Does anyone else grieve for who they used to be? I feel like I can’t bounce back anymore. I’ve taken a partial leave from work when I used to be a high performer. I feel like everyone resents me because I am only doing half time when the team is so busy, and I can barely concentrate or get things done. Trying to focus on healing though. Anyone have tips for overcoming this feeling?
Yes. yes very much
Constantly. I don’t have any tips unfortunately, hope that erp and dedication will help. I’m also trying to live by the words of a fellow ocd patient: keep doing the things that you were (are) good at and (used to) love even though they make you feel terrible. I’m not there yet tbh, but I’ll keep trying.
@Amanda Denholm Thank you so much for your insight this is really helpful. it sounds like you are on a great path. Im trying to find community by attending a support group
@Beeboop3- Oh no far from it, I’m on a shit path 😂 it’s all in my head, but when it comes to practice… we’ll it rarely comes to practice, because I keep making excuses for myself. But let’s keep working until we make things right (which in my vocabulary means work for you, whatever it may be) I wish you all the best ♥️
Yes, I often feel like I'm not doing enough. Especially when I have to learn something new. I think people are going to focus on what I havent done. I feel awful when I think people are wondering what is wrong with me when I dont learn quick enough with computer tasks. Anyways, I just talked in therapy and I realised I shouldn't worry about something that hasnt happened yet, I know I would be told if something was wrong with my work.
My life ended in july when this started. Im waiting for it to come back. Ive been unemployed and cant keep a job because its so debilitating. I used to be happy, But i dont think ill ever be okay again. Its like i died and im just here observing life happen.
TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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