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You just have to realize OCD is making you go through all this, so the moment you get any sort of feeling or thought thats ocd, identify it and don't think about it and this will take its power away. I know it's so hard man I used to never cry like ever and ever since I got this hocd I cry myself to sleep like every night when its a bad phase because I genuinely feel like I really am gay sometimes but it's just ocd, and the more you stress about it the more power you give it so just relax, eventually you will come back to your senses. Watch some motivational movies too, it helps me inspire me to not give and after we get through this we will be even stronger than before bro, just have hope
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I’m sorry to hear that.. how are you doing now?
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I cried to my mom on the phone... I just feel so alone...
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@POCDKILLME Crying sometimes helps.. a random stranger accusing you of something untrue is definitely upsetting, and all you can do is understand that whatever that person said was just bullshit in their head, and we don’t know what is going up there! And I hope you get the shoes you wanted some other way, hopefully another opportunity arises. And POCD is very rough, very taxing emotionally.. however, it’s literally a glitch in ur head..
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@Tatu “Literally a glitch in your head”...love it❤️
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Me too bro but just remember it's just a bad phase. I was so bad and I was literally so suicidal but after a few days the suicidal thoughts went away. It will feel so real which is why hocd is a problem but it's just a thought. Identify it as ocd the moment you get the thought and don't think about it anymore or else you will ruminate and go down the spiral. It's like when you watch a scary movie, you know it's not real at all and you're still SO tense and scared, ocd is like that and it feels so real
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Don’t give up this pocd also makes me feel like am in denial
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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I’m really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, it’s like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isn’t that great and everything is super tough for me. It’s like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now I’m really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me it’s decently strong so it’s hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. It’s an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that I’m getting better when in reality I’m in so much pain, it’s like I’m barely doing anything at all. Please, help, I’ve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though it’s extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I don’t want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? I’m in so much pain. I don’t know how to even deal with it. I’m so lost, I might lose it more, and I’m scared for myself. I feel like I don’t even deserve help. I’m so mentally unwell I can’t even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. I’m so numb to it all. I don’t feel anything anymore.
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Today I woke up and immediately was flooded with intrusive thoughts. I was thinking about how I want to remembered when my time on earth is finished. I want to be remembered by my kindness and my heart. I want to be remembered by the lives i’ve changed. But then it hit me. What if you want to be a girl? What if you’re just telling yourself you don’t want to be a girl? I shouldn’t be scared, my family would love me no matter what I was. But this.. This is taking its toll on me. People call me maam all the time. I have feminine features and qualities.. It makes me question everything I know about my life. But I think what makes it worse is that i’m scared but don’t feel scared? Like I don’t feel intense fear like I once did. I know that I don’t want to be a girl. I don’t want boobs or long hair and nails. I have feminine qualities but I just exist. And this morning it’s hitting me very hard. I hate TOCD. I hate that I can’t just have one moment of peace. That it finds ways to seep into my life by finding areas i’m weakest in. I read other people’s stories and kinda do checking with it. And to make it all worse my for you page is FILLED with trans tiktok’s and peoples experiences. It’s making me mad. Why can’t I just be happy? Like everyone else in my house? Why did I inherit this stupid fucking disorder? And why do I question everything single thing about myself. First it was fear I was going to hurt someone and be a monster. And now it’s fucking thoughts of me wanting to be a girl?? Anyways have a nice day guys.
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