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- 1y
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Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
One thing i think abt tho, is if this was true, then thered be so many news reports of people with OCD acting out. Its almost always people that dont have the empathy to worry about something like that, that are actually dangerous. I remind myself to be proud that i care enough to be worried n sometimes it relieves some stress. Idk if thats just another form of rumination tho.
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It makes me feel like I'm nuts
@Speckles Me too, the hyper vigiliance is rlly debilitating especially when trying to form new friendships
My entire life I’ve always thought, people say it’s okay to make mistakes, but I feel like I’ve made a lot. WHEN will I make the mistake that just so tips the scales. And people say, alright, that’s it, too many mistakes, you’re officially a bad person.
@Kaitlyn🌸 Foreal, sometimes i wish i could just tell people every mistake ive ever made and let them judge me right then and there. that way i wouldnt have to live in fear, but i realize that’s counterproductive. I have kinda done that w friends family and my partner. I just wish i could stop caring so much about how people might view me cus i grew up with a lot of people around me making mistakes and i rarely ever judged them as hard as i judge myself
I used to, a long time ago
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
I look back at various past events in my life where I said or did things that I feel really guilty, disgusted, and ashamed about. I replay them in my head for hours. I feel anxious about crossing paths with people that I've hurt or upset in the past or who perceive me badly, to the point that I will avoid going out in public as much as possible. I go out for work, errands, appointments, and occasionally to eat (even though those all give me a lot of anxiety), but I avoid community events where people might recognize me and I tend to isolate myself. The only people I see regularly are my boyfriend, my parents, and my coworkers. I live in a small community and I'm worried about people confronting me publicly and proving what a bad person I must be.
My body has done weird things during interactions and sometimes it feels like the movements came from me, like I controlled them. It’s freaking terrifying. Sometimes I believe I’ve gone psycho. I don’t know who the fuck I am anymore. Maybe I should just accept that I’m a danger to society.
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