- Username
- paolarism
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You are not alone. Don’t trust those thoughts. You have OCD but don’t let OCD have you!!!! You are not your OCD no matter how much it tries to make you think otherwise. PERIOD. If you have to take things minute by minute, then do that. I was actually getting to the place you are in now tonight and decided to get a friend to go on a walk with me. I wouldn’t say it was a miracle cure but it did take the edge off and sometimes that’s all you need to finally be able to sleep. And then when you are up the next day, try and find something to do that makes you happy and distract yourself with tv or something. It might seem hopeless now but that is another one of OCD’s tricks. There are ERP exercises and books even if you can’t get in to see a therapist/psychiatrist. And if you don’t feel ready to do them or go to a dr, hold on knowing that OCD waxes and wanes and that you will eventually get some relief. You’ve got this! We’ve got this! I’ll check in later to see how you are doing:) Hugs?
Thank you everyone, the support on this app is amazing. It feels nice to know that there are people out there going through the same thing as me, and that understand me. You guys make me feel less alone and give me hope. I hope every single one of you is doing okay, and that if are not i hope that you’ll come on here because there’s a lot of support and love. Hugs for everyone!
I had a much better day!
Oh no that sounds horrible! I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Please try and get into treatment if you haven't already. I know it's super hard to believe, but there is hope. You won't always feel this way. Try to spend time around other people if you can. God bless you
This was me a month ago. I didn’t think life was worth living AT ALL. I seriously considered taking my own life. I had never experienced such pain and hopelessness in my life. However things are starting to look up: things change, even if you don’t believe they will. I’m sending you all of my love. I know how you feel, I really do. Hang in there, be strong. Keep us updated or vent everything out if you want. We’re here for you. OCD destroys lives, but only people like us here on this app really understand this. ❤️
We’re all here for you! OCD can be extremely hard but things truly do get better. Just know you’re not alone and have support ?
I’m waiting for my first session with an ocd specialist. I’ve just been having a rough couple of days, thank you for your comment.
How are you doing, Paolarism? How did the day treat you? ?
YAYAY I’m so glad to hear that!!!! And same goes for you, @paolarism, HMU if you’re day goes south...or ya just wanna talk;)
Yay! I’m happy you’re feeling a bit better :)
for the past four days, i haven’t been taking care of myself. i don’t sleep until 5, i wake up at 4 in the evening, i only have 1 meal a day, and i look ill. my room’s been a mess for a few months now so i’ve been sleeping in the guest room. my acne has worsened because i’ve been skipping my skincare routines and haven’t been showering. i feel so sad, i want to be productive and do something that makes me feel useful to others but i just can’t. sometimes i can’t even move. i just feel numb. sleeping has been the only way to really block out my thoughts. when i’m lucky i get good dreams and when i wake up sometimes i pretend those dreams actually happened. i feel like i have no one to talk to, no one really asks me how i’m doing anymore and i don’t blame them because we’re all going through something. but even my own parents don’t seem to bother about how i’m feeling. i just feel alone and i want to get through it but i’ve been too weak to. i don’t like this feeling
i'm tired of the fear of becoming something horrible. im tired of feeling like i'm an irredeemable monster. im tired of thinking about what happened every hour of my life. im tired of the fear of being a bad person. im tired of never feeling like i deserve anything. i'm tired of the ruminating, the anguish, the guilt, the regret, the pain, the anger at myself. i dont know what i want. it feels as if making my life better will be like excusing my actions. i feel like i deserve this pain. my genuine emotions feel like a facade. im so scared. i dont want to be a bad person. why did i think it was okay in the moment. why.
I hate who I am. Not my personality or my physical appearance. I hate HOW I AM. The things I can’t do because of anxiety, and the thing a that my friends and family can do. I hate not being able to have fun without feeling the overwhelming sense of anxiety and guilt, dooming feeling of disaster. From going to a party to the fear of downloading an app on my phone. Everything I can’t do. I hate it so much. I’m still very young, only 15 and I can’t live my life. I am in fear of the world and I am in fear of not living. I’m scared I won’t be able to find true love or get a job or drive or participate in any sports or social activities. I am so afraid I won’t live up to my OWN expectations.
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