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I don’t know why my brain keeps targeting you but it is and it’s pissing me off, I hate how my head goes like oh did they bleed or enjoyed it or why didn’t they and I know full well why they didn’t and it just pisses me off because I don’t want these fucking thoughts anyone!- Or ask these questions. Oh did you cry?- Or the fact that more stuff pop into my head and me just imagining what happened is stuck in my mind and one of my thoughts- I don’t want to say sexualised- More like it popped up- About a baby!- I DONT LIKE THIS AT ALL!- I know it’s wrong!- I can’t even look at any other porn and my head keeps saying that I like my mom romantically and not platonically!- LIKE WHY ME?!— IT JUST PISSES ME OFF AND I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS ANYMORE I JUST WANT TO SEE THE DOCTERS SO I CAN STOP SUFFERING WITH THESE THOUGHTS AND IMAGES, I FEEL LIKE I VICTEM BLAME THEM AS WELL, MY THOUGHTS ARE LIKE THAT WHEN I KNOW IT WASNT THEIR FUCKING FAULT!— AND IM SO SORRY.

Last night I had a weird dream I don’t feel comfortable saying what about but it was definitely a dream against who I am and my beliefs… the dream made me feel so scared and disgusted and worried because why am I dreaming of something so weird and something that doesn’t even correspond to me at all.. can someone help it’s making me feel like a bad person. It’s making me feel so worried like why did I dream such a bad thing what does it mean does it make me a bad person.?? I hate it

I had a dream and I feel very hopeless. I'm not sure if it was big portion or just the end of the dream but their was something romantic (it's uncomfortable to even type omfg) with my brother. I was just thinking about how since my brother is getting older, we have more in common and can be like actual friends. This is just so unsettling and rn I just want to stay away from everyone like my intrusive thoughts have been so bad and I'm tired man. I truly have gotten tired of fighting my brain and can't differentiate my thoughts from intrusive ones.