- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 6y ago
My dad passed away last December and it was really, really hard on me. I really struggled going back to school after that. A few months later I got hocd and it just made everything 100000x worse. My depression got worse and I just wanted to be done with all this shit. I still have hocd but it's pretty mild now. My depression is still about the same. I promise you're not alone so don't worry ?
Me!
To be honest I’m not sure -cuie7. I’m honestly a shell of myself. I no longer know what I like anymore, I know longer know who I am anymore. My mind drifts back in forth of who I am and what I value. The only thing I know from what I learned today from my therapy session was that I want a kid but that’s about all I know now every thing else I’m not sure of and even though I found that out today I still have a hard time believing it but every time I talk about it I cry like a little baby but still... it was a shocker and it just made me even more depressed and because of all this shit I’m dealing with it has prevented me from having a child smdfh. It just sucks to know that and yet I can’t break free of my shit and be me again.
@bufferthanyou I’ve been in a similar spot in the past. It can feel so lonely and empty until you realize you are capable of moving through it. Tomorrow I challenge you to choose something random and try it out. Maybe it’s something you’ve been wanting to do or something you used to love but don’t know anymore. You can start testing until you begin to find clarity in who you are and what you love. We already know one thing, that you want to be a parent and have lots of love to give. Now on to stepping into being the person who lives that. Let me know what you will try out and I can check in with you tomorrow ?
That’s the thing idk. The only things I like are sports, working out, watching cop shows, watching movies, I used to play basketball with friends but I don’t have any friends anymore and for only being 27 I have a knee of a 55 yr old smh. To be honest the only thing I would like to do is watch Creed 2 because I like boxing but watching movies have been a bitch for the last 2 yrs because of HOCD so it sucks and I don’t have anyone to watch it with. But that’s about it and maybe playing madden or nba 2k but I don’t want to go buy them because they’re expensive. So idk I’ll just have to see how I feel tomorrow and see what comes to mind if anything.
How does it make you feel -kalk9?
Me. It makes me feel lonely as well. So I guess that makes us not lonely. It also makes me feel like I’m the lowest I’ve ever been in life. Sometimes it’s just so dark but I have to remember that I’m not the only one going through this, therefore we are not alone.
I’ve had depression with my OCD in the past. You are definitely not alone in this. How can I support you during this time?
Well I have health concern OCD and I get depressed and anxiety when I see others being happy and healthy and I’m always stuck at home because I’m sick or just scared that I have something bad.
Memememe
Bipolar disorder and OCD, you’re definitely not alone ❤️
Does anyone have any comorbidity including bipolar disorder or depression? How can you differentiate the depression caused by OCD from potentially another issue entirely?
Does anyone feel alone with all the ocd struggle? Like, this is not something that we can tell to anyone. I've been feeling so lonely and missunderstood. I mean, I feel like a weirdo. This is so hard. There are some days when I feel like "this is it, i'm gonna be stuck on this forever". Tomorrow i'll see my psychiatrist to make some adjustments on my meds.
I have all of these and im just asking because I always thought nobody would ever understand how much is constantly going on in my head all at once, all the time, everyday. Sometimes there's so much in my head i feel suicidal purely out of wanting a break from so much constantly going on, feeling like it's never going to stop and I can't handle it, and that nobody gets it or ever will. Like there's so many different layers of thoughts and anxieties that connect to triggering each other every day all the time that I don't want to have to even try to navigate any of it anymore... Does anyone else feel this way...
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