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Thanks for the reply. For me too I believe going at it with erp and using other tools mentally. Especially because I want to not deal with side effects or the possibility that in the future you need to up Doses or change medication. Try the app, it gives great encouragement through strong phrases that really helps in the moment. We need to remind ourselves how courageous we are dealing with this. Another great speaker is Reid Wilson. I listen to him all the time. I even print out his key strategies. Hope this helps. Thank you again.
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You can do this! Have you started any therapy or meds yet? Can I ask if you’re a believer?
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Yeah, I’ve been in therapy since it started in may 2020. I’ve been seeing a ocd therapist since October of 2020. Yeah, I’m a believer and I have a lot of questions for the Lord lol. I’m afraid of meds because of the scary but rare side effects
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I was taking ativan but not for long just initially in the being but I started taking it again cause I have a bad episode on Thursday
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Yeah, Ativan is not gonna help you long-term. It’s actually going to make things worse. Non-benzodiazepines, like SSRIs or SNRIs will help take the level of anxiety down. In general. He will also lift your mood.
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I’ve been waiting for Him to take this from me. Harm ocd is scary!
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I’m scared of antidepressants the ssri and snri
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Hi, I have it too. And with my mother the harm ocd. I too think back to a time it wasn’t there. It’s an unbelievably absurd thing to be dealing with and no one understands but us who have it. I’ve been in therapy for a year and it still comes. I use my tools to deal like sitting with the discomfort but the anxiety just crawls through me at times. I’m so mad that I have this problem and think how peaceful life would be. You’re not alone, and acceptance helps me. Acceptance that this is OCD and it’s scary and if it didn’t feel real it wouldn’t be OCD. I also find thinking about medication can become an OCD theme for me. I don’t want to take it and fear it so I now look at those thoughts as part of it. And try to do erp and also stop ruminating when I start thinking what if they ruin me or what if they don’t work or what if I really need them and I’ll never get better or feel better if I don’t get them. They are for many people but not for everyone. I was on lexapro last year and it made it worse so I jumped off it. I think erp is the gold standard. I also do something called the ANXIETY CHALLENGER APP. I love to schedule a challenge. It helps to make a game out of a moment you need some support with or if you know you’ve got something triggering coming your way you can schedule it on the app. Hope this helps, it helps to talk about it. Just sucks but we gotta fight!💞🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
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Yeah I know life would be so much more peaceful for sure. Sorry to hear about the lexapro and thats a prime example of why I’m afraid to take them. I feel like I have more control of myself than being on those meds. Thanks for the app tip I’m definitely gonna download it. Hope you find relief for yourself as well.
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- 20w
I have to be alone with my children tomorrow and I'm scared. Harm OCD has me panicking and ruminating. I don't want to hurt my babies they mean everything to me. I keep fighting for them, I got a better job for them and I want to create a better life for them. I'm so afraid that I might hurt them so I need to be away from them but I also don't want to be away from them. The thoughts and images are so much. I'd rather die before I hurt them. Accepting the uncertainty of possibly hurting them is not something I can accept or live with. And it doesn't help having existential ocd because that says none of it matters anyway. I just want to be the old me, I hate this disorder I hate this disease I hate me for having these thoughts. I'm sorry for ranting. I just need to get it out. I hate this worry disorder!
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- 16w
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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- 11w
I have intrusive thoughts all the time. I married the wrong woman, she’s not right for me, I don’t feel right with her, I’m going to fail at work, I’m going to lose my job, what if I can’t sleep at night, I can’t sleep at night, what if my surgery doesn’t work, what will people think of me, I’m a failure, I let people down, I’m a horrible father, my son hates me, do I or don’t I drink coffee, what if I eat the wrong foods, there’s something wrong with me physically all the time, etc, etc, etc. It’s extremely annoying and exhausting. I just can’t wait to go to bed at night and try to fall asleep to shut off my brain.
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