Please can someone look at my last post

@SomeoneToMe Did you see the post with the POCD flair 😭

@SomeoneToMe Do u think I’m a weirdo or a piece of shit cos of it😭

@Fcukocd No way, nothing like that. My past is all. I used to think people who struggle with what you do were, but i was hurt and angry. I’m not angry anymore and i know what you struggle with doesn’t make you a piece of shit. It makes you a person who struggles with things they don’t want in their life, like all of us. You’re not a bad person, I’m not a bad person. We struggle and this app is for us.

@SomeoneToMe It’s the post below this one titled “please can someone help😭😭😭”

@Fcukocd I replied

@SomeoneToMe I can’t see it I don’t think anyone can see the post I’m gonna try to post it again

@Fcukocd Thank you, ok, looking for it now

@SomeoneToMe Thanks man, I just feel like such a piece of shit for it, i never meant it badly but the guilt is genuinely eating me alive😭 and the thought of people thinking of me like that is making it so much worse😭

@Fcukocd The guilt will eat your alive and ocd will prepare the table for that to happen. Practice erp as much as possible mate. It sucks when people get the wrong idea about you, but you can’t control what people think about you or anything, so just focus on what you know about you to be true and let that be your guide. When i was behaving like a dag, i felt like a dag. Even when i did the right thing i felt wrong and in the way. Now i listen to me, see what i see in me. It’s not selfish, it’s accurate and honest. If you’re a good father and husband, mate, feel exactly that. You’re worth feeling worth brother!

@SomeoneToMe I’m unfortunately not allowed to be with them because of it, I can only see them in public because it got me reported cos I said it while we were in hospital, I just feel like such a sick fuck 😭 I noticed the similarity thought it was a funny one so I said it to make her laugh and that’s all there is to it but now my ocd is gunning for it and making me feel like a p😭😭😭 I had a reaction downstairs as well when I said it and it was unwanted but I knew it was because of me thinking about the mum at the same time but ocd is just manipulating the fuck out of it and making me want to scream😭😭

@Fcukocd That is a lot to work through, no doubt. I’m sorry it worked out that way, truly. On the one hand, it’s heartbreaking and that will probably just be exactly that. Only time I’ve even been separated from my kids was when i got divorced and didn’t see them every day. So i can’t entirely relate. My actions a few years ago made my oldest ones want to stay away from me. While i get it, it’s heartbreaking. They aren’t getting to see me as the best person I’ve ever been in my life. I’ll continue on being my best every day, i just hope they choose to see this part of me too rather than the memory of my mistakes. The flip side of things with your child is perhaps this time away gives you the chance to get your thoughts and responses worked out so when you’re reunited someday, you won’t have to fear your own thoughts. I hope that makes sense. This is your time to focus on those intrusive thoughts and there’s nothing wrong with that. You got this brother🤘

@SomeoneToMe Thanks man, I really hope I can get through this cos it’s making me suicidal 😭