Am I experiencing OCD or losing touch with reality?

Was it ocd?

Earlier today for about a few hours i spent the whole entire time in my room researching a certain topic and feeling 100% convinced it was true and that it was the real me and i never had ocd. There was convincing evidence too. I was freaking out, crying, etc. i hardly remember what i was thinking, its almost like i blacked out. I keep trying to remember because from what i do remember some of the thoughts kinda bother me. I ended up calming down and snapping back into what i think is reality, and felt completely opposite of what i was thinking just 5 minutes prior. Im so confused, i dont know who i am, i feel like im actually going crazy.

Username: Michie Michie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 8w ago

A lot of the time OCD will try to convince you that you don’t have OCD. It’s a way for it to gain power over you. The amount of times I questioned if I actually had OCD or if I was just a bad person is crazy!! It’s a very very common experience. Try to avoid “trying to remember” because that’s OCD looking for “proof” it will never be satisfied, let OCD have its temper tantrum and don’t give into compulsions such as googling/checking (like trying to remember everything) I’m sure you had a very very high stress moment and possibly an anxiety attack which I’m sure can present itself in many different ways. The brain is crazy.

Username: patheticgirl43patheticgirl43

Date posted: 8w ago

@Michie It just feels like its not ocd at this point and i need to accept it. And thats why im freaking out because im in denial. It feels so true. I dont know whats real.

Username: Michie Michie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 8w ago

@patheticgirl43 I had the exact same thoughts and feelings when I was struggling with POCD. Sit with the “maybe maybe not” and let the anxiety be there, maybe it is OCD maybe it’s not. I’m safe and don’t need to figure it out. OCD will never be satisfied no matter how much you ruminate or obsess over the thoughts or feelings you’re currently having

Username: shopgirlshopgirl

Date posted: 8w ago

You’re not alone at all. My SO-OCD has felt so real this past week and I feel hopeless. I confessed to my mom and it hasn’t made the pain go away. I dry heaved twice today from OCD induced nausea which never happens to me. But I read somewhere that even if there’s a .0001% chance it could be OCD, treat it as such and don’t give it an inch. I know I’ve been doing compulsions like crazy so I’m trying not to give into the arousal feelings that I have now while being in such a high state of anxiety. We’re stronger than we think.

Username: Tanaya

Date posted: 3y ago

I feel like no one knows the real me, I dont even know the real me anymore. OCD has been my identity for so long I always wonder who the f would I be without it. My thoughts and opinions change so rapidly I dont know if their my own anymore. My moods and emotions are so up and down I'm wondering what's the real way that I feel. Have I just been lying all my life.

Username: Sarah🕊

Date posted: 3y ago

I’m so confused right now. I feel really calm about my intrusive thoughts and I feel calm overall. I can still get moments of feeling uneasy but overall I’m calmer. Yesterday was really difficult. Does that mean I don’t have OCD? I just don’t get this. Even today I was scared with the thought of what If I’m lying about my intrusive thoughts and my experience with OCD and I’m really just a crazy person.....and then later today when I felt calmer I was like omg what if I really don’t have OCD and I really I’m just making it up. I feel so calm right now. I’m kind of guessing maybe because I talked to my mom about my some intrusive thoughts have and have had in the past and I was worried about telling her but she understood and so I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders. Is it possible to suddenly feel ok?

Username: Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

Can anyone relate?

Woke up this morning immediately looking for the thoughts that I’ve been having even though i don’t want to think about them. I feel like i ended up bringing them upon myself and then i had a super gruesome thought and have been worrying about it all morning. Is it possible to bring thoughts upon yourself? Is it ocd or is it just me? I’m just so scared of going “crazy” that i keep looking for thoughts deciding if it’s me or not if you know what i mean. It’s such a scary feeling When you feel like you don’t know who you are 😭 i literally am just petrified of completely losing sense of who i am and doing something bad and being locked away forever. Is it possible to just turn bad? Does anybody know what i mean by that? Like you secretly have a double ego and completely turn into somebody different? Does anyone else experience this? Is it ocd? I’m so scared i feel like i can never catch a break.

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