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Guilt
Does anyone know how to deal with guilt for something you did as a kid that you feel is disgusting and worry that it could have hurt someone you loved.
Does anyone know how to deal with guilt for something you did as a kid that you feel is disgusting and worry that it could have hurt someone you loved.
Yeah I feel that way, it's taken so much from me for over a year now. I can't forgive myself, I feel like what I did was pretty bad. But I constantly remind myself I was a kid and should just forget it but my mind doesn't let me do that. Idk how to just forget it and move on, I'm constantly paranoid about it
Arguing with your mind by saying you've been a kid back in the time is compulsive. This is why thoughts keep coming back. Thank your thoughts for reminding you and invite them to stay longer and practice that. I know it sounds weird in the beginning but it's practice.
@Pluriel Does that work? The last thing I want is for them to stay longer
It's a process. I've dealing with guilt and other mental fallout from stupid things I did as a kid and that's really all I can say. When it comes up to bother me I just remember that I can't figure out what happened back then and I can't keep bringing those events into the present. I focus on my ERP and sit with the anxiety as I go about my day until it passes. And I just trust the process. I can't hope to have a certain outcome. That's the hardest part. I guess just remember that your current self doesn't owe that guilt anything
I know I shouldn’t and I’m trying not to ask for reassurance but how do I deal with this when I made real event mistakes in childhood? I’ve opened up to my cousin about this who’s an adult and believes that kids can be influenced at a young age and mimic things that they see and friends and my therapist. They all see the good in me and my stupid childhood mistakes but the guilt is very strong and even though I’ve opened up It’s telling me to open up more and more and I don’t know what else it wants from me.
I’ve posted something vulnerable here before and I’m trying to ride out the wave of reassurance where it’s getting at me and I’m scared of sitting still with nobody to talk to about this at the moment I genuinely think it would be easier if I wasn’t around. I view my friends as pure compared to me and I’m the most impurest. I feel like this would do a favour to stop being here I don’t know what to do, I really don’t know. I’m literally alone in this and I’m getting tired. How do you deal with stupid choices that you made as a child? I’m trying to be understanding of past mistakes but it’s gut wrenching to try and accept to say and admit you did it knowing you’ll spend the rest of your life with that guilt..is there another perspective to this..???
I've had a horrific subtype that has been affecting my day to day life. I think it's snuck in due to good things occurring in my life. If I can't forgive myself for my past, why should others? I'm happy knowing I'm not alone with these thoughts, but knowing it was OCD all along and I could have suffered so much less if I was diagnosed as a child... Decades worth of compulsive checking, thinking I'm worse than a monster... I just want to breathe normally again. I feel guilt with each breath. It's too much.
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