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Alone
I hate this I feel so sad and I’m not having a good day
I hate this I feel so sad and I’m not having a good day
I’m sorry friend. I know this day can be difficult for some
I feel that
I’m really sorry, friend. I hope your day surprises you by the end. If not, you have people here thinking of you still.
Aww Brynnie! Hugs 🫂 ❤️❤️❤️❤️
❤️We are all connected. We all share in these feelings, and maybe in an hour or so you will have a different perspective. We are ever changing, and there really isn’t good and bad. Try not to label this day, that is limiting yourself and the possibilities of this day. “I’m temporarily feeling sad.” That is true. It’s ok. To “hate” the feeling of sadness is to say it’s not normal or wrong. Allow some sadness, that’s what makes us human and it awakens us to needed change. It’s overwhelming to have OCD. Overwhelming as well for people who don’t have OCD, they have problems too. It is tiresome and uncomfortable yes, but we are ever changing. Let us know how you are doing later on. I understand you though, and curious to hear your perspective once you’ve let yourself be sad. It’s okay.❤️
@AnonymousROCK Thank you I appreciate it 💕❤️😊 T
Thank you everyone 😊
TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
im so tired of trying to express my feeling and feeling so dumb. im so angry and my chest hurts from sadness and stress all the time with no one to talk to, this is so lonely. the only friend i had got annoyed with me and said maybe this is happening because i dont listen. i hate this so much and i gained so much weight from stress. i cant look pretty or happy if i tried.
I am having horrible regression in my recovery. Tonight i'm feeling really alone and sick from anxiety, i'm feeling scared to be alone with my thoughts. I had a family dinner with my sister, brother and mom today and I couldn't help but feel super dissociated. They are all laughing and talking while i'm just existing. I have a loud voice telling me I messed up, i'm dirty, i'm causing them harm. Being around people brings out the worst in my mind because i really want to be normal. My sister and brother did karaoke and sang Disney songs together and they sounded so beautiful and it made me sad because i truly don't feel like i will be able to ever live up to them. They are truly so smart and have their lives laid out for them. My mom takes my disorder personally and often says things like "you're disgusted of me" "you can't even touch me". I know she views me as the weakest one out of us 3, she favors them it's so apparent. My mom has bpd and being around her sinks me so deep. I feel so freaking alone guys and my ocd is actually spiraling me into a bad depression and my thoughts are becoming more serious. I do not feel comfortable in my mind or my body, i rely on distraction constantly running from myself.
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