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I feel that too.
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I thought that I am a bad person, a racist-but not much- and I def am homophobe at least 80% and I am biased about it, but at the same time I think maybe there is a bigger picture I can not see Last night I watched some videos for Ibrahim Elfeky (egyptian and idk what his profession is name in english) I dont know if this is relevant to ocd but I love his videos, he said that a thought comes to you then the mind ask you to repeat it, then it ask you to attach feelings to it, then repeat it, then repeat it again, then it become a belief, then repeat it again I really dont know if this is relevant to ocd but whatever you feed your mind it would believe it, so talking to yourself in a positive way is very important Then he mentioned a story about a person who was ill and his doctor was not able to help him heal from his illness, even after several times trying, then the doctor gave the patient two pills and said it is a newly found cure for his disease that can cure him jn less than 24 hours The patient took it and came the next day and the doctor found that the patient got alot better than before So your psychological state and what you tell yourself is important, changing a belief might be hard but it is not impossible So just dont let these thoughts get the best of you and if you really think you are a bad person and there is a reason that makes you feel bad and unable to get rid of that thought, maybe try to do something that is good, and you should just do not give much thought or care about these thoughts you have Talking to someone might help, I tried talking to someone on an app called 7 cup so you may want to do that? Idk Disclaimer: I do not know and do not take responsibility if: my advice would helped you or not, or made it worse, but I am trying my best to help.
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The pills were not newly found cure, they were just two pills of aspirine
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Everyone has opinions from their experiences or lack there of. Lmfao everyone I’ve met hold prejudices man. Honestly this is just the society we live in. A very judgmental society that lacks forgiveness. If you were 8 and said a racist thing people would make sure your life is ruined. That’s the world we live in and that pressure makes our OCD go off at times. It sucks. I wanna run for a political office some day and be a successful lawyer. But my OCD thinks someone will find something from my past and destroy my life. So my OCD wants me to stay simple and locked away so that doesn’t happen to me or my family. It sucks but we gotta realize that and accept the fact we can’t control thoughts and what others think or do.
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Well, if you want to become a lawyer for a good reason then do it Your life won’t be ruined And if it seemed like it is “ruined” then it probably is a path for betterment
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@Bisho It’s just OCD conjuring up fears. I’m going to law school and I’m gonna compete and be the greatest at that just like I was in college football. I’m a competitive person. I just realize I’ve always had that anxiety in the background. It’s life. Having OCD sucks and it makes the “what if’s” worse. But yeah man. Again, that just what we all have to deal with. In case something did happen I realize for me that I wouldn’t care. I believe in using experiences to become humble and not a time to be sorry or prideful. Shit happens it’s just all about worrying about what we can control. Thankfully OCD makes me work twice as hard on that. I’ve slowly become more stoic. I enjoy that.
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I can be way too hard on myself and beat myself up over the smallest slip up in regards to OCD. Sometimes it can feel like I'm gaslighting myself on what was "so blatantly and obviously a moral atrocity in thought and intent", when 95% of the time I'm not even sure what my own intent with dealing with these thoughts is or why I do what I do. It makes me feel like some shameless beast for "daring to even entertain the thought of something so VILE!!!" When I just get so confused and scared on moral issues, like my mind is pulled down a rabbit hole I can't escape until the tricks are done on me and it's too late, i've accepted such ideas I hate until that hate and trying to not give in convince me "it might not be that bad". It feels like anything, even the most mundane things can trigger this. This cycle happens mainly because I feel like there's "no way to escape committing more 'attrocities' in thought or compulsion anyway"...and these cycles become the basis for more of these incidents. there a way to stop this? There have been multiple times where I called myself the R word, and even knowing it's a slur I still called myself that because "I'm nothing if not deserving of such scorn". Any attempt to stop the madness makes it worse and it's like all this I talked about is so convincing I dare not question it until after the fact. Please help.
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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