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The trick to beating ocd is accepting that they might be true. If you are feeling suicidal please seek professional help. Know though that you can overcome this disorder. Suicidal thoughts have been a major ocd theme for me for a long time. I try to just say things like "maybe i do want to kill myself". Its not easy and I still go on runaway mental rumination about it but you can learn to manage it.
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But I appreciate everyone's support. This app and community has been a life saver for me (as I've never met anyone else that has OCD in my life).
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I have this too... sometimes im like ... do I want to die?? Or am I going to black out and hurt myself
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Yep
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Thanks @phisch I am seeking professional help. I guess that can be an effective method on beating OCD depending on your theme, but in my case it doesn't work. My OCD has to do with false memories and believing that I've cheated on my partner. So if I accept that these thoughts might be true I'm accepting the fact that I'm a monster who doesn't deserve to be with my partner.
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Yep, I can relate :/ It’s not a constant theme for me, but sometimes I obsess over whether or not in the future I might become a murderer or lose my mind and hurt someone, and I can become pretty suicidal bc I’d rather me die than lose control of myself and hurt someone else. Also, depression is a pain in the butt, and sometimes just tells you you deserve or need to die anyway, so the two combined are just loads of fun lol But keep coming on here for support:) We’re in this together, and no matter how real it seems, we are the only things that are real. OCD is - and forever will be - an intangible liar, incapable of reproducing our fears in reality. WOW just as I was typing that last sentence, I thought “but maybe it could??” Oh joy?
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@Maureen - do you truly believe that if you cheated on your partner that you are a monster?
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Yes I do. I love him more then I've ever loved anyone in my life, and even though he's so supportive either everything I'm going through before any of this started early on in our relationship he told me that he saw himself marrying me one day and I was the one, and the only thing that would ever break us up is if we cheated on each other. I also used to have Harm OCD, so feeling like I'm a monster capable of hurting people is a constant theme for me.
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And deserve to die? If that’s an OCD thought, then maybe you could try to do an exposure. But if it’s a you thought - know that you deserve to live, even if you cheated in your partner a hundred times. Sure, you’d be a really lousy spouse, but you and your life would still have value. Maybe being with your partner wouldn’t be in the cards, but you could rescue an animal from a kill shelter, you might become friends with someone just when they were thinking of ending it all themselves, maybe you’d compliment someone just when they needed it most. Just because you make big mistakes doesn’t mean you aren’t capable of enormous compassion and deserving of joy❤️
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I don't want to live without him. I've been afraid from day one of losing him. Now that OCD has relapsed I'm terrified of what is real and what's just OCD/false memories, and the uncertainty is driving me to intense guilt and insanity. And even though I know you are right Devon (because I'd tell anyone else the same thing) it's hard to accept and apply it to myself. Thank you for the support though ❤️
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Oh boy do I know it:( I so often discount sage advice I know to be true when it comes to my own life. Although cheating on your partner and murdering someone are two very different things. So I can’t apply the same logic to my obsession. Bc if I did kill someone in the future, I would be a monster:( Ah, OCD, what’re you doing messing w all of our heads?
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I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
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