- Username
- BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Bro your human it’s natural to do it.. if you want to stop do it because it’s something you really want to do not because you fear the thoughts that come with it, know that we all get intrusive thoughts but just agree with them sarcastically and they will go away the more you practice erp.
I've only thought about stopping because I feel like I was addicted even though websites that say addicts do it whenever they want even if they are in public but I've never done that before and I usually get intrusive thoughts while doing it. I'm trying to practice ERP
Yea but just don’t stop if you stop u let it win.. just redirect it somewhere where u want it at.
I do for the most part but still get really disgusted if it comes up. But then again most times with ERP that's the whole point to be disgusted. Thanks for commenting though.
I remember being first on here the week this app came out and asked if I should stop having sex and masturbating due to intrusive thoughts. Someone shared with me that he hadn’t had sex OR masturbated in over a decade because he gave into his obsessions and stopped masturbating and having sex and it was a horrible decision, especially because now he can’t hug people. It will get worse and worse until, like him, you won’t be able to touch anyone. And then you might even become panicked if you brush against a ate her on the street while out walking. Does that sound like a good life to you? No, it’s horrible. But that’ll only happen if you give into your obsessions and stop masturbating/having sex. You don’t have to have sex and masturbate all the time, but it needs to happen. You can’t avoid those things.
Brush up against someone on the street*
If u get an intrusive thought just laugh it off an keep going! Lol that’s what I do.🤣
I find it hard to laugh at a thought that's sexually intrusive and POCD related. I find that it often kills the mood
No problem it gets easier with time
Yeah, I'm trying to get started on it. Have you been doing ERP a lot?
Everyday for pretty much everything in my life I have many themes.
i can relate in a way- i used to be rlly ashamed of masturbating bc i thought it made me "dirty" but having sexual urges and desire is normal on the flipside, having no interest in those things is also normal and u shouldnt force urself to do something if its not ur type of thing may i ask wht specifically makes u feel guilty after the fact? is it bc of the intrusive thoughts u get during, feeling shame from the act in general, or both 🤔🤔 if ur not wanting to do it jst bc of intrusive thoughts then yea it could be avoidance, but bc u seem to have other reasons im not super sure
Is anyone with POCD dealing with the intrusive thoughts happening more when they are watching something and it mentions anything sexual ? Every time anything like that is mention, the Intrusive thoughts get really bad. Similar thing with if I do something like masturbate. I haven’t done it in weeks because I’ve been so scared to. I hate when the thoughts happen and I feel like a terrible person (especially because of when they come) also, sorry if this is tmi, I just need to get it off my chest and hear about other people’s experiences. Anyway, I tried to masturbate again, and the intrusive thoughts happened again and an image of a child would just pop up in my mind, and I would stop immediately, and then when I forced myself to think of something else, I tried again and then the thoughts came back. It’s so frustrating, I can’t do anything g anymore without intrusive thoughts ruining it and making me feel disgusting and horrible ! It makes me feel even worse that the thoughts happen when I’m doing something like this because I feel so guilty and OCD can trick your brain into thinking you enjoy it, but I know I don’t because I would never do anything to hurt a child. Ever ! I would rather hurt myself. And then afterwards when I was trying to get asleep, the worry kicked in and I thought ‘omg what if I continued to masturbate when the intrusive thoughts came and I enjoyed it ?’ So now obviously I’m worried that I did, and now I can’t decipher between if I actually did that or if I didn’t, and now false memories is making the situation even worse by making me think that I purposely thought of the thoughts whilst I was masturbating, and now I just feel awful and guilty. Or ‘omg what if I am actually a pedophile’ and then I kept trying to test my reactions by thinking of a child to check that I was disgusted by the idea, and if I wasn’t completely uncomfortable then I would begin to worry more, thinking that I somehow enjoyed it. Honestly, OCD is torture. To whoever’s reading this, I hope you’re having a good/okay day with your OCD and I hope you’re happy today. This illness sucks and I’m sorry that all of us have to deal with it. Sometimes I wish I would get amnesia or something and forget that I have all these thoughts and all the things that OCD convinced me of, and I know that sounds horrible, but sometimes I think that’s the only way I can get better and forget about this. Or I think ‘wouldn’t it be so good if someone invented a device that could just take all the bad thoughts away and I wouldn’t even know I ever had them’
18+ only Aside from anxiety and intrusive thoughts, which to be honest I'm not as bothered by them like I used to be, there's something else that bothers me just as much, if not more than those things combined. That bothersome thing is pornography. It's been a bother in my life ever since I first discovered it when I was very young. It's always been messing with me. It's like this dirty secret that I engage with and I honestly don't know why I still do to this day. It doesn't help me. I feel bad about it every single time. It amplifies my anxiety and the other day it hurt a friend I deeply care about. The thing is, I've talked about this previously on here, so I just appear like a broken record. At this point, I'm addicted to it I don't want to be, but I am. This is something that takes advantage of your mind. Even if you say no, your mind won't. Worst yet, it appears everywhere in many forms. I feel so dirty. Everytime I end up relapsing I just feel horrible. Horrible due to the fact that this is associating with who I am, even though I don't think it aligns with my morals nor my goals. Not even close. I also feel like this stumped my social development in my adolescence. I understand that teenagers get all wonky with hormones and it isn't like I had a roadmap with going through high school, but pornography definitely made things more difficult. A lot of risky actions were made, bad decisions, and regretful imagery that to this day still messes with me from time to time. I thank God for the days I'm not being distracted and disturbed by those kind of thoughts 24/7. Today, I still think that's bothering me. Another thing that makes me sick is how easily extreme and zany videos can be even when you're not looking for those kind of things. I can Google one thing and it will either give me the opposite or something completely different. Unfortunately, this can include very disturbing things that I wish I wouldn't have seen. This is the only thing I feel so much shame for and I just want it to die. I don't want to deal with it anymore. Yesterday's relapse was one of the worst ones in a long time. I just don't want to keep dealing with this stuff anymore. I wish it were as easy as picking it up, and throwing it out, but the urges and the thoughts and the visualizations come back.
Nsfw tw// a compulsion I struggle with is m-sturbation. when the groinal responses and thoughts get to bad I do that to gain some sense of relief. but sometimes I end up agreeing with the thoughts or think bad stuff while doing it just to “give in” and also “test myself” and finish so i can find some relief. but IMMEDIATELY afterwards is a sense of shame and regret of wtf did I just do? i guess doing this gives me a sense of control over whatever this is so i try to agree with it but the compulsion is so gross and so is the theme so why would i ever find relief. i honestly believe im a p in denial. my pocd has been acting up non stop for almost 2 and a half months. I feel like im going to cry
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