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- 1y ago
Thoughts
Yesterday I had the thought “Do I like having the thoughts just so I can fight them off?” And then I found myself almost WANTING an attack just so my ocd could be proven real to me
Yesterday I had the thought “Do I like having the thoughts just so I can fight them off?” And then I found myself almost WANTING an attack just so my ocd could be proven real to me
I too feel like I go through the same thing. Living with OCD for such a long time, its almost as if my brain doesn't know what to do when I am not having intrusive thoughts. Therefore, I am trying to not focus on having OCD, and focus on the things that bring me happiness and joy. It is a constant struggle, but with daily work and practices, it gets easier! Stay strong, you got this!
I feel the same!!! If I’m busy cleaning/ on the phone to someone or just doing something and then stop I suddenly get a panic and think wow I’ve not had a thought maybe I don’t have ocd then basically think that thought automatically and start the whole rumination/ trying to stop the thought!!
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
I’ve been thinking a lot about how OCD changes the way we see ourselves, but I recently realized that I am not my thoughts. Just because a thought pops up doesn’t mean it’s true or that it defines me. I’ve started learning how to see OCD for what it is—just a disorder trying to trick me—and I’ve become stronger in dealing with it. Has anyone else here had a similar realization? How do you handle these thoughts when they show up?
So I was enjoying some “me time” and had intrusive thoughts, but it felt like just for a second I liked it. Like I’m holding myself back from “enjoying” the thought. And the thoughts are related to things I was into when I was younger, but sometimes I feel like I might still like it even though 9/10 I wouldn’t give it a second thought. Is this common? Or is this just denial? Thanks
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