millie
- Date posted
- 5y
roguesteadyroguesteady
- Date posted
- 5y
I feel that too.
BishoBisho
- Date posted
- 5y
I thought that I am a bad person, a racist-but not much- and I def am homophobe at least 80% and I am biased about it, but at the same time I think maybe there is a bigger picture I can not see Last night I watched some videos for Ibrahim Elfeky (egyptian and idk what his profession is name in english) I dont know if this is relevant to ocd but I love his videos, he said that a thought comes to you then the mind ask you to repeat it, then it ask you to attach feelings to it, then repeat it, then repeat it again, then it become a belief, then repeat it again I really dont know if this is relevant to ocd but whatever you feed your mind it would believe it, so talking to yourself in a positive way is very important Then he mentioned a story about a person who was ill and his doctor was not able to help him heal from his illness, even after several times trying, then the doctor gave the patient two pills and said it is a newly found cure for his disease that can cure him jn less than 24 hours The patient took it and came the next day and the doctor found that the patient got alot better than before So your psychological state and what you tell yourself is important, changing a belief might be hard but it is not impossible So just dont let these thoughts get the best of you and if you really think you are a bad person and there is a reason that makes you feel bad and unable to get rid of that thought, maybe try to do something that is good, and you should just do not give much thought or care about these thoughts you have Talking to someone might help, I tried talking to someone on an app called 7 cup so you may want to do that? Idk Disclaimer: I do not know and do not take responsibility if: my advice would helped you or not, or made it worse, but I am trying my best to help.
BishoBisho
- Date posted
- 5y
The pills were not newly found cure, they were just two pills of aspirine
Jayy0101Jayy0101
- Date posted
- 5y
Everyone has opinions from their experiences or lack there of. Lmfao everyone I’ve met hold prejudices man. Honestly this is just the society we live in. A very judgmental society that lacks forgiveness. If you were 8 and said a racist thing people would make sure your life is ruined. That’s the world we live in and that pressure makes our OCD go off at times. It sucks. I wanna run for a political office some day and be a successful lawyer. But my OCD thinks someone will find something from my past and destroy my life. So my OCD wants me to stay simple and locked away so that doesn’t happen to me or my family. It sucks but we gotta realize that and accept the fact we can’t control thoughts and what others think or do.
BishoBisho
- Date posted
- 5y
Well, if you want to become a lawyer for a good reason then do it Your life won’t be ruined And if it seemed like it is “ruined” then it probably is a path for betterment
Jayy0101Jayy0101
- Date posted
- 5y
@Bisho It’s just OCD conjuring up fears. I’m going to law school and I’m gonna compete and be the greatest at that just like I was in college football. I’m a competitive person. I just realize I’ve always had that anxiety in the background. It’s life. Having OCD sucks and it makes the “what if’s” worse. But yeah man. Again, that just what we all have to deal with. In case something did happen I realize for me that I wouldn’t care. I believe in using experiences to become humble and not a time to be sorry or prideful. Shit happens it’s just all about worrying about what we can control. Thankfully OCD makes me work twice as hard on that. I’ve slowly become more stoic. I enjoy that.
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- Date posted
- 20w
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