Please help

TW I have to watch this show for one of my classes and towards the end of one episode a naked baby boy was completely exposed. I didn’t expect it, I didn’t know it was about to be shown. I’m already ruminating on whether I’m a terrible person for watching it and whether I actually did or did not know. Nevertheless, I tried the SOS button but I fear intrusive thoughts/urges are going to happen and now I can’t sleep. How do I prevent them from happening before they do? Is that even possible? Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time

Okay so I'm young. A bit young than u might Imagine. Me and my boyfriend where bored and I searched up gay porn js as a joke on google. It was completely blurred. And we where js talking about our truma, and personal stuff while literally just looking at the titles. And I saw a title. A title that has trumstixed me before (I saw the actual video before involving a minor. ) and I clicked on it, still heavily blurred to show my boyfriend the title. And i said baby this really effected me this video. And then I looked below it, same video, blurred. Different title. And I clicked on it to stupidly read the other title. And it FUCKING UNBLURRED. and I SCREAMED saying to my boyfriend if he saw it. And he said no he looked away. And he was so unfazed. And I asked chat gpt about it and it said what I done was NOT okay. Because I looked at child stuff on purpose? My heart has just SANK. self harm urges are back. INTENSE confession compulsions to my mum are back. What do I do. Please someone help.