Today was a horrible day... I got falsely accused of racism by a random stranger the first thing in the morning. I got yelled at by people on the discord community for it. I didn’t win the draw for the shoes I wanted to make money for. The girl I like hasn’t been responding to my DM’s, and my HOCD and POCD feel so real and it makes me feel like I’m in denial constantly with the intrusive thoughts... it feels so tempting to just give up and die...

You just have to realize OCD is making you go through all this, so the moment you get any sort of feeling or thought thats ocd, identify it and don't think about it and this will take its power away. I know it's so hard man I used to never cry like ever and ever since I got this hocd I cry myself to sleep like every night when its a bad phase because I genuinely feel like I really am gay sometimes but it's just ocd, and the more you stress about it the more power you give it so just relax, eventually you will come back to your senses. Watch some motivational movies too, it helps me inspire me to not give and after we get through this we will be even stronger than before bro, just have hope

I’m sorry to hear that.. how are you doing now?

Me too bro but just remember it's just a bad phase. I was so bad and I was literally so suicidal but after a few days the suicidal thoughts went away. It will feel so real which is why hocd is a problem but it's just a thought. Identify it as ocd the moment you get the thought and don't think about it anymore or else you will ruminate and go down the spiral. It's like when you watch a scary movie, you know it's not real at all and you're still SO tense and scared, ocd is like that and it feels so real

Don’t give up this pocd also makes me feel like am in denial