Intrusive crying feelings?

@ElevenB Thank you for your kind words. Take your time. The molasses pour is slow but it just makes it better when it finally hits the pancakes 😉. You got this 💪🏻

@JordTheNord Love it!!

@ElevenB Awe thank you for that!! I’ve been doing better. Thankful

@ctc1999 So almost like your overwhelmed and tired and you just want to cry but can’t cry?

@Layla32 Yes!!! That is exactly how I feel!!

@Anonymous Okay so this sounds like ocd or depression? Both? Lol

@JordTheNord I have told them in the past. I didn’t mention it this time but it comes up and goes away but it makes me question my sanity of course bc I can only describe it as this crying feeling coming over me and it’s like I just want to cry and cry but it’ll be like in the middle of me doing a bunch of things.

@Layla32 I believe that’s completely valid and justified. You are a very strong persevering woman. You manage OCD on top of all other aspects of life. So of course when something as vulnerable and heavy as a huge cry coming I have to at least assume that feels absolutely overwhelming. Idk if subconsciously you’re holding yourself back from crying (lots of ppl do for various reasons) but i say embrace the wave and let the tears flow if you can. If you can’t no biggie there’s next time. The warrior in you/us needs rest which is why crying is so relieving. It’s just wanting to get out. At the very least it’s sad and possibly despair emotions wanting to break the surface. Maybe you can go somewhere secluded and just scream all your sorrows and worries into the world and let it out. It might not be years but it does seem you’re holding onto so much pain. ELSA THAT SHIT ❄️.

@ElevenB How did that work out?

@ElevenB Any particular reason why you think it’s a struggle for you to cry?

@ElevenB I’m so sorry to hear you’ve had to endure all of that. All of those ppl are and were blessed to have you in their life. This is of course just a theory but maybe you only feel those emotions a lot because of the environment you have been in for years. You’ve experienced a lot of pain and loss but still showed up and did what needed to be done. So maybe you kind of got numb to it?? Or at the very least you held those emotions in check for so long because you wanted to stay strong and instead of letting the tears flow or even just having a major breakdown you held it back to be there for your loved ones. Also like you said not having anyone to take care of allowed your OCD to occupy your mind but you’re also dealing with lost loved ones. That’s a lot for so many ppl on this planet. You really did an absolute amazing thing for everyone and are a blessing for all these ppl. Thanks for listening. Like I said just theories.