When I look at pictures of myself, I see a young woman who deserves a fulfilling life that is not dictated by OCD and anxiety. I feel sad that so much of my time, my energy, and my choices have been consumed by OCD. I spend so much time in my head, ruminating and worrying and trying so damn hard to figure out that one thing that my OCD urgently presses me to solve. Sometimes I don't enjoy things that I want to because I'm overwhelmed with my compulsions. I've struggled with this for years, and lately OCD has been telling me that the struggle will never end--that I'll never feel in control of my life. I know that this isn't true, but I'm so scared that it could be. My faith doesn't feel bigger than my fear right now. How do I change that? I don't want to live like this anymore. As I'm writing this, my OCD is telling me that I'm incapable of recovery, but I know I can recover. I deserve to recover. I'm in therapy with an OCD specialist outside of this app and I'm going to increase the frequency of my sessions from once a month to once a week because I deserve an amazing, fulfilling life. And to whoever is reading this, you do, too.

This post was absolutely so beautiful and heart felt. I relate to everything to just said. It’s SO hard. But you know what I believe in you. I believe in everyone on this app so hard. One day I know we will get this under control. Stay strong ❤️

This was a beautiful post. I know it's so difficult to live with. I'm here if you need peer support or just want to talk. I hope you have a lot of progress and that you choose (not the OCD) to have a great day. :)

I think it is amazing that you see that when you look at yourself. I would love to have the same self compassion. I think that will be your best tool in fighting this. I believe in you and am sending you positive vibes for recovery. I relate to all you said about the sadness of loss of time and fear of not recovering, but I think if we trust the process and fake it until we make it, we will overcome. Brené Brown has a beautiful quotes about faith that could be a comfort to you - they have been to me. Best of luck, I believe in you.

Thank you so much for your vulnerability! You definitely deserve everything you mentioned! So proud that you not only recognize it, but are also putting yourself first by upping your therapy sessions to get you where you want to be! Therapy is hard work - but it is so worth it to finally have that true freedom from OCD! Keep up the great work. If you ever have any questions I’d be happy to help in anyway I can!

Same! I have Gifts of Imperfection and have started (like over a year ago) and set it down