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- 3y ago
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It honestly made not difference for me as by the time I was diagnosed I already knew I had it so instead of googling and researching all at once it was kind of a gradual over time thing. It’s definitely not fun to google stuff and feel worse I feel your pain. I just avoid googling now as I see it more of a compulsion
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So my story is a little different. I started experiencing intrusive thoughts when I was 8. But OCD was never even on my radar until last month. I never told anyone about what I was experiencing wasn't normal. I thought everyone struggled the way I did. Once I knew what to look for, I saw many different things at various time thorought my life. Once I started to suspect I had OCD, I knew this was something I needed professional help with. I had lingering doubts that I really had OCD. I went into my 90 minute assessment fully expecting to be told that I did not have OCD. I was really caught off guard when my counselor told me I DO meet the criteria for OCD and gave me an official diagnosis. Once I had that, I had a lot of mixed emotions. I felt sad, relieved, and disappointed. I got diagnosed at 45 years old. I jumped into treatment with both feet. I have done 3 sessions of ERP so far. My last exposure was absolutely brutal and it was only a mid level exposure. The thought of doing a high level exposure terrifies me. There is a part of me that thinks I'm not strong enough to finish treatment and should just quit and accept that this is as good as its going to get. I have noticed a major difference. But I really want to reach recovery. I don't know what to do at this point.
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- 3y ago
I think I freaked out more because I was then giving in heavily to my googling compulsion because I just had to know everything about what was wrong with me. I also though used to have a fear of not wanting anything to be wrong with me mentally even though I’ve known for a while something was fishy lol So for someone to finally say yeah it’s OCD you’re not crazy, was a big relief but also a big stressor since my OCD was like no it’s not OCD you are crazy. It was a big back and forth for a while, but I’ve learned to accept the diagnosis more. I still have good days sometimes where I’m like, “Do I really have OCD, if I did would I feel happy like this right now?” and then my OCD comes in full force with a, “How dare you forget me!” and then I’m like yeah I have OCD lol
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- 3y ago
Honestly kind of. I feel like it got worse for me too but I was more relieved when I found out that’s what it was
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- 3y ago
I feel like the stigma around ocd seems scary and that it won’t get better, which is discouraging. Have you done ERP?
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- 3y ago
@camerongrace Oh I totally understand. The stigma behind ocd is so frustrating. I have done ERP a little bit but I’ve been a little discouraged because ERP can be rough but I do believe that it is the most effective way to help with ocd
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- 3y ago
@Just Breathe ❤️ How many sessions have you done?
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- 3y ago
@camerongrace I honestly don’t remember. I started back in April and got into the stay better phase but now I’m in the process of getting another therapist so
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- 3y ago
I was pretty relieved when I got the diagnosis because I had just discovered that that was probably what was going on and things started making sense to me. But I did the same thing, googled every single thing about it and all the different subtypes. And I think it either enlightened me to all the OCD things I did, and/or made me overly cautious that I would do other compulsions that I wasn’t doing before. Like reading about them would make them happen to me. So in that case it got worse. It did end up getting a bit better when that initial googling phase ended though. So don’t give up, there’s hope!
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- 3y ago
Yeah I’ve been googling a lot & got worried about developing other subtypes, which made me freak out all the more. So when you stopped googling and such that helped the anxiety subside?
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- 3y ago
@camerongrace Yes, because googling is a compulsion. If you sit with the anxiety, without doing any type of compulsion, it will surge, peak, and decline. This is how you do ERP and it will give you long lasting relief. Giving into a compulsion will give you relief too, but its very short lived. Every time you do a compulsion, you strengthen the intrusive thought and make your OCD worse.
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- 3y ago
@camerongrace It did! Eventually it felt like I read as much as I could, so my brain just switched its focus. Sometimes I do go back to it. Like when I discovered this community, it honestly made OCD a focus again. But now I know that it will get better
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- 19w ago
So I've had OCD since I was a child. Like really young. The first intrusive thought I can remember was when I was 5. It just keeps getting worse and lately they've been making me physically ill or throwing me into extreme panic attacks again ( ones where I can't move my body ) the other night I thought God was trying to kill me because I was thinking about ending myself from OCD+ life issues but in reality I was just having a panic attack😭😭it affects me daily. It gets a little better with therapy but I don't see therapy coming into my life any time soon and I'm not even sure if I would want to go (for multiple reasons). To wrap this up if you have severe ocd can you tell me what it's like?? I don't want to label anything without proper research and hearing others perspectives. Thank you!! <3 (My profile says all of my subtypes if that helps any)
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- 17w ago
I feel like in some ways receiving a diagnosis for OCD has in some ways made things worse. I’ve always had what I called “phases” throughout life, which I now know were ocd episodes, but I didn’t really make too much of them and even if it was over several long difficult months, they’d always seem to kind of just pass. Recently I’ve begun my worse flare up in the last few years and now that I’m older I seemed professional help which led to my diagnosis. This all sounds great of course but I can’t actually afford therapy right now so I kinda just have the diagnosis but not the support so now that I realize these phases are actually this incurable mental illness I just feel like I’ve lost all hope that I’ll ever be happy and I feel like I basically obsess about obsessing at this point and it just sucks. Has anyone else had this or a similar experience?
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- 13w ago
Anyone else develop it in their 30s? I’m 33 and just started showing symptoms in October 2024. So far have only been diagnosed with GAD , PD and depression.I started having intrusive thoughts after a series of panic attacks . My compulsions would be googling. I have made an effort to stop though because it only makes me feel worse. My intrusive thoughts have been around fear of going crazy
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