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yea this disorder sucks major ass, especially in this regard. harm ocd does awful things to my brain as well but lately i’ve found that constant positive affirmation is what helps me to cope. honestly this is probably a compulsion, but whenever the scarier thoughts pop into my head i repeat the phrase “you are not that thought” over and over until i finally forget. or i simply sing over the “loudness” of the thought at play. i also keep in mind that if i were truly as abhorrent as my brain wants me to think i wouldn’t be so completely and utter disgusted at the content. so yea :) i hope this helps
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utterly*
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- 4y
Are you in treatment with an ocd specialist? I can see and feel your pain. And I’m so sorry your ocd has gotten this bad. Unfortunately, compulsions aren’t the answer. They never have been and never will be. What you’re doing isn’t working. And it’s time to try something new. That new thing is proper treatment where you resist compulsions and learn to sit with all of the icky feelings you have instead of spending all day trying to get rid of them. It won’t be easy. It will feel hard. It will be exhausting in its own right. But it will be productive. It will help you heal. And it will get better with time. What you’re doing now won’t get better with time; it will continue to get worse. Find an ocd specialist. If that’s not an option, do an online course for ocd. If that’s not an option, get an ocd workbook. Join an ocd support group. Read some books on ocd. And most importantly: start implementing what you learn. You can do this!
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- 4y
I am going through the exact same thing at the moment and it’s so hard. I have always been a nice person but these thoughts make me feel like I’m not and that I was manipulating people into thinking I was nice when deep down I wasn’t which isn’t true and I know that. It’s so hard but we will get through this. Sending you all my love ❤️
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- 24w
harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.
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- 18w
I have all kinds of thoughts that aren’t me it feels like someone is talking to me telling me evil things about people or to do evil things 😞😞😞😞 I can’t do this anymore
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- 16w
I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…
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