Im genuinely upset...

You must be exhausted. I've seen you post a lot. Please try nonengagement responses. I know it's hard, but you've felt this guilty for too long. All this guilt shows that you're a changed person. Nonengagement responses can be like "I don't need to think about this" "Maybe, maybe not" "I don't need to figure this out" Etc. please try it. It's hard but it helps :) I wish you the best

Something my counselor taught me was to tell myself “ I don’t need to think about this right this second, I’ll schedule and appointment with my self at blank time” and then that’s when I would sit down and address anything that I had thought about that bothered me earlier and usually by that point I had moved past it but it really has been helpful. Just an idea 👍 I hope you feel better soon

Oh man, that can be so exhausting! I'm sorry that happened to you. Remember to take care of yourself and be gentle with yourself when you're having a down day, give yourself some extra grace. Tomorrow is a new day, you got this!!