That last question was rhetorical by the way. I don't know if it is yet but I haven't addressed it yet becasue I'm pretty ashamed of it. Just want to know if there's anyone like me
I could be wrong but it sounds like you have moral scrupulosity OCD (which are intrusive thoughts where you feel like a bad person or that you're screwing up/doing something wrong) mixed with some form of harm OCD where you have thoughts of self harm. I don't have thoughts of causing myself pain or anything, but I do have similar thoughts because of guilt or stress. Sometimes I have thoughts that it would be better if I wasn't around, or that dying would be a fitting punishment (even though I can't really logically name what I would be "punished" for)
I’m going through this everyday and am struggling to stay alive. Any tips?
@alittleapple Unfortunately no. I really wish I could give you some tips but the only thing that keeps me here most days is that I know it would hurt some people I care about. Maybe therapy and medication could help you if you have that option
The way you describe it is The way you describe it is exactly what it's like, it's just about thinking I'm doing something wrong. Glad to know I'm not completely alone in this. I think it's probably a similar problem to yours, regardless of what the thoughts are they come from guilt of doing something wrong even if it's minor/forgiven/not true, or needing to rid stress immediately
@JohnDoe21 I’m Christian so that’s sort of the only thing and my family as well. But it is really hard. We are not alone though
you can definitely obsess about self harm - that's a big one for me. I felt really validated reading "Harm OCD" by John Hershfield (I'm actually about to read it again lol)
thank you for opening up and sharing this part of yourself. it is a challenge to open up about self harm and thoughts of it. i'll give you a small piece of advice, don't focus so much on what the OCD subtype might be. focus on the compulsions. which in this case, does sound like self harm. how is self harming going to solve your obsessions? how about instead of immediately wanting to harm yourself when you do something you feel is "wrong" or "bad" - try sitting with the anxious thoughts. how painful and vulnerable would it make you feel to actually feel your anxiety instead of trying to solve your way out of it? also, i do not know if you are seeking therapy through the app, but i highly recommend it or seeking therapy outside of the app for self harm. you do not need to punish yourself for your obsessions.