does anyone else feel like they’ve completely lost themself and don’t know what they really feel like or who they are anymore. i have no idea what i should have as morals or if i even care about anything, i’m really stuck, i don’t even know my sexuality anymore, it’s really tough.

I thought I was really getting better because my anxiety has gone down significantly but now I still have doubts about my sexuality. I'm 27 and have never been in a romantic relationship with a man and want to so bad. But since it hasn't happened yet I feel like I am not capable of doing so because I'm a lesbian and just realizing it. It also doesn't help that I did like watching lesbian porn (i felt nothong about it because i know a lot of straight women do). And when I was 22 I did question my sexuality but "knew" I liked guys and really wasn't interested in sex or a relationship with a woman. But now I feel like I was wrong.

Im doing erp therapy now it's been 3 weeks! I do feel my anxiety has gone down because it got to the point where i was having suicidal thoughts. But i feel i should be further along in recovery and I'm afraid I'm not doing the erp exercises right. Im reading Overcoming Intrusive Thoughts and have ordered an OCD workbook that comes tomorrow. I also found a workout packet so i can document my exposures and responses better. Another thing that is difficult is learning all of the mental compulsions i have. I have been able to stop the Googling and other physical compulsions but I recently learned of others that I have been doing this entire time. I am happy to discover them so i can stop but i feel i have wasted the past 3 weeks. And it's expensive to go to therapy. Don't get me wrong i have the best therapist and she's so patient and understanding but i feel im the biggest set back.

Same :((

I agree 100%