It literally feels like I’m going insane and that all my worst OCD fears are going to come true. It feels like I’m losing control and that I will do something bad. This is so terrifying. It’s never been this scary. It makes me feel like there’s no way this is OCD. Idk what to do. I’m trying to power through but even writing this makes me feel like I am faking it. Omg. Please someone help me!
It will pass..You are safe
@shaye Thank you. Each time it feels like it’s passing, it comes back stronger. This can’t be OCD.
Hello, did you go insane? Are you still in a panic?
@Anonymous Haven’t gone insane. But any moment I feel normal again, it comes back and it feels like I want to or have to hurt someone and the anxiety comes back with it. It feels so real.
@Catlove9 Are you self-isolating? I also had a brief moment today upon waking up where I started feeling out of control and a harm to others. I am feeling better now after taking my meds and going outside to sit in the sun for a few mins.
@Anonymous I had to go to a doctor’s appointment where i felt like I was going to snap. I didn’t. But now I’m home. And my boyfriend is here. I’ll be calm and then it comes back. Why is this happening?
@Catlove9 Stress. I struggled with HOCD before I knew it was HOCD last year for a couple months and spiraled out of control without any professional help and then it turned to a very scary, overwhelming harm OCD. I had to admit myself because I genuinely felt like I was going to hurt someone. And right now I think it's because I admitted myself on Sept 29th last year and I'm stressed it's going to happen again in a few days. You are in control, even if it literally feels like you might lose control of your body, hang in there. Right now, don't even feel bad about needing compulsions. Do what you need to do to feel safe. Make sure you reach out to your therapist.
@Anonymous Stress would make sense. I just got a new job. My boyfriend moved in. Over the weekend I took a motorcycle course. Honestly today, it felt like I should admit myself. But then I got scared with that. I am home now from the doctor but I’m still having waves. It feels so real. The harm ocd makes me feel like I want these awful things. 😔
How are you doing now
@Lilly2442! Calmer but still struggling because it feels so terrifying. It feels like this time is the time everything I fear happens.
@Catlove9 Yes I feel like that too
@Catlove9 “This time is different, I’m going to act on my thoughts or this time it’s something serious”
@Lilly2442! Yes exactly. And this time is definitely the most compelling. My whole body tingled. Even my head. And it felt like my body was on the cusp of moving. Does that make sense?
@Catlove9 Yes I feel the same way. It’s so hard but you aren’t alone I always think this time is different and it causes so much anxiety and I just feel terrible what triggered you? If you don’t mind me asking
@Lilly2442! Honestly, I have no idea. It came on with a racing heart and that was it for me. Then it felt like I was literally going to black out. It also felt like every little thing became a trigger. It felt like I was losing touch with reality. I know it sounds crazy. But it was so terrifying.
@Catlove9 No it doesn’t sound crazy I experience the same thing. I have a fear of losing control/ getting schizophrenia. Have you ever actually lost control? Not “it felt like I did” did you actually go crazy tho?
@Lilly2442! No. I haven’t. But I keep fearing each time will be the time.
@Catlove9 YES! Same here. I have the exact same thought process as you
@Lilly2442! Like right now I’m SO worried that I’m about to experience a mental health crisis where I am just going to lose it. Do you know what I mean?
@Catlove9 Yes I have a fear of losing control so everyday I have the intrusive thoughts of “what if I just go crazy and lose control or snap”
@Lilly2442! Has it happened to you yet?
@Lilly2442! Now I’m obsessing over the panic attack and wondering what it meant and am scared it’s going to come back.
@Catlove9 Yeah fear of panic attacks
@Lilly2442! I wish it never happened because it’s all I’m thinking about.
@Catlove9 How are you today?
@Lilly2442! A little better but still worried the panic attack meant something more.
@Catlove9 I think that too everytime I have a panic attack I think it’s a sign I lost control. What did your therapist say I’m assuming you have one ?
@Lilly2442! Yup. I have one on here. She told me to treat it as ocd and not to try to figure it ont
@Lilly2442! Out*
Your fears are fears and that’s all should amount to I struggle with this exactly Aswell and it makes me think some days I really am just a horrible person for thinking all the bad things I think and I get so scared I wanna stay in my bed but it’s not real and you have to keep telling your self that no matter how tired you get always reassure yourself and put yourself in a safe place when you are having those episodes I promise we will all be ok together
@Miaag=> Have you ever had a scary episode?
@Catlove9 Yes I get them at night when no one is around and I feel alone sometimes because I think bad intrusive thoughts but it goes away you have to surround yourself with people that understand and just wanna be there and put yourself in a safe environment trust me
@Miaag=> And it feels like you’re going crazy? Or are on the cusp of doing horrible things?
@Catlove9 Yes so no your are not alone but it’s not real you have to tell yourself it’s not because you know deep down it’s not it’s just thoughts I promise, talk to a therapist they understand that’s where I learned my coping habits
@Miaag=> I did call her today. She told me to treat it like OCD and move on.
@Catlove9 I wouldn’t say that’s exactly what my therapist says but everyone is different, I would say to find someone for you to listen and help you find coping skills.
@LadyOCD<3 I agree. She said to accept the feelings and thoughts as they come and not to give into compulsions.
@Catlove9 If you don’t mind me asking how old are you? I’d love to talk more about what you go through because we definitely suffer the same things
@Potato-lady<3 I am 36! About to be 37. How about you?
Put some cold water on your eyes, or hold Ice cubes. Both help calm body down. I listen to a song: song I made up to stop panic attack - field medic. You got this!
@Anonymous Thank you so much! I will try this.
If you have had medical work up or if you are generally healthy and have been diagnosed with OCD, it most likely is. I know from experience. My fears and compulsions take control of my life. I was out of work for nearly 6 months. Miserable, without hope, depressed, planning my funeral, going to multiple Doctors and many times unable To leave my house 🏠 or front yard without major panic attacks. I would frequent multiple Emergency Rooms about 2-3 a week for several weeks. A OCD therapist named Karen Lopez Reyna help me break this cycle along with outpatient mental health therapy and appropriate medication. I received my OCD conquer designation from NOCD a few days ago and I been back At work nearly 3 weeks now. God, plus Karin Lopez and ERP treatment, along with medical NPS and proper medication has helped me get my life back. You are not alone! Seek your individual healing and support path🙂
@Anonymous Thank you! Yes. I’ve made sure I’ve had all my medical stuff done. I’ve been diagnosed by around 3-4 therapists. Logically I know it’s OCD, but the feelings that come with it are so compelling. The dissociation is such a horrible sensation as well. I am so happy you were able to conquer yours. I hope to get there as well!
Thank you. Still tries to control me, but its power is now more like a kitten 🐱 vs a lion. I still have battles to fight but now I sort of looked forward to it I have learned so much from this experience. Love people thru service and pursue your healing path and purpose passionately.
OCD tries to control me…..
@Anonymous Did you ever go through harm ocd?
(PLEASE HELP IM BEGGING!) Hey guys, right now I’m having suicidal OCD and it’s really fucking scaring me because I know I want to live but it’s feeling like I’m going to end my life any second or any day now and that I’m going to die soon, and I’m afraid that I’m going to come up with a plan and go through with it, or say fuck it, I don’t care about recovery, be selfish and just do it. I’m SO scared I don’t know what to do anymore, I don’t know if these are real suicidal thoughts or just my OCD attacking me and I’m genuinely scared for my life. It’s like every second of the day I get a stupid intrusive suicidal thought and it makes me feel like I’m really suicidal and that I don’t want to live anymore, for ANYTHING positive I hear, I twist it and make it negative and tell myself, you’re going to die soon, or you’re gonna kill yourself anyway, you don’t have a future, you don’t care anymore. I even feel a lil bit down and sad when I get these thoughts and I start to feel depersonalization, I almost feel depressed when I get these thoughts all day and it makes me feel like I’m genuinely gonna get depressed and the suicidal thoughts will become REAL I’m so scared. Even when my parents tell me that I’m going to be ok and not do anything, I tell myself in my mind that I’m still going to go through with suicide and just kill myself. I don’t have a set plan and I’m afraid that I may develop a plan and want to go through with it. IM SCARED FOR MY LIFE! IM SO FUCKING SCARED PLEASE HELP PLEASE! Anyone that has gone through this PLEASE HELP! Going into a hospital won’t help because I’m not ACTUALLY suicidal but these thoughts make me FEEL like I am and it’s just SO confusing I don’t know what’s real and what’s not!!! PLEASE HELP ANYONE!!!! I’m so fucking scared ??
My Harm OCD is out of control. I’m trying so hard to keep living my life, but it’s scaring me even more. It’s starting to feel more real. It’s feeling like I’m right on the edge of acting on my thoughts and that I actually want to do it. It feels like this is never going to go away and I’m now this person who is going to harm someone. I’m at work because I’m supposed to keep living my life and not do compulsions. But not doing them is terrifying me. I feel like a complete monster and I don’t know what to do.
Can anyone please confort me? I'm having a really bad panic attack, I can't stop crying and I feel like im losing my mind from the fear. I feel like maybe I should just go to the hospital because it feels so real
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