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My dad passed away last December and it was really, really hard on me. I really struggled going back to school after that. A few months later I got hocd and it just made everything 100000x worse. My depression got worse and I just wanted to be done with all this shit. I still have hocd but it's pretty mild now. My depression is still about the same. I promise you're not alone so don't worry ?
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Me!
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To be honest I’m not sure -cuie7. I’m honestly a shell of myself. I no longer know what I like anymore, I know longer know who I am anymore. My mind drifts back in forth of who I am and what I value. The only thing I know from what I learned today from my therapy session was that I want a kid but that’s about all I know now every thing else I’m not sure of and even though I found that out today I still have a hard time believing it but every time I talk about it I cry like a little baby but still... it was a shocker and it just made me even more depressed and because of all this shit I’m dealing with it has prevented me from having a child smdfh. It just sucks to know that and yet I can’t break free of my shit and be me again.
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@bufferthanyou I’ve been in a similar spot in the past. It can feel so lonely and empty until you realize you are capable of moving through it. Tomorrow I challenge you to choose something random and try it out. Maybe it’s something you’ve been wanting to do or something you used to love but don’t know anymore. You can start testing until you begin to find clarity in who you are and what you love. We already know one thing, that you want to be a parent and have lots of love to give. Now on to stepping into being the person who lives that. Let me know what you will try out and I can check in with you tomorrow ?
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That’s the thing idk. The only things I like are sports, working out, watching cop shows, watching movies, I used to play basketball with friends but I don’t have any friends anymore and for only being 27 I have a knee of a 55 yr old smh. To be honest the only thing I would like to do is watch Creed 2 because I like boxing but watching movies have been a bitch for the last 2 yrs because of HOCD so it sucks and I don’t have anyone to watch it with. But that’s about it and maybe playing madden or nba 2k but I don’t want to go buy them because they’re expensive. So idk I’ll just have to see how I feel tomorrow and see what comes to mind if anything.
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How does it make you feel -kalk9?
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Me. It makes me feel lonely as well. So I guess that makes us not lonely. It also makes me feel like I’m the lowest I’ve ever been in life. Sometimes it’s just so dark but I have to remember that I’m not the only one going through this, therefore we are not alone.
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I’ve had depression with my OCD in the past. You are definitely not alone in this. How can I support you during this time?
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Well I have health concern OCD and I get depressed and anxiety when I see others being happy and healthy and I’m always stuck at home because I’m sick or just scared that I have something bad.
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Memememe
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Bipolar disorder and OCD, you’re definitely not alone ❤️
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Any Christian’s with religion ocd and relationship ocd I feel so alone
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I’ve been in an OCD loop for a month now and Im struggling so much alone, no one in my family get what Im going through and are just ignoring me, and I got no friends to tell Im stuck in this cycle and it feels like Im lonely in a dark place, Im writing this right now cuz u guys know the struggle, if it’s okay can u please leave a comment so I don’t feel alone in this, can u please share tips and advice so I can go through this, I feel like Im losing it
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At this point I think I’m just tired. Took me a massive amount of strength to even type this. I’ve never had it this bad with anxiety depression and OCD. Firstly, how do you guys handle the trauma that comes with OCD. I recently realized Ive traumatized by own mind. I think this contributes to depression. Also, the thoughts frequency have gotten so high. It just literally jams its self in my brain. Before, I had some sort of control (at least a grip) but this days it’s so hard to try to get a grip. The unwanted feelings too? Omg, reactions that I literally can’t stand plagues me. My mind turns almost everything sexual. It’s crazy 🙃 Then the anxietyyyyyy! Wheew. I’m like a walking anxiety attack, my heart is always beating fast and it’s so painful. Working is so hard because I can’t get a grip, I feel so broken and I don’t think anyone can relate to this. I don’t know what I can do to help. Then the pressure in my head (that causes headache sometimes), sometimes I genuinely think I have a tumor! I’m pregnant so that makes it sadder, makes me wonder what kind of mother this beautiful soul is coming out here to meet. I don’t want to be a sad mother, and I cry more when I realize my child can feel what I feel rn in my belly😔. Another thing, the moment I don’t wanna do something, doesn’t even have to be anything bad. That’s when it feels my mind wants to force me to do it. It’s a whole lot and I’m just holding on to Jesus to help me out. At least he’s here so that’s comforting.
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