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- 1y
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Yesterday I had the thought “Do I like having the thoughts just so I can fight them off?” And then I found myself almost WANTING an attack just so my ocd could be proven real to me
Yesterday I had the thought “Do I like having the thoughts just so I can fight them off?” And then I found myself almost WANTING an attack just so my ocd could be proven real to me
I too feel like I go through the same thing. Living with OCD for such a long time, its almost as if my brain doesn't know what to do when I am not having intrusive thoughts. Therefore, I am trying to not focus on having OCD, and focus on the things that bring me happiness and joy. It is a constant struggle, but with daily work and practices, it gets easier! Stay strong, you got this!
I feel the same!!! If I’m busy cleaning/ on the phone to someone or just doing something and then stop I suddenly get a panic and think wow I’ve not had a thought maybe I don’t have ocd then basically think that thought automatically and start the whole rumination/ trying to stop the thought!!
So, yesterday while I was laying in bed, I was relaxing when suddenly I had an intrusive thought about someone, but the thing is that it brought me a sense of enjoyment or calmness for a few seconds before it went away. Once it did, it was only until hours later when I realized what had happened and I began to freak out because I'm reading everywhere that when someone experiences this type of thing, the anxiety happens shortly after the enjoyment or "false" enjoyment. Can OCD do this?
Help! My OCD has caught onto this thought for awhile and I keep spinning on it. I know you are supposed to follow your values and what your actions suggest with OCD, but what if that is even blurry right know? For example my whole life I wanted to be with a man, and now my OCD is having major intrusive thoughts about women. How do you tell if those thoughts are wanted or not? I can’t figure out if I like the thoughts or not. I’m trying to live the life “I want” but what if I don’t know what that is?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
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