Theosis
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- 1y
Fake person
Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
TheosisTheosis
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- 1y
One thing i think abt tho, is if this was true, then thered be so many news reports of people with OCD acting out. Its almost always people that dont have the empathy to worry about something like that, that are actually dangerous. I remind myself to be proud that i care enough to be worried n sometimes it relieves some stress. Idk if thats just another form of rumination tho.
IseeinpinkkIseeinpinkk
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- 1y
Every minute of everyday
Kaitlyn🌸Kaitlyn🌸
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- 1y
Story of my life 😂😂
Ariyah Ariyah
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- 1y
yes, all the time
amandaamanda
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Yuppp
mousemouseymousemousey
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- 1y
everyday
SpecklesSpeckles
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Yes... a lot
SpecklesSpeckles
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
It makes me feel like I'm nuts
TheosisTheosis
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- 1y
@Speckles Me too, the hyper vigiliance is rlly debilitating especially when trying to form new friendships
Kaitlyn🌸Kaitlyn🌸
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- 1y
My entire life I’ve always thought, people say it’s okay to make mistakes, but I feel like I’ve made a lot. WHEN will I make the mistake that just so tips the scales. And people say, alright, that’s it, too many mistakes, you’re officially a bad person.
TheosisTheosis
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- 1y
@Kaitlyn🌸 Foreal, sometimes i wish i could just tell people every mistake ive ever made and let them judge me right then and there. that way i wouldnt have to live in fear, but i realize that’s counterproductive. I have kinda done that w friends family and my partner. I just wish i could stop caring so much about how people might view me cus i grew up with a lot of people around me making mistakes and i rarely ever judged them as hard as i judge myself
Wolfram Wolfram
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I used to, a long time ago
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Mitu_001
- Date posted
- 25w
Tw I am so scared
I am so scared of everything .Of my thoughts.If I am a good person.Years ago I didnt help a kid who was in danger.Since then I started to have terrible thoughts :( i am so terrified.I still have these thoughts and I am scared it means something about me .I really dont want to hurt anyone and I want to help that kid now but idk how I can now.Also I am scared I betray everyone.I still have terrible thoughts and when I am with someone I care is worse...idk why.For example I started to talk with a collegue and he is really nice to me.I told him some things abt me( not the intrusive thoughts) and he was supportive.I have no idea if I will tell anyone abt my thoughts..and bcs of that I feel like I lie to them and betray them.I really want to enjoy my life and be happy and support people( especially because I didnt help that kid then).I want to live up to my morals now but I feel like I lie and manipulate people bcs I am a monster.Is this normal? To feel this way? What can I do? What if I am my worst fear and just cant accept it?!
liyah1787g
- Date posted
- 24w
Question
TW: Philosophical, Worry Does anyone else start to feel anxious at the thought of “what if OCD becomes fake one day?” In other words, “what if OCD gets debunked in the future?” Not trying to scary one just curious
liyah1787g
- Date posted
- 21w
Anyone else?
TW: SEWERSLIDE WARNING I’m scared to continue living because I don’t want the worst to happen. The worst being me discovering I’m a sociopath, pedophile, ephebophile etc… I have people I don’t want to disappoint. I keep looking for an excuse/something wrong with me so that I can decide whether I want to continue living or just end my life and save myself from the embarrassment of my loved ones finding out. At the same time I’m afraid to die. I feel like I’m not making a lot of progress in therapy. The only thing keeping me going right now is the thought that maybe one day I will find out that I’m not a creep, a sociopath &/or an ephebophile. At the same time living everyday is hard with all this looming over me. Some days I feel like I can continue no &’s ifs or buts. Other days I feel like im my own cheerleader & i am actually this bad person i think i am. I am so confused. Yesterday this thing came up where i suddenly find myself thinking a 17 yr old actor is attractive mind you im 21 yrs old.. idk if this is arousal nonconcordance or what it is honestly..I’m just afraid that it says something about who I am.. maybe that’s why I like guys my age with smaller bodies because it reminds me of a younger person??? Idk
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