- Username
- knowles
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I went through a patch like that for awhile. My therapist says, "feelings follow actions." So I do things like, I use a baby wipe under my arms when I am too tired. I use cornstarch on my scalp to absorb oil. I eat a granola bar instead of a chocolate bar. And as my mood improves, I do slightly more. Maybe it's a bath and I watch my favorite TV show on my phone. Even if I didn't use soap, I am still cleaner than if I didn't go near water at all. Do you have a treatment plan?
hey ♡ i’m here to listen..! honestly, i feel the same way. i feel as if i’m a burden to others... this may be depression we are both going through. i also suffer from picking at my skin... i have ugly scars.. what is it that you have been feeling down about..? would you like to talk with me..? i’ve been feeling down as well... as long as you still have a beating heart, you still have love left within you. so, what will you do with that love? could you tell me... something that you cherish in life..? just.. you know, as a little start? *hugs* ♡
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I’m on the same boat as you. It’s hard to stay positive when you feel defeated. But it’s okay. This will pass. I’ve been bedridden this past month. Before that was several months ago. And more before. I’ve been trying to get treatments that I need with no luck. Don’t force yourself. When you feel you are ready then do the things you need to do. OCD is very exhausting. I’m not sure if you have co-existing disorders but if you do that’ll make things harder too. I know, I’m diagnosed with five other disorders.
hey! try to do things that you really like and enjoy, that really helps me to don't forget what's important to me. And always believe you can make it :) have faith in yourself, that's the most important thing
i feel so uselsss and out of place
i’ve also been compulsively picking my skin
I can really relate....
I had to stay home from work today because even though I was exhausted I got 1 hour of sleep. I work 7 days a week between 2 jobs and I finally said today I need a mental day. I am lonelier than ever and have lost friends over the past few years or just lost touch. My best friend ever stopped speaking with me after a group tour of the UK a few years ago and now someone that was our mutual friend is best friends with her and brushes me off. I tried to reach out to my ex friend and make peace but no answer. She has many friends now and a boyfriend. I realize I had some drunk nights that make people not want to hang out with me but I was up last night feeling complete rejection to the fullest and horrible about myself. At rock bottom I have no one. On top of that I was just in a toxic relationship while living abroad and he turned out to be a chronic cheater and married with 2 kids. I have one friend who speaks to me from LA from time to time but as for here in New York I barely got anyone left and bad memories. I can’t be afraid of not going to sleep every night because of thoughts or depression. My period is due any day which doesn’t help. I was just crying so much last night. I’ve never felt so alone. I just feel like a horrible human being that no one wants to be around and I try to make it right.
I have never dealt with severe depression like this, I feel really hopeless and scared, I can't imagine a future out of all my mental health issues and I can't imagine being healthy and happy. The last 3/4 years I feel like I've done nothing but avoid things that are challenging and his at home every day because of my mental health and now it's all hitting me so hard that I'm so unhappy with my life and ick how to push through feeling so bad I can't even eat. I don’t even feel like I want to hurt myself but my will to live also feels so low. I hate feeling like I’m so trapped in a mental health cycle that nothing can break it
I didn't even realize. I'm about to get my period and my anxiety is higher. I'm noticing how my friend hasn't written back to my texts or hasn't answered the last 3 times I called. I think he doesn't want to be my friend anymore. I wrote a text and asked if I did something wrong and he didn't respond. My other friend annoyed me. And I think my other friend doesn't like me that much. I feel abandoned and forgotten and like I must be a bad friend or bad person or why would they all forget me like this. What did I do? Did I take my opinions too far? I've been picking at my skin, having a feeling of unrest. I just watch Netflix and lie on my couch to avoid it. I look okay, but I haven't worked in a year purposefully to find a new way, but I haven't found it yet. I'm doing so much, but it always feels like too little. I tell myself again and again that I'm doing enough, but there's always a voice that says no you're lazy, you're unhealthy and you're just making excuses. I hyperfixate on stupid solutions like blood tests, supplements, genetic testing to explain my symptoms my depression (or is it laziness) my anxiety, my lack of energy, my aches and pains. I quit all drugs and alcohol even caffeine. I track my sleep. I want to feel good. And believe it or not I was thinking I did feel good? Until the afternoon. I don't know. I really hope this is just some fucking b vitamin deficiency and I'll take some pills and be reborn as a human and not a trash pile. Look at me all perfect. With all my career, and my money, and friends who don't like me. Don't I look put together. I'm so imperfect and so scared of anyone finding out. I'm so scared to tell anyone how messed up I am on the inside. I rant to my therapist, my coaches, whoever but I'm just going around in circles. Without support I'd be fucking nuts. Thankfully I pay people to support me. Because no one would for free. Fuck my.life.
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