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I love the interview with Jon Hershfield and have listened to it many times and think it might be a form of a compulsion because it makes so much sense to me and I find when I listen to it, it’s reassurance that I have ocd. Do any of you do that? Like I’ve listened to it at least 15 times lol.
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Well just listen to another story on there. I was searching for EMDR stories and stumbled upon it. The follow talking said he has had a fear of death driving his OCD symptoms. He seeks ERP style visualizations about imagining his own death. He also emphasized befriending his OCD since it’s so much a part of his artwork and it breaks the pattern of resistance/safety seeking/anxiety about anxiety about anxiety.
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You know what, maybe you’re on to something DollarMustache..I definitely have a fear of suffering and of what people think of me. Those beliefs could be fueling my obsessions...I’m proud of myself for sticking through the anxiety attack the podcast gave but my God was it hard as I just kept having intrusive thoughts about HIS intrusive thoughts lol. It’s never ending!
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I LOVE the OCD stories podcast. I actually loved the Aaron Harvey one because of how detailed he was; it made me feel less alone and messed up. I think it’s important to do some reflection after listening and figure out why the things that bothered you triggered you so much.
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But anyway, he has so many resources on his website too in his blog. He really gets ocd.
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I haven’t listened to the podcast with Aaron Harvey, of course now I want to. But kind of scares me because It took me over 20 years also to get treatment for my harm and health ocd also. I also have that fear of never recovering, suffering for so long, it’s all my brain knows and is probably fueling my obsessions too. I think the key to recovery is self compassion, which is hard for all ocd sufferers. Erp has been harder than I thought it would be and I find myself being harsh with myself and I believe that is what is making me think i wont recover.
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They were just so upsetting to picture visually. I’ve had similar thoughts and maybe I’m scared of creating new obsessions by hearing about his. I am trying to approach recovery like Mark Freeman says and see it as eventually I will take the steps to have no symptoms but hearing about Aaron’s story just left me feeling so unbelievably hopeless, like there’s no point in recovery because he hasn’t recovered at all...
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Yes I’ve done that too and it probably for sure is a compulsion so we should all try to just listen once, take notes and absorb the info and then not listen again :) I know this is just me ruminating (another compulsion) but I can’t help but think that part of what’s taking Aaron longer to go into recovery is that fact that he went over 20 years undiagnosed. For me, mine has only been debilitating for about 2 years. The harm ocd started about 3 months ago is all so treatment might not be as hard for me, idk
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I can understand that. In a way I’m kind of viewing that podcast as ERP. So it scares me too that I was so triggered so quickly and already have started ruminating over what he said in the podcast, (creating NEW obsessions!) I think the key is self compassion too. Because the past two days I was doing great, and now I’m back to 24/7 ruminating, intrusive thoughts are at an all time high and I’m feeling every physical symptom of anxiety I ever have. I need to figure out what got me here and keep practicing
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Curious to talk more about this, but 11 days late to the party. Are you all still on this thread?
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Yes!!
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Word. So a couple thoughts: 1. Thank god for that podcast. Saved my ass! Stu, if you’re listening ✌️+ ? 2. I was also 100 percent triggered by that episode with Aaron Harvey (if it’s the one I’m thinking of? That razor blade detail, holy shimole). That said, I ultimately decided to keep listening because the more I delve into my own treatment, the more committed I am to leaning into what scares me. And there is something kind of hilarious about that OH SHIT reaction that immediately pops up when you encounter some new and wildly appalling thought that could possibly be added to your repertoire. Like OH NO, MY BRAIN HASN’T THOUGHT UP THAT SHIT OUT YET BUT MY GOD. Tempting to immediately put on your earmuffs. But I love the idea that we don’t have to be afraid. That all the craziest available ideas are just waiting to be plucked out of the air and that doesn’t necessarily have to rock our world. 3. Re-listening to compelling episodes is DEFINITELY reassurance seeking. It’s glorious not to feel alone, but chasing the high of having someone else confirm that we are, in fact, suffering from OCD in a way that feels really really good is detrimental to true progress and liberation. Similarly, I feel like this app functions as a constant stream of reassurance for a lot of users looking to have the fact of their OCD confirmed for them again and again and again, when the truth is that we need to lean into that dizzying place of not knowing / not needing to know.
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Great advice Fivel! So I actually also made myself go back and finish this episode! And it didn’t end as badly as I thought. I think what triggered me mostly besides the detail of his thoughts was that he wasn’t responding to treatment (I have an issue comparing myself to others which this episode made me learn.) And one of my biggest fears is obtaining an incurable disease or disorder (guess I gotta face that one head on exposure or not lol.) How’s your recovery been so far Fivel??
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- 24w
My OCD is awful when it comes to intrusive thoughts, and I also have BPD. I’ve never acted on the intrusions in harmful ways before—I’ve always found ways to manage them that are healthy and safe. But I got quite drunk during a psychiatric episode (I wasn’t fully aware I was in one at the time), and I acted on an intrusive thought in a way that wasn’t healthy or very safe. That’s the best way I can put it. I’m so ashamed and overwhelmed with guilt. I didn’t physically harm anyone or anything, but what I did was enough that it’s been eating me alive and has severely heightened my mental state. I’ve tried using my usual coping skills, I reached out to 988 and other crisis lines, I even texted AI chats. But I’m too scared to tell my regular therapist or psychiatrist. I’m currently on a leave of absence from work because I was already in a crisis state, and now I just don’t know what to do. I tried looking for articles or videos from people who’ve acted on intrusive thoughts, but everything says things like “people with OCD never act on them” or “intrusive thoughts are harmless,” and while those can be reassuring in general, I did act on one. Not being able to find any resources or support for this makes me feel even worse. That’s a big reason why I downloaded this app.
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Guys for the past couple of hours ive been spiraling! I wad researching and came across this harm ocd article question that has been worrying me. The title was "im scared of hurting someone when I'm mad. Can i trust myself?" And I was thinking "hey that's what ive been worried about for the past several months!" I even AVOID being angry. Im scared of it bc I get a lot of thoughts and I'm hyperaware of my hands and feel them tingly! Last time i tensed so hard to stay still as possible bc I was so so nervous from my thoughts and my hand twitched which made me SPIRAL. I never want to cause harm! And i always start crying after an argument bc the thoughts are so so scary! Anyway I got afraid bc the article said "research has shown that people with ocd don't struggle with impulse control- so if you find yourself intensely worried you could do harm based on the intrusive thoughts or urges you have, it's likely something else is going on." THAT SENTENCE HAS LEFT ME WITH A TON OF ANXIETY! Its so bad, my appetite is gone! I'm scared does this mean I don't have ocd and should be seriously concerned?!
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- 21w
Curious.... the news has been terribly distressing for me and has stirred up OCD. Compulsive rumination and checking (news stories) are my go-to when OCD is triggered. Today, I purposely did not listen to my news podcast as I do every morning. I feel better-ish. Is this avoidance, or is this self care? Would continuing to listen to a podcast be exposure with response prevention applied to the compulsions that go with it? Thanks in advance!
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