I'm writing this again. Because my post just got marked as spam. My ocd clinic told me to expose myself with all of my intrusive thoughts. Let's all fucking do it and let all these gross vile scary horrible thoughts out under this post. Guys, help me out with my exposure therapy! Let's write our intrusive thoughts on this post. Eg, I want the devil to possess my mum. I want the devil to possess my nephew. I want the devil to possess me. Help me out guys! Write yours on here. I want to be sexual with inappropriate person. The more disturbing your thoughts are, the more likely I am to write all of mine under here too. And if you mark this as spam, it's only making my exposure better, and making yours worse. Because you've basically told me my thoughts are wrong even tho I want to be reassured that they're just thoughts. Let's be brave. Come on.

I want to be a lesbian, I don’t actually have ocd, I’m hiding my true identity. The only one that really gives me anxiety anymore is the first one.

I want to cut my eyes out with my razor

I will one day snap and kill myself and leave my family behind to mourn for me but wish they wouldn’t because I might secretly love kids or something or be a lesbian

One day, I'll have another nervous breakdown and lose my mind. I'll end up like my old neighbor who was paranoid and did crazy things. I'll probably end up living the rest of my life in a mental hospital.

I feel like my mum is ganna get possessed now. So please, someone else, comment something terrible that you think too.

Might be a good idea to put a trigger warning on this....

I want to strangle my cats

I get the I don't have ocd thoughts too

I want to push someone off of beachy head

This is I can't put a trigger warning now I've posted it, and exposure is the best thing for ocd apparently, so the more triggered people get, the better it is suppose to be in the long run

i’m going to be a murderer because i was a bad kid

i’m not attracted to people my age anymore only kids

everyone thinks there’s something “off” about me and they wouldn’t be surprised if i was a bad person

my emotions and feelings are gone

I'm a pedophile in denial.

Everyone secretly thinks I'm a pedophile because I look shifty

Everyone reading this will now think I'm a pedophile

I will kill someone someday

I will go insane

I will accidentally type up child porn

I will write I'm a pedophile on facebook

I will say I fucked my nephew when I haven't

I will shout things out in my sleep

i’m a narcissist

I will end up with brain damage and everyone will think I'm unattractive

i’m incapable of love

i’m manipulating everyone and i don’t even know it

I've had that one too

I'm the one always in the wrong

i don’t have a conscience

I will end up in prison for something I haven't done

I will end up doing something that will get me in prison

The death penalty will come to England and I will go to prison for something that I don't want to do and I will get killed

i’m doing an exposure rn by listening to a song because i obsessed that i would hurt a baby and listen to this song like killers and rapists do in tv shows it’s so hard

I'm a horrible person and deserve for horrible things to happen to me.

I will one day end up in prison for something I didn't really do. But I deserve it anyway, because deep down, I'm a terrible person.

I want to delete these posts... Because I feel like someone I know will see them, and then they'll all realize how messed up I am and lose all respect for me. I'm trying so hard to resist deleting these posts.....

Thank you for the support. This kind of thing is very hard for me, but I know it'll help. My brain wants to ruminate on all the ways that someone I know could come across this and link it back to me, so maybe I can reassure myself that it won't happen. But I'm trying to resist because I know that's a compulsion. I just need to live with the possibility that it could happen. That's SO hard.

I'm trying medication for OCD and I don't think it's working, so my doctor is probably going to try a different kind. But part of me is scared for it to work. For most of my life, I didn't know it was OCD. But I always knew I was different. I feel like I don't know who I am without my OCD. Like I'll lose a part of myself if my OCD fades. I'm not sure what is scarier... living the rest of my life like this and maybe getting worse, or getting better but not really being "ME" anymore.

Snap on the worrying I'll go to prison for something I haven't done. And I also get the thoughts that people will link this back to me. I took a huge step a few months ago and posted my YouTube link on here. And I put the link to this app in my YouTube description. I now constantly think people will see my posts on here and get the wrong idea. But oh well it's exposure, I want to do a video on pocd. But that will be a huge trigger

i have thoughts that it’s not ocd

that i’m genuinely attracted to younger kids

i’m a sociopath

that i’m actually a pedophile

i will watch child pornography and go to jail

i’m not worried about these thoughts and actually enjoy them and i’m just denying it

i don’t care about anyone or anything

don’t do it. this is an exposure and release from your ocd. you can do this

i know it’s hard but you’re right. try and accept the unknown. you’re so strong you got this

how long and what type of meds? i promise you that recovery is worth it. you may feel different but you won’t be empty, you’ll be fulfilled

nah you’re good dude no worries

gotcha, thank you for sharing. by no improvement do you mean the thoughts, compulsions, depression, anxiety or everything

i understand, id talk to your doc about it if i were you

Thanks. Yeah, I did talk to my doc. She recently upped the dosage, but said if still no change by my next appointment, we'll try something new. I really like this doctor and think she really cares. This is my first attempt at meds for treatment. I'm usually very anxious about taking medication and things like that, but I'm really hoping it'll be worth it.

coolio??

what’s your youtube? people have made videos on it before it would be really helpful if you did!

It will trigger me so much as I've been so much more open now about my ocd on here... I will tell it to you but I do want to do the video first if that's okay, I'll let you know within a week what my YouTube channel is xx

i understand no worries dude!!❤️❤️

i keep overthinking my nerves and my legs, feet, hands, stomach, and groin and they won’t stop reacting and ughhhhhhhh

i keep checking my nerves and reactions ughhh

that i’m a bad personal who doesn’t want to be a good person

You're a kid yourself sweet, try being 19 with these thoughts, just feel happy that you're 14. I use to get the thoughts back then too, but now I'm an adult I feel even more terrible for the thoughts. Ocd is awful

Sorry, I guess that's kind of a subject for another thread, but kind of felt like it fit here, because I sometimes obsess about losing myself in the treatment.

I've been on fluoxetine for about 12 or 13 weeks. I'm past the bad side effects, but not feeling much positive change. So my Dr. said we'll give it a few more weeks, and if go improvement, try another drug. I know lots of people have to try a few before finding one that works, so trying to stay positive.

Pretty much all of the above. I just don't really feel any different. Some days, I feel like I have fewer obsessive thoughts, but other days I feel like they're as bad as ever. Most of the time, I just feel the same.

alright i’m gonna start writing my thoughts again. i’m 14 and have a crush on ponyboy curtis from the outsiders who was played by a 16 year old and he’s said to be 14 in the movie. i keep feeling creepy and just ugh. i read fanfic (yep still in that phase of my life, i’m also a maladaptive daydreamer) and then my ocd will intrude and say stuff like “he looks younger than he is, you like him when he’s younger not when he’s in other movies where he’s older,” and stuff like that.