- Username
- sks2011
- Date posted
- 4y ago
True. But yes I have acted on some compulsions that were horrible and yes I have ALOT of guilt about it. I broke up with multiple partners because of rocd. In fact I almost ruined my marriage bc of the rocd thoughts a few years back. I also gave into a compulsion to return a cute little stuffed octopus ? that I bought the other day, bc of thoughts about what if I can’t love it or what if it causes me bad luck?, only to feel very temporary relief then HUGE regret and sorrow after I returned it. I went back and re-bought it bc I don’t want OCD to control my decisions in life.
I'm glad you didnt let it stop you from enjoying what you wanted
Yes, I’ve been going through this for the past 4 months over a event that happened 5 months or so ago that I’m not super proud of. Basically from what I’ve researched is OCD likes to latch onto events that aren’t our proudest moments. Then when start replaying the event over and over in your head it starts to become distorted and even cause false memories. Everyone makes mistakes, we are all human, you are not supposed to be perfect. I’ve been trying to just accept the anxiety, as uncomfortable it is, and avoid any compulsions (even though I don’t always have great success). I just try to look at the silver lining and think even if I did do something that I’m not proud of, I can learn from the event, and hopefully come out as a better person. I hope this maybe helps a little bit, and do know there are people that are going through similar situations that are here for you. Best of luck on your journey.
This is hopeful. My event happened 4 years ago and we worked it out but my mind says I dont love him and it's just so exhausting.
I have searched about this and I think, and I'm not sure it's called real event ocd. I think it is, when the event wasn't horrible, but the ocd make lock worse that it real is.
Because our brain watch everything in black and white, so something it's bad or it's good , but nothing else, that's how a brain with OCD works, because the event wasn't so important but our brain make us thing it is.
Does anyone else suffer from ‘Real life events’ OCD? I constantly worry about things I did as a teenager (from ages 15-19) I wasn’t a very nice person and think I was quite a toxic girlfriend in my first relationship. I’m always terrified that people are going to find out and that I’m going to lose my job or something awful. I also think that a lot of people would be so shocked if they knew some of the things that I’d done, and that they would think so much less of me. I feel a constant need to confess or apologise, and wish more than anything that I could erase that whole chapter of my life. Previously in counselling, we looked at ‘black and white thinking’, and I managed to rationalise that everyone makes mistakes and nothing I did was that bad, but I have this horrible feeling that one day this will all catch up with me. Is this just genuine guilt and remorse or is this a symptom of OCD? Thanks in advance.
Can someone please respond to this.. Has anyone ever acted on a thought? I have and I believe it to be a horrible sin, as it is mentioned as one. How do I forgive myself? It is a really weird thing because when it happened I was in such a dark place. I honest to God should have been locked up. I had been self harming and attempted suicide around this time too. I had expressed to my mother how mentally unwell I was and she didn’t take it seriously at all. I don’t want to blame her but I know for a fact if I was taken seriously it wouldn’t have happened. My mind was screaming at me to do things all day long in a way I can’t even explain. My ocd is still with me every day but 9-10 years ago when this was happening it was BAD. I Didn’t have thoughts of my own. Only ocd. Id take sleeping pills to keep myself asleep and id have dreams of doing bad things. So I convinced myself I needed to see if I enjoyed it so I did it to see. Turns out nope. Didn’t like it it was just ocd. And that sin has cost me my mental sanity and love for myself. If anyone has gone through this how did you forgive yourself? Do you think god will forgive you? I know I’m not supposed to ask these things but despite what it says I actually get peace from reassurance. And I know I’m not the only one.
Can real event ocd, or ocd in general make you feel bad for something you did that was actually wrong? I keep thinking about things I’ve done in the past that are defiantly wrong and shitty things. But I’ve never really thought of them before. I knew they were terrible things, and I’ve not gone back since. Maybe 10+ years ago (when I was 19-21). I thought real event ocd was your brain taking things that are trivial and twisting them to make you seem bad. In these cases I’ve grown as a person l, I’m really not proud of myself and hope to never go back to that place. Is this ocd, or am I suddenly just feeling remorse for being a terrible person? I just feel the need to confess to my wife again, even though she knows most of it.
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