Breaking point

Had to rush to the cooler at work so I could be alone to cry and let it out. I can’t take it anymore. Something is terribly wrong and I’m so tired of telling myself it’s ocd when this feels too real and specific. How can I not accept the one thing that I desperately need it to be? And how do I deal with the real possibility that I very well AM that person? I don’t want to be but clearly that’s what it feels like. I’m so fucking sorry idk what to do about it.

Username: ukolibedukolibed

Date posted: 45w ago

You’re not alone. If everything’s overwhelming for you today and you’re struggling to see the wood for the trees. Just know at the very least you’re not the only person going through this. I know that doesn’t change what you’re going through but it does mean that there’s nothing wrong or incurable about your situation. I’m having an awful week too and feel so shit but I know I’ll have a good day soon and it’s so worth waiting for. Look after yourself at the moment and don’t believe everything your brain is telling you.

Username: The real yeerhaw The real yee...

Date posted: 45w ago

You’re worried that you’re a pedophile. So much so, that you don’t even want to say it! I don’t know if you’ve ever read othello, but OCD is like Iago. In the end of that story, Othello murders his faithful wife because he was convinced she had cheated on him due to how Iago played on his insecurities and deceived him into thinking so. Iago would point Othello to little coincidences and interactions between Desdemona and Cassio that (to someone insecure) could be mistaken for evidence of an affair. Don’t underestimate how capable ocd is of twisting you into a knot with your own insecurities. The solution is to not engage with your insecurities, and to ask God for the strength and endurance to get through this. If Othello had ignored Iago and approached his deceptions with logic and a healthy amount scepticism, he would not have killed Desdemona. Don’t engage with ocd or it will kill your peace and joy. *Especially* if you’re someone who’s diagnosed with ocd. All the best to you, you’ll be in my Prayers.

Username: Lina

Date posted: 5y ago

I just feel like my hocd isn't ocd. It doesnt feel like I can determine if I like it anymore. It just feels like I like it now and that im trying so desperately to relate to people with it. I want to just cry and crawl into a hole an die. This isnt what I want but it feels like have no choice and I'm trapped. It feels so real that im at a point where I feel like there is no way it cant be real :(

Username: Lizek

Date posted: 1y ago

I don't know what to do

I feel like If I don't tell someone something I'll go crazy and I can't talk to to my family or friends I am to scared that they will hate me if that did happen I couldn't take it I'm so scared I just downloaded this app and I don't know much about ocd except what iv watched on YouTube and read online why am I don't even know why I'm trying this I just want to be ok the last few days have been the worst I do my best to act normal around my family but I can tell I'm not do that good of a job I can't stop crying when I'm alone i soon know what to do with my self I'm so fucked sorry for this rable Idk if this even helped I know I'm not supposed to ask for reassurance sorry

Username: Jay222

Date posted: 1y ago

It’s getting worse

I’m not diagnosed. Let’s just get that out of the way cause I’m tired of venting and having everyone reassuring me not knowing that. There are so many ways that THAT can be true. I’ve been doing nothing but theorizing as to how and why it can be true. There’s actual reasons why I feel like it’s true too. There’s times when those thoughts cross my mind and I get this brief sense that might mean that I may like it. I don’t wanna feel this way. I don’t wanna be this person. But saying that doesn’t mean anything. I wish I can just take a pill or press a button so I don’t have to think or feel anything anymore. Please please please don’t let it be true I just wanna cry. There’s nothing I can do to change this shit and I feel like this is who I’ve become it feels too real. Will therapy even help or when i have to talk about my thoughts will my therapist just realize I’m beyond help?

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