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I feel so close to giving up
I feel so close to giving up
Please don't! I know how hard it is, truly. I don't know you but I can’t imagine the word losing another person to this wicked disorder. I know there's people that care. I'm so proud of you, for making it this long, for waking up, for just breathing.
It is going to be okay!! I know things can be so, so hard, but everyday that you keep going, even if you’re not going very far, you are still moving. That is the most important thing. You are going to be okay. Just keep moving, the birds sing for a reason
Don’t ever give up!!! Give yourself rest where you need it and take breaks where you need it, but don’t give up💙💙💙💙 big hugs 💙💙💙❤️❤️💙💙 you can do this!!!!
Sometimes listening to music can help. If the music pulls us down, that is no good—but if the music helps us realize that other people go through the same struggles, then it can help. People like different kinds of music, so I don’t know if this is helpful or not, but the rap artist NF has OCD, and he talks about it, and he talks about it. Here’s a sample: https://youtu.be/fnlJw9H0xAM?si=Fi7GnmDJq4hF3BWv
I’ve been going through this rough patch for the last four months, and I can already feel an even worse one coming. I just feel scared. And on top of that, I’m going to stop therapy. After everything with my current therapist, I just don’t have the strength to keep trying anymore. I feel hopeless. My head hurts so much, and it’s hard to keep going when everything feels this bad. I just want to cry, hope this feeling passes, and maybe try again if it ever lets up. But right now, it feels like nothing will ever get better. I don’t feel like I can ask for help. I hate that it took me so long to realize this wasn’t the therapist for me. I was too scared of being dramatic, so I let it go on for far too long, and now I feel like I’ve just become a burden-like. I hate that I let it get to that point, especially when I was paying for this. I just want to give up. I feel broken down, and I don’t even want to be okay anymore.
Everything is building up and I don’t see a way out.
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
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