- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 6y ago
My dad passed away last December and it was really, really hard on me. I really struggled going back to school after that. A few months later I got hocd and it just made everything 100000x worse. My depression got worse and I just wanted to be done with all this shit. I still have hocd but it's pretty mild now. My depression is still about the same. I promise you're not alone so don't worry ?
Me!
To be honest I’m not sure -cuie7. I’m honestly a shell of myself. I no longer know what I like anymore, I know longer know who I am anymore. My mind drifts back in forth of who I am and what I value. The only thing I know from what I learned today from my therapy session was that I want a kid but that’s about all I know now every thing else I’m not sure of and even though I found that out today I still have a hard time believing it but every time I talk about it I cry like a little baby but still... it was a shocker and it just made me even more depressed and because of all this shit I’m dealing with it has prevented me from having a child smdfh. It just sucks to know that and yet I can’t break free of my shit and be me again.
@bufferthanyou I’ve been in a similar spot in the past. It can feel so lonely and empty until you realize you are capable of moving through it. Tomorrow I challenge you to choose something random and try it out. Maybe it’s something you’ve been wanting to do or something you used to love but don’t know anymore. You can start testing until you begin to find clarity in who you are and what you love. We already know one thing, that you want to be a parent and have lots of love to give. Now on to stepping into being the person who lives that. Let me know what you will try out and I can check in with you tomorrow ?
That’s the thing idk. The only things I like are sports, working out, watching cop shows, watching movies, I used to play basketball with friends but I don’t have any friends anymore and for only being 27 I have a knee of a 55 yr old smh. To be honest the only thing I would like to do is watch Creed 2 because I like boxing but watching movies have been a bitch for the last 2 yrs because of HOCD so it sucks and I don’t have anyone to watch it with. But that’s about it and maybe playing madden or nba 2k but I don’t want to go buy them because they’re expensive. So idk I’ll just have to see how I feel tomorrow and see what comes to mind if anything.
How does it make you feel -kalk9?
Me. It makes me feel lonely as well. So I guess that makes us not lonely. It also makes me feel like I’m the lowest I’ve ever been in life. Sometimes it’s just so dark but I have to remember that I’m not the only one going through this, therefore we are not alone.
I’ve had depression with my OCD in the past. You are definitely not alone in this. How can I support you during this time?
Well I have health concern OCD and I get depressed and anxiety when I see others being happy and healthy and I’m always stuck at home because I’m sick or just scared that I have something bad.
Memememe
Bipolar disorder and OCD, you’re definitely not alone ❤️
Does anyone have any comorbidity including bipolar disorder or depression? How can you differentiate the depression caused by OCD from potentially another issue entirely?
I am feeling so shitty right now… I am literally dealing with so many mental issues it’s making me hate the way I am and it’s messing with my head. I need to know I am not alone, I need to hear that someone feels similar. I am such a sensitive/nervous person I hate it SO MUCH. I dealt with Harm OCD for so long, and I’ve always been a loner, but now that I am finally getting to meet more people, my low self esteem, social anxiety and even emetophobia are getting on the way. Whenever I hang out with new people I haven’t met for that long, I get extremely nervous, shaky, sweaty, red, my voice cracks, my lips tremble, and I even struggle to eat. This is messing so bad with my self esteem, (that was low on its own), that I feel embarrased and uncomfortable around people all of the time. I hate this. I just wanna be happy and I haven’t been able to in such a long time. I am always dealing with so much I can’t take it.
Anyone currently going through this? Or went through this? I have harm ocd and it’s either about my family or then about myself and I feel afraid of not having any hope any more. I get suicidal thoughts both as intrusive thoughts but also as something I would want to stop all the anxiety I feel. Any help is appreciated
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