Someone with hocd there to talk

Yup I’m going through everything you’ve just said! Loss of attraction sucks big time :(

@MelodyMoo Thank you for making me feel less alone. I feel so sad that I can’t talk to anyone about this in my life. No one really understands.

Yeah I can hardly feel a thing recently and it's horrible it almost like it's fading 😔

@Ihateocd83 Same. Sometimes it feels sooo real and the like slight reduction in anxiety serves as reinforcement that maybe I’ve known my whole life and I feel like I have nooo idea what my sexuality is

We got this. Yeah and I have always been a worrier and an over thinker 😔

@Ihateocd83 Avoidance is a bitch too. Trying to cut that out.

We have to learn to respomd to our scary intrusive thoughts differently. Im dealing with the same type of thing its hard to do i mean currently im failing horribly in responding to them as a threat and checking and checking what i really think/feel. And even when i speak the my truth the anxiety, worry, what if, other scenarios stay lingering... So if these feelings will continue to linger we must respond a different way sincee it aint working and only feeding the monster ocd. I try to just let them be notice the thught say thanks for the thought ocd but im not gonna respond to this in anyway and try to push forward.

@mwill My loss of attraction has got so bad I don't feel hardly anything sometimes towards women. And I feel like I don't like there genitals 😔

@Ihateocd83 It sounds like you’re trying to work out your thoughts and worries and in reality there will never be an answer, there’s not a way to “find out 100% someone’s sexuality” so searching for an answer is almost a waste of time haha! This is why people say accept the uncertainty, because there is no answer anyway, accept that the thoughts are there but they’re just thoughts not facts :) (tiny bit of reassurance maybe but nobody’s genitals are exactly works of art or the most beautiful things haha!)

Oh I know that feeling. Got trigger like that yesterday. Had to really dig deep face my fears. Of course the same dude triggered me today. I hate the fact that I still get by bullshit. But im still trying... Just say "ok, so Brian triggered me. That's fine. Oh, its telling me I want that? Fine, cool. Maybe yes, maybe no. Nothing I can do about it." And sit with the anxiety.

@Jbm421 Not sure I feel anxiety anymore. I've just broke down crying. The thoughts are way to real thinking of men saying stuff like he's hot I can't handle this anymore 😔

Yes, have you?

My entire life

@Jbm421 Yup haha, I once cried all night bc I accident ripped a piece of my school textbook, made my mum come into school with my the next day so I could formally apologise to me teacher, of course she had no idea what I was on about hahah

@Anonymous Yeah even before ocd super analytical about people my surroundings and things in general. Lol

@mwill Anyone there to talk ?

@Ihateocd83 What's going on brother?

@mwill I'm struggling with what's ocd thoughts and what's real. I was watching this video of a woman dancing around in hardly nothing. And in my head I was like not interested doesn't do it for me why would you want that when you could be with a man etc .. 😔

@Ihateocd83 Have you tried just giving yourself a break from watching anything sexual for a day or so?

@mwill Yeah but I find myself going on random chat sites and talking to girls

@Ihateocd83 This stuff is hard i find myself finding my truthful answers feeling reassured then ruminating and feeling worried. Lets try our best to not find absolutely no way of reassuring or checking just for a day its gonna be hard as hell with the amount of intrusive thoughts, anxious thinking, and habituated cumpulsions and many other things. But we can do this its us or the ocd monster beating us up.

@mwill Yesterday I had I bad day broke down etc. I just feel like I'm hiding something. I just want my life back. I don't want to think of men. This feels like it took the most precious thing from me

@mwill Should I stay away from porn. My thoughts just seem way to real like I feel like I'm on the urge of saying I'm gay. And I have said it to myself 😔

@Ihateocd83 Well porn isnt healthy in general. You should try just noticing the thoughts but just because you notice them doesnt mean you agree, or accept them just notice be like "cool another thought i dont want to have thanks ocd" and move forward with urges to check disect the thoughts and the feelings of distress. Also the brain is a organ who's function is to throw thoughts at you it doesnt know the difference between good or bad thoughts just throws out suggestions and remember whatever you give energy to will continue to grow and persist. So dont resist the thoughts let hang around your head notice them and dont give them no energy let them burn out.

@mwill Thanks buddy 👍

@Ihateocd83 Anytime we are all here for each other we aren't alone.

@mwill I do worry because I have every symptom going. I try and think about women and there genitals and my mind is like disgusting etc..😔

Mate I'm just fed up

@Ihateocd83 Tell me about it. It gets frustrating getting back up after falling over and over again.

@Jbm421 I don't know how to beat this. I agree with the thoughts then I get the feelings etc ... wanting to be with a man etc ... I don't know what to do I've spent loads of money on therapy and I'm scared it must be because it's not ocd

@Ihateocd83 I know that feeling but we are pressing on. Are you able to get out at all???

@Jbm421 Not at the moment mate. I just can't keep this up I feel in denial. But when I get deep into the thoughts I am digusted

@Ihateocd83 Exactly but the problem is, we are digging deep into the thoughts. We are not supposed to do that. We are supposed to let the thoughts be. It feels difficult, impossible even, when there are so many feelings attached to the slightest thought and that is another place that we fail. We need to stop trying to find answers. That is the key...

@Jbm421 I feel like I've gone backwards last couple of days crying all the time. This feels like the end of the world for me. I keep thinking of good looking guys and I don't want to

@Ihateocd83 I'm in the exact same boat bro. Except mine is one false attraction and it's kinda killing. Its impossible for my thoughts to be so bad and for me to lose females to this extent.

@Jbm421 Dang for me is checking if i like a coworker i did last night and my answer was no to all of it. Then i feared the thought my brain saying i like him and my brain said it today as soon as i woke up. I knew it was false but i still got worried and checked againg this morning and asked myself again visualized him and my answer came which was no. But i did it again because i felt like i didnt focus on visualization. So i did it again i stay staring mentally and then my face did this 🤨 and my answer popped up like no i dont. I hate this i need to trust myself, and honesty.

@mwill I think that's the stupid shit with me. I need to trust myself. The one false attraction I have is so ridiculous but it still feels too real. Its dude who stays in my sister house and I can admit that he is a good looking dude and he's also a fat guy. Lol anyways, ever since that dude triggered me like 3 months ago, I can even look at the mothertucker. Id sooner punch the dude in the face than any of that gay stuff but my mind has to check, and check again, and check again. And it doesn't help that I can feel nothing, NOTHING, for females....I hate my life

@Ihateocd83 You’ve said you’ve spent loads of money on therapy but it doesn’t sound like you trusted the ERP process since you’re reassurance seeking a ton right now. You have to reallllly lean into it and stop analyzing. Have you seen videos on ocd mindful on YouTube? You should go watch his newest video

@Jbm421 Can false attraction be thinking of guys aswel ?

@Ihateocd83 It's all OCD. But dont use that as reassurance. I've learned that the hard way.

@Ihateocd83 There will never be enough evidence for you....you have to trust the process. If the experts have said you have OCD, trust the process

@lola2214 No I haven't I will check it out. When you say lean into the thoughts what do you mean ?

@Ihateocd83 Don’t fight them. Let them be there. You’re giving too much meaning to them. You can’t seek reassurance or it will never get better

@lola2214 It just makes me think I want to be with a man and the feelings are a lot to deal with and I get a horrible feeling in my head 😩

@Ihateocd83 Yes it’s awful. And cruel that this is what the treatment is but it’s the only way you’ll be freed from this. Go watch ocd mindful YouTube videos

@lola2214 I literally can't feel anything for women at the moment. It's killing me 😔

@Ihateocd83 https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2Bhyq27IoCc

@lola2214 Thanks 😊. Are you from the UK 🇬🇧

@Ihateocd83 Bro, my nerves are shot. My mom in the hospital but my mind is on this crap.

@Ihateocd83 Nope US

@Jbm421 Ah man sorry to hear that is she OK?. I know I keep thinking back but I can't help it thinking if there were signs etc.

@lola2214 Oh OK... are you doing therapy on here ?