The thoughts are coming in like rapid fire. And I’ll be fine for a minute and they are back again the next minute. Scarier and more intense. It legit feels like I am losing my mind.
This is what being in the grips of OCD is like. It is scary and those who have not experienced it will not understand. It’s important to try your best to calm yourself in healthy ways and be aware that you are not “going crazy” you are currently experiencing disordered thinking while you await proper support and therapy. You have got this 💪🏻
@JellyBeansss Thank you. This is definitely a bad relapse for me.
You are not loosing your mind. You are trying to control what you have no control over, your thoughts. Thin about ii, you need another brain to control your brain, how absurd is that? Just let it be, even if it triggers bad feelings, just acknowledge it is not you who control that. What is under your control is doing compulsion as a reaction under the illusion that it will relieve your feelings. Resist them, and don't feed the beast, it will make it more aggressive. Hope you feel better soon
@hanysm@gmail.com Thank you. The fact it feels so real doesn’t help!
Trying to ignore my thoughts but it feels like they are only coming at me more now😭 im just at a loss i dont know what to do
I have a lot of thoughts about the universe, and they’re overwhelming—like being caught in a rip current, except it’s all inside my head. Most of the time, they’re about how small we are, how there really isn’t a “we” because our bodies aren’t truly ours—we’re just bacteria, cells, and microbes. The thoughts spiral, deeper and deeper, smaller and smaller, coiling until suddenly, I’m pulled under, drowning in a whirlpool. I’ve never felt like this before, and I’m convinced I’ve been faking it somehow. For the past few weeks, my OCD has been worse than it’s ever been in my 20 years of life. Or maybe I’m just more aware of it now. Has anyone else had their OCD suddenly get really bad? Does it ever end—if it even can? I’ve convinced myself that my intrusive thoughts aren’t actually intrusive, that my OCD is a choice, and that everything I do is intentional. As for compulsions, I don’t have the typical “If I don’t do ____ then ____ will happen” kind of thoughts. Instead, my brain simply commands, “Do ____,” and I always give in. It’s so loud in my head, and I can’t shake the feeling that I’m an imposter. Like I don’t belong here—like my presence on this app is an intrusion, invalidating everyone else’s struggles just by downloading it and daring to post. If anyone feels that way, if you think I’m intruding, I’m sorry. I only came here because I have no one to share my diagnosis with. Pouring my thoughts out, hoping someone might understand, feels less suffocating than journaling. Journaling is like letting a wound fester—each word burying the thoughts deeper, leaving them to decay in silence, for nobody to ever read but myself.
Does anyone like go through waves. Your mind is super silent maybe a couple of thoughts but you are able to brush it off? But then out of nowhere your mind just starts rushing with every thought? If so, how do you cope with this? It drains me.
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