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I feel so close to giving up
I feel so close to giving up
Please don't! I know how hard it is, truly. I don't know you but I can’t imagine the word losing another person to this wicked disorder. I know there's people that care. I'm so proud of you, for making it this long, for waking up, for just breathing.
It is going to be okay!! I know things can be so, so hard, but everyday that you keep going, even if you’re not going very far, you are still moving. That is the most important thing. You are going to be okay. Just keep moving, the birds sing for a reason
Don’t ever give up!!! Give yourself rest where you need it and take breaks where you need it, but don’t give up💙💙💙💙 big hugs 💙💙💙❤️❤️💙💙 you can do this!!!!
Sometimes listening to music can help. If the music pulls us down, that is no good—but if the music helps us realize that other people go through the same struggles, then it can help. People like different kinds of music, so I don’t know if this is helpful or not, but the rap artist NF has OCD, and he talks about it, and he talks about it. Here’s a sample: https://youtu.be/fnlJw9H0xAM?si=Fi7GnmDJq4hF3BWv
Last week was a lot easier for me. I felt like thoughts didn’t control me and my actions as much as they did earlier. Today was really hard for me and I feel like I’m starting to lose hope again:( I can’t take the thoughts and the feelings that come with them anymore. I feel like I have failed and I’m never going to be happy again.
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(21+ ONLY PLEASE: TRIGGER WARNING) I’m just so sick of it. I’m letting it win. I’m letting it beat me. I’m losing. I’ve been seeing a therapist but we only meet every two weeks for an hour because of my insurance. I can’t afford any more visits. We’ve been working on ERP but I still feel stuck. Just recently, we went through a drive thru and the kid at the window looked really young. I’m afraid that I found him attractive and I felt a groinal at the thought. I f*cking hate my mind. I don’t think I can do this anymore. I’m trying but I still feel like it’s not enough. I’ve let my parents down, my friends and my family. Everyone who knows me doesn’t know the thoughts I have and how sick and disgusted I feel with myself.
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