Hey everyone, could use some inspiration today. Having a lot of anxiety around real event and wanting to confess a possible “lie.” Sitting through most of the urges to ruminate but the anxiety is just very uncomfortable. I’m also 9 months pregnant and feeling really sick today which makes it tougher because I can’t do much moving around. Any words of hope would be awesome.

Thank you so much. I took some time to rest today and called my best friend, and am also looking into getting my meds increased. Thanks for sharing your experience with the urge to confess lifting, it is a very scary feeling.

@Maybe,MaybeNot So glad you were able to take those steps to care for yourself! OCD thinks we have to do compulsions to get rid of our distressing feelings, when in reality, feelings come and go :)

Thank you so much. I love posting on here and helping others with OCD. I am only giving the advice that I am trying to give myself, and it most certainly helps. Your response means a lot to me.

You’re not alone 💜 I’m so sorry you’re dealing with so much anxiety. How can we best support you?

@Have a sunflower🌻 Thank you for this I really needed to hear this right now.

@Orange-Colored_Glasses Thank you. I guess sometimes I just need a reminder why I should sit through the urge to confess.

@Maybe,MaybeNot Your future self will thank you for resisting compulsions now! You’re making her work easier for her :)

@Orange-Colored_Glasses Thank you, you are so right.

Yes you are right 🙄 you caught me I am supposed to be telling lies or like half truths for exposure around times I think I may have lied years ago. Thanks so much for your support.

@Have a sunflower🌻 Yes of course ask away

@Have a sunflower🌻 You mean like adult porn? Don’t like millions of people watch porn? Lol. Also SO many people download and stream movies online. I think technically depending on the website or streaming service you use it could be considered illegal and it’s possible to face some charges but so many people I know have done this and I have never ever heard of anyone getting in trouble for this. So I won’t reassure you and say it couldn’t happen but I think it would be highly unlikely plus you’d probably just pay a fine. All of us have done illegal things. We can’t spend our lives worrying about getting caught. We’re humans.

@Maybe,MaybeNot I just wanted to clarify that I am not certain if it’s illegal or not to stream a movie, I just don’t want to give reassurance that’s it’s not. I think it’s super unlikely though since millions of people do it.

@Have a sunflower🌻 Yea you are way overthinking this but I understand. Millions of people watch porn. I would say it’s pretty normalized at this point and I would never judge someone for it and I’m quite certain it’s not illegal. I’ve streamed movies so many times. Who cares if it’s a choice or a desire or what? I wanted to watch a movie lol. Most people have also done it many times. I really don’t think it’s illegal for the person streaming but like I said I’m not 100% certain. But if someone is going to get arrested for it, it’s probably more likely someone who has done it many many times. Sorry I couldn’t specifically answer the laws for you, maybe there is someone out there who does know, but I wouldn’t go on a wild goose chase looking for the answers because we’ve all done illegal things and I guess technically any of us could get arrested at any time but so we really want to spend our time worrying about that?

@Maybe,MaybeNot Anyway goodnight friend, don’t bully yourself. We’re humans. Let’s live our uncertain lives and enjoy them the best we can. We aren’t perfect. Maybe we will face some consequences, maybe not. But life is up and down and nothing is really the end of the world. We can’t take like too seriously.

@Have a sunflower🌻 Haha I think this same exact way too 😂 I once googled “does everyone exaggerate?” Because I truly didn’t know! I have been in recovery before and once you get there you start to gain the ability to see the gray in life. I’m glad I was able to help. A few things to keep in mind are that doing compulsions aren’t going to keep you from getting arrested, and sometimes people get arrested and they are ok. I know people who have been arrested and/or went to jail and their lives are fine. Yesterday was really hard, especially with 9 month pregnancy hormones and being a blimp that can barely move around! But today is a new day and I plan to kick OCDs ass 😇

@Have a sunflower🌻 Haha yes I highly doubt they even care about or know about the streaming you’ve done but hey it would be very interesting to hear about someone who was arrested for steaming movies like a few times 😂 and even murderers get let out of jail and get second chances. Nothing is really that big of a deal. We are resilient and can move on no matter what happens. Thanks for your support also!

@Have a sunflower🌻 Hey! I don’t know if you still use this app, I have a feeling you might now but I literally just wanted to say I suffer from this exact theme. Like literally exactly what you’ve described here. I was searching this app to see if anybody else has ever dealt with these fears and I stumbled across your post. I too have watched porn in the past, and I often feel like it’s immoral and when the immoral feeling grows I get these ridiculous ideas that being immoral is just like something being illegal. And what happens when something is illegal, you end up in jail etc. I know it’s cognitive distortions of a sort. I wish I could heal from these crazy thought patterns, or broken patterns as I like to call them. Do reply on this thread and let me know how you’re doing now, if you still use this app ❤️

@Worry24 This is so common! Plus most people watch porn it seems! Also whatsup have a sunflower, I miss our threads!

@Have a sunflower🌻 Hey, I know what you mean. I’ve always struggled with keeping my threads up. I forgot my log in details to my old account on here so by default all my threads are still up…I suppose it’s good ERP for me too. But honestly, it helped a lot to know someone has had the same thought pattern and ocd theme as me. It made me feel less lonely so Thankyou :-)

@Have a sunflower🌻 Oh no I’m so sorry to hear that 😢 OCD sucks so much. Me and my family are doing great. I’m planning my wedding and experiencing some family drama with my in laws, but OCD has taken a back seat. I’ve been trying to get on here more just to respond to peoples posts because it makes me feel good, so I’ll keep a look out for yours. Hang in there friend I promise it gets better.