I was worrying and obsessing over my thoughts and I got distracted from the worries and found myself saying “what was I worrying about again?” To try to get back to the negative thoughts. Does anyone else struggle with this? It’s like I was forcing myself to start worrying again when I subconsciously stopped.
I do this every morning I wake up—I have a moment of peace before my brain boots up and needs to remind me and hit me in the stomach with what I was worrying about the night before. And if I “forget” for too long I feel guilty and remind myself because I still haven’t “punished myself” enough or “solved the problem” mentally enough. It’s so exhausting. Doing ERP I know I’m supposed to tell myself “maybe it’s true, maybe it isn’t” but with the big triggers that’s really really hard and it feels irresponsible and wrong not to worry even though I know that just makes it worse
@tiredofmyownbs One thing that I say to myself when I’m worrying about things that have happened in the past is, “it has happened, it is in the past, everything is okay. Worrying is not going to change it.” I find this helps most times, unless I’m having a really anxious day.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
Two things are happening: I get thoughts that just keep looping. They almost feel like song stuck in my head. Also, I’ll imagine something and I feel my stomach drop. Then as the seconds go by I keep getting fragments of the this thought but with different details. For example, it’s kinda like how a “vision” is portrayed. I’ll get a glimpse of the thought and then it’ll rapidly expand into something worse every few seconds. I don’t know if I’m causing this or if it’s just an automatic thing like any other intrusive thought. It feels unavoidable, idk if this is a compulsion or if it’s just another manifestation of an intrusive thought. Apart from that remembering an intrusive thought triggers the full thought again and then it just keeps looping or expanding. I don’t know how to stop any of this. Help?
So recently i had really obsessive thoughts about something and once i got over it i kept bringing back more stuff to make myself feel like a bad person. Why am i doing this? Why do i need to look for something else to burden someone with once they have forgiven me
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