Harm ocd?? Past things.

I wanna cry, when I was a kid,like a toddler. 4-6 maybe. I used to do horrible things to my cat, I choked it twice.my bdother did too if I remember right, but still. Ik this isn’t false memory. I’m 100% sure I ddi this as a kid. But now looking back at it I’m like wtf??? But I’m scared because whenever I see animals hurt now or accidentally hurt my animal that thing pops up in my head again and I feel weird. I can’t explain the feeling but it bothers me so bad. I want to cry. I don’t like this, i rlly feel like I’m a bad person. Idek if this is ocd. What if I genuinely have mental problems???

Username: victoriamorales2024victoriamora...

Date posted: 1y ago

I understand you , you want to cry because you feel bad for something you did in the past or are doing in the present that it’s making you feel uncomfortable and make you feel like you are a bad person , but you know what ? You’re not … it’s the mind playing on you you’re an amazing personal no matter the mistakes or whatever you did I understand the feelings you feel like you hurt people or animals and that , that makes you a bad person .. I don’t know you but I’m here for you .

Username: Yeye123Yeye123

Date posted: 1y ago

@victoriamorales2024 Thank u🩷

Username: victoriamorales2024victoriamora...

Date posted: 1y ago

@victoriamorales2024 Amazing person *

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

You obvefeel remorse so there's that. If you could go back in time and talk to your younger self after this happened, knowing how you'd feel in the future. What would you do or say?

Username: Yeye123Yeye123

Date posted: 1y ago

@Invalid I’d tell her not to do what she did, and explain to her why hurting animals isn’t okay. I’m not sure why I even did at that age. But now my brain likes to bring it up a lot and it’s makes me sad

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 1y ago

@Yeye123 OK but you don't feel good now. Knowing you were just a child and learning about life, you're bound to make mistakes right? Try take time to accept this as we all made mistakes when we were kids. Then revisit this once you feel like you accept that. Then what would you tell that younger self after she did this?

Username: JessicaLan807JessicaLan807

Date posted: 1y ago

hey there, i can only imagine how tough it must be to have those memories from when you were little come back to haunt you, especially when you care about animals. it's completely understandable that you're feeling so bothered and it's heavy stuff to carry around. i've got pure o myself, and even though my obsessions aren't the same as yours, i totally get what it's like to be stuck in a loop with distressing thoughts. just know i'm here to listen and you're not alone in this. i've actually made this AI tool to help myself when i'm feeling overwhelmed with ocd. it's designed to provide personalized ERP exercises and guidance to work through moments just like you're describing. might be worth checking out to see if it could offer you some relief when those memories and feelings get too intense. 🌟

Username: Anonymous#1020Anonymous#1020

Date posted: 10w ago

I did this too! I feel sick just thinking about it. Ik all we wanna do is go back and time and change it.

Username: Rhonda1997

Date posted: 4y ago

I am 20. Around a month ago, I suddenly remembered something very bad I did when I was ten. At the time (when I was ten), I didn’t think twice about it, but ever since I remembered it, I can’t stop thinking and obsessing over it as I do not understand how I could have ever done something so bad. It really bothers me, and now I am contemplating wether or not I am a bad person. I have read many articles about this, scanned them, looked for people who have done similar things. According to them, I have past event ocd. I can understand that, but I consider what I did too bad for it to be that. Here’s what I remember of it: When I was 10, my sister was 7, and around that age we would often just walk around naked, wrestle, and etc just like kids. This is probably why I didn’t think twice about what I did. At that time, I would hump various things, not knowing what it meant. I can faintly recollect humping my sister. I do not understand why I did it, but it bothers me a lot and makes me wonder if I am a bad person. I realise it’s horrible, but I didn’t know what I was doing at the time.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 34w ago

I’m so scared rn

I’m so worried about being a literal psychopath. I keep reading that psychopaths start out hurting animals. I made some mistakes a kid. I was mean to my animals and for some reason it didn’t register that they felt pain. I never killed any animal I was just rough. I haven’t done anything since i was a kid. I get very emotional anytime I see an animal in pain and suffering. I even consider veterinary school after I graduated high school but chose not to pursue that because I have such strong emotions towards suffering animals/euthanasia. I could never see myself taking an animals life even if it was for the better. I currently live surrounded by animals and see them more as family than pets. They are my literal babies. I’m worried because I at times looked back to the things I did and wish I never did it but it’s never stuck so much with me until recently. It’s all I think about and I literally wanna punch myself and wish someone would’ve just beat me when I did that stuff. I’m worried it means I’m a psycho just waiting to break. I’ve been having harm ocd type stuff and have been ruminating and it’s all I think about is being a psycho. I feel like everything has been a lie since my childhood. I’m questioning my own emotions and everything and now I feel numb. I don’t wanna hurt anyone or anything but I constantly feel like a psycho and it feels so real. I always enjoyed watching true crime stuff with my bf and now that I know about all this I’m freaking tf out. Everything feels so real like it’s already happened or is gonna happen if I try to forget about it.

Username: dee012

Date posted: 31w ago

Pet ocd

was hugging my cat and she got annoyed and meowed and i got sad and thought how could anyone hurt any animals then i start getting thoughts like u want to hurt one u want to really hurt one even ur own cats and it made me scared but i have little anxiety it made me sad tho. when i was little i had kicked my dog and that came up in my memories and now im scared i will hurt my pets. when i was younger i was weird and i have memories spaced out of me doing weird/bad stuff that i would never do now but it makes my ocd worse. I hate this :(

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