I’ve been fine recently, thoughts popping up occasionally but not as often and then I had a dream last night that’s triggered me quite a bit. Then I saw a post on Instagram saying fantasies are pleasurable/intrusive thoughts are not. I know that’s true but truthfully I have found lesbian fantasies pleasurable before so that must mean I’m in denial. I’m stressing out.

I am the same. I have watched lesbian porn before hocd and I enjoyed it. I just never wanted to do it in real life, cuz in real life I was not attracted to women. But normally people with hocd don’t enjoy same sex fantasies :/. They are intrusive. For me now the thoughts and fantasies are also intrusive cuz I am scared that it means that I am lesbian, but before hocd I enjoyed the porn so I don’t know :-(

me too. i did the same exact thing:(

@iloveanimals How are you? Are you in treatment?

@hocdgirl no im not doing treatment atm. im ok. sometimes i feel better n then it comes back and haunts me and i dig for reassurance:/ deep down i know who i am and all that but when those thoughts come i just cant stay calm or true to myself lol