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True. But yes I have acted on some compulsions that were horrible and yes I have ALOT of guilt about it. I broke up with multiple partners because of rocd. In fact I almost ruined my marriage bc of the rocd thoughts a few years back. I also gave into a compulsion to return a cute little stuffed octopus ? that I bought the other day, bc of thoughts about what if I can’t love it or what if it causes me bad luck?, only to feel very temporary relief then HUGE regret and sorrow after I returned it. I went back and re-bought it bc I don’t want OCD to control my decisions in life.
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I'm glad you didnt let it stop you from enjoying what you wanted
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Yes, I’ve been going through this for the past 4 months over a event that happened 5 months or so ago that I’m not super proud of. Basically from what I’ve researched is OCD likes to latch onto events that aren’t our proudest moments. Then when start replaying the event over and over in your head it starts to become distorted and even cause false memories. Everyone makes mistakes, we are all human, you are not supposed to be perfect. I’ve been trying to just accept the anxiety, as uncomfortable it is, and avoid any compulsions (even though I don’t always have great success). I just try to look at the silver lining and think even if I did do something that I’m not proud of, I can learn from the event, and hopefully come out as a better person. I hope this maybe helps a little bit, and do know there are people that are going through similar situations that are here for you. Best of luck on your journey.
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This is hopeful. My event happened 4 years ago and we worked it out but my mind says I dont love him and it's just so exhausting.
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I have searched about this and I think, and I'm not sure it's called real event ocd. I think it is, when the event wasn't horrible, but the ocd make lock worse that it real is.
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Because our brain watch everything in black and white, so something it's bad or it's good , but nothing else, that's how a brain with OCD works, because the event wasn't so important but our brain make us thing it is.
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- 20w
So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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I’m currently struggling with guilt from checking OCD. By this I mean, I feel guilty and shameful by my OCD checking because I feel as that was immoral and wrong and I really don’t know what to do. How can I fight this?
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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