It’s OCD but doesn’t fall into any subtype I know

Well my OCD is odd. I’m sure everyone says the same thing. I’ve tried to identify it but about as close as I get is to Just Right OCD but even that doesn’t sound right. There is no anxiety attached to my obsessive thoughts and no intrusive thoughts unless intrusive thoughts are thoughts that trigger compulsions. I seem to have more a compulsive/ritual based disorder. Though I do have an obsessive nature the obsessions don’t seem to have a nexus with the compulsions. The compulsions are mostly in my head and like Mental rituals - sequencing and arranging thoughts into a particular order. Anything can fail the routine and to have to start again. There are ad hoc routines triggered by thoughts and then there are set routines - every time before I leave the house, eat a meal, before I go to bed. The mental rituals usually have a theme of death. Thoughts of death or deceased people or even old people will reset the routine. Coughing, an itch, my phone giving me a notification will also fail the routine and I start over again. It almost feels like I am playing a game with obstacles but I can’t move on to the next thing until I complete the routine. What sub type do I have ? Do I even have OCD?

Username: SaraBby112SaraBby112

Date posted: 1y ago

Yes you have OCD I’m 100% sure

Username: annae06annae06

Date posted: 1y ago

i relate to this. i feel like i have a mix of stuff because of the themes of my intrusive thoughts. like some days you would think i have pocd, soocd, or even gender ocd. but then it’s like my main theme seems to be religious ocd. my advice is to talk to your therapist about your thoughts and maybe you’ll have more clarity.

Username: AnthonyB71AnthonyB71

Date posted: 1y ago

@annae06 What’s pocd and soocd? How much time do you lose every day to OCD? I lose about an hour or two. This tragic for me. I am a busy person and always struggled with time and OCD is the absolute enemy of time management.

Username: annae06annae06

Date posted: 1y ago

@AnthonyB71 pocd is Pedophile OCD and Soocd is Sexual Orientation OCD. i think lose about 2 hours everyday to my ocd. i spend a lot of time on my compulsions especially on ruminating and it slows me down when i need to go out with friends.

Username: AnthonyB71AnthonyB71

Date posted: 1y ago

@annae06 Right. So 2 hours is a long time. I know some people lose several hours every day but even 1-2 hours is bad especially when the OCD is kind always hovering waiting to trigger the next compulsion. I think the only fear attached to my compulsions is having to do another compulsion. Can you believe that? I have a after-compulsion to prevent having to do the primary compulsion again. It’s a short mental ritual as insurance to prevent something trigger the requirement to undertake the primary compulsion again. It sounds completely whacko and dumb now that I’ve articulated it in text.

Username: annae06annae06

Date posted: 1y ago

@AnthonyB71 yeah i actually get it. like i have a fear of blowing up my house every time i use the microwave, so i check the microwave for like metal like spoons or forks. but in order to the checking i walk in circles for a couple minutes. i’m basically replacing one compulsion with another which isn’t good

Username: AnthonyB71AnthonyB71

Date posted: 1y ago

One thing I forgot to mention. I don’t have anxiety or depression. In fact I think I am generally gifted with happy set neurochemistry. But here is what does my head in. Happiness is a trigger. Yep happiness, not fear and not anxiety. OCD serves to sabotage my happiness. Happiness for the weekend, happiness for a meal, gratitude for my family and pets, gratitude for going to bed. All these things trigger compulsions and mental rituals and end up sabotaging the happy thought. What a cruel trick of my brain! I’ve listened to all the NOCD podcasts and heard nothing of these symptoms.

Username: messkatmesskat

Date posted: 1y ago

Something about happiness feels threatening perhaps? I have something like that. Fear that people are placating me and that I'm a burden. Anyway I'm not sure mibe is OCD either but my counselor says my thinking goes in loops so it must be. The smart thing would be I suppose to do an experiment and treat it as OCD to see if the treatment helps. Because I've had way too much regular therapy and it doesn't help.

Username: AnthonyB71AnthonyB71

Date posted: 1y ago

@messkat I’m not a therapist but I know anxiety and I think the fear based OCDs are anxiety first, OCD second. This sequence counting loop crap that I do is different to the anxiety I had many years ago. I defeated the anxiety or it just went away, not sure which but it was a very different disorder to what I have now.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Try erp! Don't do a mental rumination/ritual and see where it takes you. Also maybe having a more Positive view of death. I find that in the USA we are very disconnected from death, but in other countries, especially in Mexico and Latin America, and even ancestor worship in afro carribean, and Nordic and Germanic and other European cultures, they seem to have a more animistic understanding of the world, and a bigger connection to death. In Mexico for example in dia de Los Muertos, it is a time to celebrate your loved ones, ancestors and friends, who have passed on, and offer them food and drink, or a candle or music ect. It keeps their spirit Alive albeit in a different form than the physical. I used to be able to make myself have a panic attack thinking about death, but being more death positive and forming a relationship with death has helped me alot.

Username: AnthonyB71AnthonyB71

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I agree with you. I’ve been experimenting with a variation of ERP where I don’t let the thought of death fail a routine. So far I haven’t had the courage to leave a routine completed with the death thought intact lol

Username: AnthonyB71AnthonyB71

Date posted: 1y ago

I still can’t figure out what sub-type I have. NOCD podcasts and other YouTube channels just don’t mention it and yet I feel like I have typical and common symptoms. Am I really the only who does mental rituals in a sequential order that need to be repeated if done wrong or some thought makes me start again?

Username: bipolara.dep...

Date posted: 5y ago

what are some of your mental compulsions? I have relationship OCD but I can’t think of many compulsions I have, so does that mean I have pure O?

Username: EFF_OCD

Date posted: 2y ago

Honestly I’m just confused af

So I have intrusive thoughts that drive me nuts. BUT. I don’t know if I have compulsions! I don’t have to touch things a certain amount of times. I don’t do a ritual really. I just inside my head freak out. Is this OCD? I read about OCD, and it’s all about doing repetitive things but all of mine is inside my head. It’s making me believe I have something else wrong with me and it’s scary as hell! It’s convincing me I am a narcissist or sociopath but what’s weird is I deeply care about people in real life and I’m actually a people pleaser? I really just have a hard time understanding why I have dark intrusive thoughts based on my personality and how I interact with others. It feels like hell and since I’m not doing rituals or visible compulsions, my OCD (if I have it) is now convincing me “what if” I don’t have OCD. I do ruminate and I’m obsess over the thoughts and want to know “why”. Is that in itself a compulsion? The actual rumination? I guess this type of OCD is never talked about in movies/books so it makes me feel ALL ALONE.

Username: Anche

Date posted: 51w ago

Subtypes

Hi guys! I believe I have an OCD since I was around 12. I remember then I had a lot of intrusive thoughts about religious things and I had a counting compulsion (I thought that If I don't count to 8 in specific moments, someone gets hurt) During later years it was really changing - I stopped being religious, so the OCD theme also stopped. Then I had I reckon SOCD, harm OCD and many others. But for know my main topic is ROCD. But because of the fact that this is my main intrusive thoughts topic I start to have this awful thoughts that this is not OCD, I'm just with the wrong person and I need to accept this fact. This is really struggling for me, because i really love my bf and Im in the healthy realtionship but Im so tired of having this kind of thoughts, sometimes I cannot sleep because of them. Also the fact that I've never been diagnosed (I cannot go on theraphy right now unfortunately) is another trigger because I have thoughts that I dont really have OCD, I just making this up, because I cannot accept the truth. Is there someone with similar experiance? Or maybe someone who can have advice for me?

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