Can someone explain to me what derealization is? I think I’m going through this stage and it’s very confusing. I just feel “Okay.” With whatever thought my mind brings up and it’s causing me to start my obsessions over.
I don't know exactly if it's the same, but I think I went through this phase some years ago (when I didn't know I had ocd yet). I had the impression of not having real hobbies or passions, I didn't really like anything of what I was doing, and I felt like I didn't really care about anything. I remember that a teacher asked me to describe myself in a homework, and I was completely lost, I didn't know what to write. Even the things that I had always liked (for example, reading) didn't seem like real interests anymore. I was a little empty
I searched it on google and I think what I described is more "depersonalization". On the contrary, derealization is described as "the feeling that things around you aren't real"... so I think it involves more your perception of the outside
@gre-gre I guess that’s what I’m feeling. I’ve lost like all care for things i use to have so much care for. It’s like a numb feeling.
@TiredofOCD1 I get that. I'm a little better now and I'm trying to do all the things that I like, but I still experiment the numb feeling. For exemple when I'm with my friends, I don't feel like I'm really there with them, I feel disconnected and like I'm in a dream. I'm sorry you feel that way, I hope it will get better soon. Maybe try to do anyway the things you like (whitout forcing yourself of course), I'm sure the numb feeling won't last forever :)
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
Two things are happening: I get thoughts that just keep looping. They almost feel like song stuck in my head. Also, I’ll imagine something and I feel my stomach drop. Then as the seconds go by I keep getting fragments of the this thought but with different details. For example, it’s kinda like how a “vision” is portrayed. I’ll get a glimpse of the thought and then it’ll rapidly expand into something worse every few seconds. I don’t know if I’m causing this or if it’s just an automatic thing like any other intrusive thought. It feels unavoidable, idk if this is a compulsion or if it’s just another manifestation of an intrusive thought. Apart from that remembering an intrusive thought triggers the full thought again and then it just keeps looping or expanding. I don’t know how to stop any of this. Help?
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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