i haven't eaten all day my brain is telling me if i eat i am gonna act these thoughts i'm scared i got random thought yesterday now i am afraid that i am not only a zoo*****, p*do, in**** but also a serial killer i am so sad and drained i gave in to all compulsions, i have avoided my whole entire friends and family ugh this saddening, how come my brain can't view things the way i want them too, they only things that smooth me now are plants

Tell your ocd brain youd rather eat then give in to its evil ways. You can’t give in to its evil mind tricks. Accept the thought . You might be a pedo if you eat you might not. “You might be the worst evil, vile person” Accept it and move forward. See what happens. See what happens if you eat. Get curious. Don’t judge it. Just try it. Don’t give in to OCD. It wants to make you suffer ans torture you. Once you start recovering you’ll be surprised why you ever listened in the first place

I hate this. Same thing happens to me

Not to reassure, but there is no causal connection between eating and being a serial killer. Hopfully tomorrow will be better.

Eat anyway. What ever it tells you do the opposite. If it tells you you’re a serial killer, go hug your family and tell them you love them. Then guess what, OCD will tell you that you’re faking it. That’s ok, keep doing it day in and out and it will get better. Look at this journey as a time to change and change for the better. Go grab some food for the homeless. Be nice, encourage, and love like never before. Healing is on the way, I promise!!