- Date posted
- 1y ago
Angel numbers
Anyone find the concept of ‘angel numbers’ makes their ocd 100 times worse?
Anyone find the concept of ‘angel numbers’ makes their ocd 100 times worse?
For me it’s analyzing coincidences and spiritual things, yes it just sucks. As for numbers, I’ve personally chosen to just ignore any potential meaning with them because there are scientific explanations that say it’s basically just your brain recognizing patterns. Meaning it’s just coincidence, a common one at that. So for me personally, knowing the science I don’t try to get any meaning from them because I feel they’re an unreliable sign to look to for meaning. I barely even notice the numbers that meant things to me anymore now that I don’t believe. Of course feel free to believe whatever you want but I just wanted to offer my opinion.
It’s been really bad for me lately and it’s funny you mention it. Within the past few days I’ve been asking the same. For a couple weeks I really cared about it. There is a reasonable explanation with coincidence. But I also have found that even when paying attention to certain patterns, it yields actual results. Which only began to justify the compulsions. I used to tell myself as a kid to wake up at a certain time, and often without my alarm, I would around 5-10 minutes prior to it going off. Now with these numbers and me spiraling, it’s hard to remind myself that it’s just a pattern of recognition, and my brain is seeking it out rather than it just “happening.”
First time I hear that term.
As in your doing compulsions 7 times or checking 7 times or walking 7 time?
Sometimes when I ruminate or try to disprove my themes (I know I shouldn’t do it but sometimes it’s to overwhelming and I can’t help it I’ve been getting better with it though) it feels like I’m arguing with another person, like there’s another person living in my head and they try to disprove everything I do, it’s usually a different voice from my own but when it’s really fucking with me it’s my own voice and it’s irritating, it just feels like another person lives in my head like there a bad influence and tell me to do all this shit and it’s horrible, I know it’s ocd but it just feels like another person in my head who’s constantly against me and everything I believe and when I argue I get literally no where it pulls shit out of its ass and says the most absurd shit and it makes me feel horrible, just wanted to know if anyone else’s ocd feels like it comes in the form of another person that’s living in your head?
I know this is insane but please, PLEASE hear me out. I just need someone to tell me they relate in some way or something. Does anyone else feel like they have some sort of 'magic' that they accidentally manifested from 'wishing' too hard during a traumatic time and can't feel like you can control it now, which is pretty anxiety inducing since it feels like it would make people be able to feel or see your ocd thoughts? Or use your muscle tensing as part of your ocd? Like if you have an intrusive thought while tensing a muscle, you feel like it's going to come true so you have to 'correct' it by thinking a good thought then tense your muscles again? Because I have both of them. :(
Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
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