinking about it. i was sitting next to a dog and it was laying on its back laying face away from me. i kept getting intrusive thoughts about touching the dog inappropriately. and i was petting the dog to prove to myself that i wouldn’t. i remember i was leaning on the dog. then he kicked me with his back legs three times. i also was rotating my shoulder cause it pops and cracks when i do and i was trying to relieve it. i think i touched the dog and on purpose too, because thoughts were going through my head. after the dog kicked me i sat there for a second just pure panic and i ran to the bathroom, just crying non stop. i dont think i deserve to cry tho. i think my life is a over. the more i try to remember the more scary thoughts of what could’ve happened pop up. i’m just in denial and i want to be sent to a mental hospital.
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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