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If you just moved that can cause a lot of anxiety to start with. And waves of anxiety will trigger OCD. So it makes perfect sense that your Harm OCD has spiked. And if your condition is becoming crippling to where you cant work, you can be evaluated and get on disability. While on disability you can get the therapy you need ( find an OCD therapist). I wish I could have taken that route, I was so crippled by my OCD that I could have done this if I'd known what options I had. Because pushing through on your own is possible but very very difficult. Anyway, good luck!
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- 6y
Any big changes makes my OCD spike too... moving, even vacation. It’s like my brain can’t handle the change in routine, but it does calm down eventually. In the meantime, I try to be diligent with my ERP. However bad my current obsession is, I know it would be something else if it wasn’t this one. That thought seems to help me be able to do the ERP.
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Can you get to a psychologist or psychiatrist? Even just going once for a proper diagnosis and some advice on treatment options would be so worth it. https://iocdf.org/find-help/ After that, if finances are a concern, there are a lot of self help books out there. I know Jon Hershfield has a new one about Harm OCD out. Medication did not do much for me either, but I’ve read that it’s not always effective for OCD on its own and should really just be used as water wings to be able to do the ERP anyways.
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I’m so sorry you are feeling like this! Know that so many of us have been there and things can get better. There are a lot of success stories out there. Don’t give up!
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Also when looking for a new therapist, I would recommend confirming they know and do ERP. Hang in there!
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I've been stuck on harm OCD for 8 years. I feel like a monster. The anxiety is just unbearable, I can't find any medicines that work and I have no idea how to do ERP. I don't even know if it is OCD anymore, I was diagnosed many years ago but I said to the doctor first that I thought it was OCD and he agreed. I feel like the thoughts are mine. It's just unbearable
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- 6y
I've seen a phychiartrist and 2 therapists. They all say OCD mixed with major depression. I've just moved and I need to find a new therapist and phychiartrist. I'm just really struggling and it all feels so real
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It's an absolute monster of a condition. It makes me feel so miserable. Thanks to both of you
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- 6y
It sure is! I hate it too! It’s a big bully we have to fight every day. But we can do it ☺️
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Do you get a gloomy feeling like a feeling of dread as well as the intrusive thoughts and anxiety?
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Yes, I feel exactly like that sometimes. Unfortunately depression and ocd often come together. I think all the all the ruminating eventually wears out our minds and bodies and leaves us in a depressed state. Medication may help lift this a bit. And working on the OCD is the answer. Until then, exercise (especially outdoors) and time with friends can help a bit. It’s often the last things I feel like doing, but I make myself and it does help.
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- 20w
Makes me feel lost. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore.
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- 14w
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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It is not the thoughts or urges that scare me anymore. It is the way I feel like I’ve absorbed the compulsions into my identity :( I am doing them so automatically that it feels like I am choosing them freely and they’re me. and because of that, it feels like I AM the OCD now, not just someone with OCD. I think I’m just deeply trapped in a loop. I was trying to survive unbearable fear so I started scanning. Then I started pre-scanning. Then checking if I pre-scanned. Then I check how I feel during all that. I run to beat my OCD to the “punchline” (intrusive thought, urge, sensation) because I’m so scared all the time. So scared that I don’t even feel it anymore. I feel numb and all that’s left is this jittery residue and numbness. Now it’s all tangled together in a huge knot. I feel so extremely lost. I think this may just be meta OCD, but I’ve never ever felt so gone before :( I’m really scared.
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