- Username
- paolarism
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You are not alone. Don’t trust those thoughts. You have OCD but don’t let OCD have you!!!! You are not your OCD no matter how much it tries to make you think otherwise. PERIOD. If you have to take things minute by minute, then do that. I was actually getting to the place you are in now tonight and decided to get a friend to go on a walk with me. I wouldn’t say it was a miracle cure but it did take the edge off and sometimes that’s all you need to finally be able to sleep. And then when you are up the next day, try and find something to do that makes you happy and distract yourself with tv or something. It might seem hopeless now but that is another one of OCD’s tricks. There are ERP exercises and books even if you can’t get in to see a therapist/psychiatrist. And if you don’t feel ready to do them or go to a dr, hold on knowing that OCD waxes and wanes and that you will eventually get some relief. You’ve got this! We’ve got this! I’ll check in later to see how you are doing:) Hugs?
Thank you everyone, the support on this app is amazing. It feels nice to know that there are people out there going through the same thing as me, and that understand me. You guys make me feel less alone and give me hope. I hope every single one of you is doing okay, and that if are not i hope that you’ll come on here because there’s a lot of support and love. Hugs for everyone!
I had a much better day!
Oh no that sounds horrible! I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Please try and get into treatment if you haven't already. I know it's super hard to believe, but there is hope. You won't always feel this way. Try to spend time around other people if you can. God bless you
This was me a month ago. I didn’t think life was worth living AT ALL. I seriously considered taking my own life. I had never experienced such pain and hopelessness in my life. However things are starting to look up: things change, even if you don’t believe they will. I’m sending you all of my love. I know how you feel, I really do. Hang in there, be strong. Keep us updated or vent everything out if you want. We’re here for you. OCD destroys lives, but only people like us here on this app really understand this. ❤️
We’re all here for you! OCD can be extremely hard but things truly do get better. Just know you’re not alone and have support ?
I’m waiting for my first session with an ocd specialist. I’ve just been having a rough couple of days, thank you for your comment.
How are you doing, Paolarism? How did the day treat you? ?
YAYAY I’m so glad to hear that!!!! And same goes for you, @paolarism, HMU if you’re day goes south...or ya just wanna talk;)
Yay! I’m happy you’re feeling a bit better :)
I don’t even know the wrong from the the right anymore I don’t even know how to talk to people without thinking that I offended them or spoke to them in a bad way I don’t even know what i became I don’t want what I became i just cry looking at my hands I cry looking at myself i feel pathetic I feel so desperate I was never this weak and now look at me not being able to control my own behaviors. What happened to the girl who always laughed and cared so much about herself the girl who loved nail polish and was so close to god in away no one imagined what happened to the girl who used to take full grades and be the smartest what happened to me. Isn’t it sad looking at myself with pity, helpless and full of doubt! I don’t deserve this. I know what’s I’m gonna say know sounds selfish but i do compare myself to others I wasn’t as bad as them so why me and not them! Why me !!... I’m loosing my mind I’m getting angry when I’m left alone I’m giving ocd the keys for the prison it made for me I’m letting it control me not that I want to but im not fighting back. Now im with no friends, with a family that doesn’t understand ocd, and a corrupted society that doesn’t value mental health. I’m so sad i feel like a baby rn but im actually so sad and lonely im conditioned now to believe that no one wants me, that im just a burden and need to be silent, not important and useless.... Idk even know what to say anymore
i'm tired of the fear of becoming something horrible. im tired of feeling like i'm an irredeemable monster. im tired of thinking about what happened every hour of my life. im tired of the fear of being a bad person. im tired of never feeling like i deserve anything. i'm tired of the ruminating, the anguish, the guilt, the regret, the pain, the anger at myself. i dont know what i want. it feels as if making my life better will be like excusing my actions. i feel like i deserve this pain. my genuine emotions feel like a facade. im so scared. i dont want to be a bad person. why did i think it was okay in the moment. why.
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