- Username
- Maybe,MaybeNot
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You’re doing an amazing job! Being 9 months pregnant must be very challenging, but you’re making it through! The need to confess can feel SO URGENT with OCD. I had that feeling just a couple of weeks ago. I stuck to my ERP skills and my values, and I was amazed when the urge to confess lifted. If I can do it, you can, too. How can you move towards your values right now? How can you best take care of your body and your baby today? Is there anything someone else could do for you that would help you? Can you drink more water, eat something nourishing, and engage with something you love? Wishing you the best. You’re doing great :)
Thank you so much. I took some time to rest today and called my best friend, and am also looking into getting my meds increased. Thanks for sharing your experience with the urge to confess lifting, it is a very scary feeling.
@Maybe,MaybeNot So glad you were able to take those steps to care for yourself! OCD thinks we have to do compulsions to get rid of our distressing feelings, when in reality, feelings come and go :)
You, specifically, are one of the people whose posts here I look forward to the most (and your thoughtful comments for people too). I really appreciate that you've developed so much self-awareness around your situation and take the time to go out of your way to share what you've learned with other people. It might not feel that way right now and you're thinking "ehh it's not that big of a deal", but that's why I'm happy to be able to hold the mirror up for you on a day like today - the fact that you're even posting this here shows that you've really developed your Wise Mind... and frankly, that you trust us with your thoughts even when you're not feeling too hot yourself.
Thank you so much. I love posting on here and helping others with OCD. I am only giving the advice that I am trying to give myself, and it most certainly helps. Your response means a lot to me.
Hey guys today has been really hard and I am really struggling right now. I really need some support. I am so terrified that if my fiancé knew about this one “lie” from two years ago he would leave me. I logically don’t think it would affect my relationship but it still is giving me SO much anxiety. He does not let me confess to him so it’s not even an option. I feel so overwhelmed and so terrified.
You’re not alone 💜 I’m so sorry you’re dealing with so much anxiety. How can we best support you?
@Have a sunflower🌻 Thank you for this I really needed to hear this right now.
@Orange-Colored_Glasses Thank you. I guess sometimes I just need a reminder why I should sit through the urge to confess.
@Maybe,MaybeNot Your future self will thank you for resisting compulsions now! You’re making her work easier for her :)
@Orange-Colored_Glasses Thank you, you are so right.
If I remember correctly, isn’t telling lies part of your erp. If so then this is just another opportunity to kick ocd in the butt. I know it can be hard when the exposure wasn’t planned and hits you out of nowhere. You don’t have to handle it perfectly…as they say strive for progress not perfection. Also congratulations on the pregnancy!
Yes you are right 🙄 you caught me I am supposed to be telling lies or like half truths for exposure around times I think I may have lied years ago. Thanks so much for your support.
@Have a sunflower🌻 Yes of course ask away
Also it’s hard to respond to the thing about getting yourself in trouble by posting on here without giving reassurance. In my personal opinion it would be absolutely ridiculous for like some random cop to be on here scoping out people who have done illegal shit, like that would be so extra, and I don’t even really know if that could be used in court. I don’t want to tell you anything that isn’t true but that just sounds ridiculous to me. And people post on here all the time about things they have done plus you can leave out details.
@Have a sunflower🌻 You mean like adult porn? Don’t like millions of people watch porn? Lol. Also SO many people download and stream movies online. I think technically depending on the website or streaming service you use it could be considered illegal and it’s possible to face some charges but so many people I know have done this and I have never ever heard of anyone getting in trouble for this. So I won’t reassure you and say it couldn’t happen but I think it would be highly unlikely plus you’d probably just pay a fine. All of us have done illegal things. We can’t spend our lives worrying about getting caught. We’re humans.
@Maybe,MaybeNot I just wanted to clarify that I am not certain if it’s illegal or not to stream a movie, I just don’t want to give reassurance that’s it’s not. I think it’s super unlikely though since millions of people do it.
@Have a sunflower🌻 Yea you are way overthinking this but I understand. Millions of people watch porn. I would say it’s pretty normalized at this point and I would never judge someone for it and I’m quite certain it’s not illegal. I’ve streamed movies so many times. Who cares if it’s a choice or a desire or what? I wanted to watch a movie lol. Most people have also done it many times. I really don’t think it’s illegal for the person streaming but like I said I’m not 100% certain. But if someone is going to get arrested for it, it’s probably more likely someone who has done it many many times. Sorry I couldn’t specifically answer the laws for you, maybe there is someone out there who does know, but I wouldn’t go on a wild goose chase looking for the answers because we’ve all done illegal things and I guess technically any of us could get arrested at any time but so we really want to spend our time worrying about that?
@Maybe,MaybeNot Anyway goodnight friend, don’t bully yourself. We’re humans. Let’s live our uncertain lives and enjoy them the best we can. We aren’t perfect. Maybe we will face some consequences, maybe not. But life is up and down and nothing is really the end of the world. We can’t take like too seriously.
@Have a sunflower🌻 Haha I think this same exact way too 😂 I once googled “does everyone exaggerate?” Because I truly didn’t know! I have been in recovery before and once you get there you start to gain the ability to see the gray in life. I’m glad I was able to help. A few things to keep in mind are that doing compulsions aren’t going to keep you from getting arrested, and sometimes people get arrested and they are ok. I know people who have been arrested and/or went to jail and their lives are fine. Yesterday was really hard, especially with 9 month pregnancy hormones and being a blimp that can barely move around! But today is a new day and I plan to kick OCDs ass 😇
@Have a sunflower🌻 Haha yes I highly doubt they even care about or know about the streaming you’ve done but hey it would be very interesting to hear about someone who was arrested for steaming movies like a few times 😂 and even murderers get let out of jail and get second chances. Nothing is really that big of a deal. We are resilient and can move on no matter what happens. Thanks for your support also!
@Have a sunflower🌻 Hey! I don’t know if you still use this app, I have a feeling you might now but I literally just wanted to say I suffer from this exact theme. Like literally exactly what you’ve described here. I was searching this app to see if anybody else has ever dealt with these fears and I stumbled across your post. I too have watched porn in the past, and I often feel like it’s immoral and when the immoral feeling grows I get these ridiculous ideas that being immoral is just like something being illegal. And what happens when something is illegal, you end up in jail etc. I know it’s cognitive distortions of a sort. I wish I could heal from these crazy thought patterns, or broken patterns as I like to call them. Do reply on this thread and let me know how you’re doing now, if you still use this app ❤️
@Worry24 This is so common! Plus most people watch porn it seems! Also whatsup have a sunflower, I miss our threads!
@Have a sunflower🌻 Hey, I know what you mean. I’ve always struggled with keeping my threads up. I forgot my log in details to my old account on here so by default all my threads are still up…I suppose it’s good ERP for me too. But honestly, it helped a lot to know someone has had the same thought pattern and ocd theme as me. It made me feel less lonely so Thankyou :-)
@Have a sunflower🌻 Oh no I’m so sorry to hear that 😢 OCD sucks so much. Me and my family are doing great. I’m planning my wedding and experiencing some family drama with my in laws, but OCD has taken a back seat. I’ve been trying to get on here more just to respond to peoples posts because it makes me feel good, so I’ll keep a look out for yours. Hang in there friend I promise it gets better.
This may be selfish of me, but I really need some words of encouragement and support today. Living with ocd and anxiety + depression is hard, very very hard. I sometimes feel like giving up. But some other times I can imagine myself being free from this, and I really want that to happen. I just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel yet.
Hi everyone, I really, really could use some support and encouragement today. I had the same thought stuck in my head for the last 3 months. Literally thought about it while I was giving birth 2 months ago. I ended up confessing it today because I didn’t know how else to explain to my partner what was going on. He struggles to understand why I obsess if there isn’t something bigger going on. It’s so hard that others don’t understand. It’s so hard that the thoughts feel so real even when we don’t have evidence for them. It’s so hard that I resisted confessing for three months and still had the same thought. It’s so hard that I confessed, and as predicted, another thought took its place. Now he goes back to work next week from his paternity leave and I will be home with a 2 month old all day every day. I’m so scared I won’t be able to handle this.
I got triggered today and spent a big chunk of the day trying to sit with the discomfort. I started to feel better but then I gave in to my compulsions. I think it was about an hour or so of doing it. I’m exhausted now. I feel like I’m going mental. Details below.. skip if you can’t be bothered to read.. I just fixate and struggle with every little thing I see on my son.. like are these white marks on his skin related to the condition I read about. Are these brown marks related? His black hair has browny red through it, so my thoughts were what if these patches turn white per symptoms of this conditions? What if this happens? What if that happens? While he slept I spent the hour combing through his hair trying to see where it was lightening to see how light it is in case it turns white. He has two strands of hair that did this. So my mind connected the dots incorrectly and is running wild thinking more of this will happen thus indicating he has this condition. Anxiety/ocd is about accepting uncertainty but I guess today is just a hard day for me, and this makes me feel hopeless and sad. Could use some advice especially from parents who’ve been through something similar
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