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- 6y
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- 6y
It would be illegal to upload such content, let alone to molest anyone going in for a massage. Where was this posted?
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- 6y
The fact that you are anxious about that tells me that it is OCD You can get though this Just don’t be afraid I have had several types of OCD: HOCD, POCD and ROCD (now) and I went though this, if I can, then you can do it as well Be brave, be powerful, everything is gonna be okay, I promise!
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- 6y
It was on a site called redtube. I’d heard about it a while ago and I didn’t really want to search for sites I didn’t know. I’m not even sure what the video was because I only saw around 20 seconds. I just feel so guilty that I’ve seen some of it. And I don’t even know if it was a ‘hidden camera’ because from what I saw, the women didn’t seem to be uncomfortable with it. I don’t even fully remember the video but it was just a strange camera angle and the ‘sponsored by’ thing was just weird to me, and then I started to panic.
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- 6y
These major websites put in a lot of effort to policing the content that goes on there. They could get into a LOT of trouble if they let something illegal in their site. I wouldn't worry too much about it
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- 6y
@dariamerchant Thank you for your reply. Yes, that makes sense, I was suspecting it would be my OCD. Thank you ! I hope you get better too :) @deputydean yeah, that makes sense, the video just seemed weird to me, and then of course that led me to spiral and literally not think of anything else. I just feel terrible about it. Have you heard of the site before ? Is it one that would make sure the content it okay ?
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- 6y
I've stopped going to those sites since a long time ago bc porn messes with your head on so many levels. Just stick to the known ones and you'll be fine.
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- 6y
Okay. Thank you for the advice. If you don’t mind me asking ? In what ways does it mess with your head ? I just want to make sure I’m sling the right thing for myself. Someone told me it would help with the OCD but I don’t want to watch it if it’s not going to help.
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- 6y
*Doing* not sling
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- 25w
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- 14w
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