The thoughts are coming in like rapid fire. And I’ll be fine for a minute and they are back again the next minute. Scarier and more intense. It legit feels like I am losing my mind.
This is what being in the grips of OCD is like. It is scary and those who have not experienced it will not understand. It’s important to try your best to calm yourself in healthy ways and be aware that you are not “going crazy” you are currently experiencing disordered thinking while you await proper support and therapy. You have got this 💪🏻
@JellyBeansss Thank you. This is definitely a bad relapse for me.
You are not loosing your mind. You are trying to control what you have no control over, your thoughts. Thin about ii, you need another brain to control your brain, how absurd is that? Just let it be, even if it triggers bad feelings, just acknowledge it is not you who control that. What is under your control is doing compulsion as a reaction under the illusion that it will relieve your feelings. Resist them, and don't feed the beast, it will make it more aggressive. Hope you feel better soon
@hanysm@gmail.com Thank you. The fact it feels so real doesn’t help!
Everything feels so real. I think learning about non-offending pedophiles has really screwed with me. I feel like I’m not even doing compulsions anymore like I genuinely cannot remember if I do them or not and the groinal responses are messing with me. I keep having intrusive dreams and I’m in that half asleep state and I feel nothing after that or I feel weird like a good weird, I don’t know. It’s a really weird feeling when I get those thoughts but I don’t like them, I don’t think. All I know is, I keep seeking reassurance and I feel like I don’t have OCD because the way I feel, like the way I get worked up isn’t the same as others. Whenever I try to watch a show, like 9-1-1 or daily dose of sunshine, I feel like I’m watching something I shouldn’t be. Or if I’m just on my phone, I feel like something is going to happen. I feel red flags whenever I’m on my phone, like somehow cp will appear. I know that OCD is the doubting disorder but my god, this is just crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy. Everything is just nonstop, it’s so constant and I’m genuinely scared that I’ll do something when I get out of my room. I don’t know anymore, this whole OCD thing is just making me lose my mind.
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more now😭 im just at a loss i dont know what to do
Does anyone like go through waves. Your mind is super silent maybe a couple of thoughts but you are able to brush it off? But then out of nowhere your mind just starts rushing with every thought? If so, how do you cope with this? It drains me.
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