i cant with the uncertainty

@Kat_Griffith Man your strong. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, its so scary. I hope your doing well, and you can always come back to this comment if your feeling scared. Im here for you!!

@kksilly Thank you this means a lot, I’m sorry to dump this but I have nobody irl to talk to, I’ve told my mother my friends who even have it and my nurse friend and I still don’t feel like I’m understood which is devastating and hard. Along with the thoughts that they all hate me making their way in, it really is hard especially because I have suicideal OCD along with others so I think it’ll be better for me to yk

@Kat_Griffith Oh i totally understand. When i first told my mom about it, she made me feel like im going insane. I still remember me just going into their room at night and telling them i dont feel real like im in a dream. It was probably a scary moment for them too but they tries their hardest. I used to have so many thoughts about people hating me, especially me family. It makes you feel like you dont mean anything, and your just a bad person, it ripped my relationship with them apart. Suicidal OCD sucks. Especially (for me) i get depressed, so i have the thoughts of just wanting to feel better, and those thoughts creep in. Your strong, and i really hope your mom understands better. 🙁

@kksilly I hate that it almost 100% gonna suck for the next couple of days just cuz my mom is on her night shifts and needs to sleep during the day so I can’t talk to her for a couple days, but I hope that leaves me with time to actually come up with a basic script for home I somewhat want to conversation to go :/

@Kat_Griffith Im sorry, i hope you get that chance. 🙁🥲🙏💖

@Drew777 Oh man, this is going to bring me to tears. Thank you so much for this. OCD has brought my relationship with God to an end. And i started to push him out of my heart. It hurt me, but i barely even knew what to do with myself. Ive been praying more lately, and im certain this is a sign from him. Thank you my friend. 🙁🙏

@kksilly I believe God can use any one of us to be there for someone else in the ways He wills for us to be. I don't believe in coincidences. God has a reason for everything that happens, even when we don't understand. OCD is one of those things that we don't understand and we'll probably never understand it, but it is something that God has allowed in our lives for His purposes to be accomplished. It may simply be a struggle of ours so that we can learn to rely more on Him in our lives. There have been moments where I pushed God away, moments where I came back and He embraced me, and then moments where I started to drift away again. I've grown so much from where I started and God has shown me so much on my journey. I encourage you to stay close to God and He will be with you through this trial in your life every step of the way. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Dear Jesus, I pray You will be with kksilly right now as she goes through this trial in her life. Please lead and guide her as she learns to deal with this in the way You have for her to. I pray she will be strengthened by You to keep going each day, never giving up even in the face of difficulty. I pray that she will feel Your peace in her heart that surpasses all understanding in every moment, but especially those days in which she is having a particularly difficult day. I pray she will have confidence in You, knowing that You are with her every hour of every day. I ask these things in Your Perfect and Holy name Jesus, Amen. Have a blessed night friend! God bless! :)