Anonymous
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- 5y
ReptarroxReptarrox
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- 5y
Hey. Had this happen to me too. It's in the past tho. Why spend time worrying about somthing you think you might have done but don't remember. Head up you got this
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Thanks but it scares me because she’s like my bestfriend and I don’t want to be lesbian or bi and have done it
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
VERY good point Reptarrox, I’ve thought this very same thing. Accepting uncertainty about things you may have done seems to the only way to move forward past anxiety filled ruminating.
obsessively_obsessiveobsessively_...
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Even if you did, so what? Firstly, your friend doesn't have to know. Secondly, there's nothing terrible in being attracted to women - unless you're homophobic, in which case the biggest problem would be you shaming yourself. That doesn't mean you can't still be friends with this girl though. And finally, had you masturbated on your friends picture, you would remember. That's seems wildly out of character for you so it's not something you'd forget or even do in the first place. Your OCD is just making stuff up and lying to you.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
I know I just feel like I’m in denial
obsessively_obsessiveobsessively_...
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- 5y
@cloudqueen "I did [something] and don't remember it bc my brain blocked it out somehow" Is a classic OCD tactic to make you doubt yourself. But ask yourself, EVEN IF you m-ed to the pic, what are the consequences? You're the only one who knows. There's nothing shameful about it. Could it be that you're catastrophising the consequences here? In any case, you didn't do anything bad. Be kind to yourself and good luck.
ginacginac
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- 5y
Are you familiar with sexual orientation OCD? Because that’s what this person is dealing with. It has nothing to do with homophobia. Please educate yourself on different types of OCD before passing judgement on people, please!
obsessively_obsessiveobsessively_...
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- 5y
@ginac I said that if even if op was lesbian/bi, which seems to be the fear, the worst possible consequence would be self-shaming, nothing more. Can you tell me where exactly did I express judgement?
obsessively_obsessiveobsessively_...
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- 5y
@ginac To be clear, by "shaming yourself" I meant internalized feeling of shame, NOT shaming yourself in the eyes of other people. I thought it was clear from the context bc I'm not judging anyone here. If it was unclear - my bad, English isn't my native language.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@obsessively_obsessive I’m scared it is internalised homophobia and scared that I’ve known all my life or something
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@ginac Yeah I’m scared because I’m still a virgin and I haven’t seen a penis yet and I find girls bodies pretty and I’m scared that means I am
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@cloudqueen And also I get like a happy response and a gronial response when I yhink about a girls body and then I go full panic mode
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
I don’t understand? I wasn’t passing judgment at all. I just merely meant that with my OCD I struggle with the strange concept of worrying about things that I wonder “did that really happen, or was it just a made up thought”. It’s been through my own personal research that leads me to believe that this mental process I just mentioned seems to be present in multiple forms of OCD and I think through this understanding the OCD community as a whole may be able to unravel the mysteries and potential solutions of this disorder. I simply believe knowledge is power. I view everybody on this forum as my friends in the struggle. I just wanted to set things straight. Thank you.
ReptarroxReptarrox
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- 5y
I didn't think you were being judgemental at all...
ginacginac
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- 5y
I wasn’t responding to your comment.
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
Thanks Reptarrox, I didn’t think I was either. Thanks for that.
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
Ohh ok. My apologies.
ReptarroxReptarrox
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- 5y
That's how it works. It's gunna tell you you might have done all this you could have this or that, or it's your fault. But it's up to you if you let it tell you so. You think you did something wrong but your worried. You know that's not how you see your friend. But that's also where it makes you question everything. But your not your thoughts. there's a future ahead for you to be better and be happy.
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