So I cant remember if I've ever asked this here, but has anyone ever done something awful that their ocd convinced them to do and now can't let go of the guilt? And I dont mean like terrible terrible things but like lying to someone, cheating, or something else that can cause heavy guilt. If so, how did you get past this? I feel like I'm not sure how to forgive myself when my moral code is so high.

True. But yes I have acted on some compulsions that were horrible and yes I have ALOT of guilt about it. I broke up with multiple partners because of rocd. In fact I almost ruined my marriage bc of the rocd thoughts a few years back. I also gave into a compulsion to return a cute little stuffed octopus ? that I bought the other day, bc of thoughts about what if I can’t love it or what if it causes me bad luck?, only to feel very temporary relief then HUGE regret and sorrow after I returned it. I went back and re-bought it bc I don’t want OCD to control my decisions in life.

Yes, I’ve been going through this for the past 4 months over a event that happened 5 months or so ago that I’m not super proud of. Basically from what I’ve researched is OCD likes to latch onto events that aren’t our proudest moments. Then when start replaying the event over and over in your head it starts to become distorted and even cause false memories. Everyone makes mistakes, we are all human, you are not supposed to be perfect. I’ve been trying to just accept the anxiety, as uncomfortable it is, and avoid any compulsions (even though I don’t always have great success). I just try to look at the silver lining and think even if I did do something that I’m not proud of, I can learn from the event, and hopefully come out as a better person. I hope this maybe helps a little bit, and do know there are people that are going through similar situations that are here for you. Best of luck on your journey.

I have searched about this and I think, and I'm not sure it's called real event ocd. I think it is, when the event wasn't horrible, but the ocd make lock worse that it real is.