- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Fear of government
Who else is afraid of government arresting you for something you typed in google when you were just a teenager????? HELP!!!!!!
Who else is afraid of government arresting you for something you typed in google when you were just a teenager????? HELP!!!!!!
Hello friend! I am a fellow computer science professional and I am here to give you some fun computer science facts. Did you know that there is an estimated 1,200 petabytes of data on the Internet? That’s 1.2e+6 terabytes. Or 1.2e+9 gigabytes. That’s a disgustingly huge amount of data and doubles in size every year. :-)
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@Anonymous How do you deal with this fear???
@Anonymous I thought I was the only one who feared this. I’m in my 20s now and freaking out I’ll never have a life or future
Don't worry, if they were going to go after you they would have done it by now. You're ruminating over the what ifs. Remember to stay in the present.
**TW for POCD** I’ve spoken about this a few times before. That urge I had to type in “child porn” into google. I talked to my NOCD therapist today about it. She told me the ERP for it was to type it in. She even did it with me. Obviously nothing but news stories, crime statistics, and photos someone would use for a project showed up. I’ve been so petrified of typing that in there. She wants me to do it every two hours and listen to what OCD will say. I typed it in that way, I typed it out full, and I typed it out with an additional word. I clicked and browsed through all the google tabs. I’m okay, but I can’t stop crying. I’m scared to do it again. She said it’s not likely going to get flagged due to people looking that up for research projects and stuff. I’m just afraid repeatedly searching it up will cause some sort of alert. I feel so scared and full of nerves. I guess that’s what the ERP is supposed to do, but it was so scary. So scary :(
It’s never been this bad before. I feel like I’ll never get better. Every day I remember new things to feel guilty about and new fears pop into my head. What if I get doxxed? What if I said something online that could get me in trouble? What if I was hacked? What if someone is looking through every post, every message, every account I’ve ever made. I feel like I’ve dug myself into a hole and there is no way out. I’m 21, I keep thinking “no one will have grace for you because of your age. You are an adult. You should have know better. You don’t deserve to get better”
When I was around 19-20 I believe I showed my then 8-9 cousin crude pictures (e.g a cartoon image of a butt). I don’t know how many times I did this but I believe I was trying to be predatory by giving me control over her (not sexual just the feeling of wanting control)and also cuz I thought it was funny. For some reason this didn’t really start bothering me until now (I’m now 22). I don’t have any desire to hurt children. I’m scared by what I feel I’ve done. Should I go to the police?
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