I feel isolated

One thing that I’m struggling to bear with, is how isolating this feels… I spent all evening yesterday ruminating over intense groinal responses in response to intrusive thoughts. And then I had a dream where I experienced sexual arousal due to being in bed naked with someone… Not sure who, and I didn’t touch the person in the dream… But now my ocd is putting the two together and I’m triggered to the next level right now… I’m trying so hard to dismiss this as a stupid dream but I’m finding it increasingly difficult. I’m so lost, I don’t know what to do…

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: fruitbat42069fruitbat42069

Date posted: 29w ago

There’s a youtube channel i found to be helpful when I feel isolated and obsessive. It’s called OCD & Anxiety with Nathan Peterson. He says in his videos about the importance ofnot trying to just dismiss your thoughts and feelings and try to above them away, cause it can just make it worse. It’s more helpful to sit with the feelings of discomfort. And basically practice affirming saying “maybe, maybe not.” Watching the videos can explain better

Username: Doglover93Doglover93

Date posted: 29w ago

I understand what it’s like to have intense intrusive thoughts of any kind from any source, and we keep thinking about it because we feel like it’s something we can’t just leave alone. I’m brand new here and I honestly wish I had an answer but you are in good company here and this episode will pass.

Username: ambermayxambermayx

Date posted: 29w ago

I get a lot of sexual intrusive thoughts and images and it’s getting unbearable and just in the way all the time and I find myself checking for groinal responses

Username: Vee <3

Date posted: 47w ago

I’ve never felt more terrible in my life.

I feel so disconnected from myself. Like everything I’ve ever been happy and comfortable with has been a lie. I don’t know what and what not to believe anymore. I feel like I’m straight/bi now. I keep having these thoughts that tell me “you’ll get with a man and like it. You know it” and I hate it. I hate the groinal response I get with sexual intrusive thoughts too. I try to keep in mind that attraction is supposed to feel good and natural, but OCD tricks me into thinking that the hypotheticals DO feel good. Just never natural. I hate it.

Username: RebeccaAnn

Date posted: 32w ago

Feeling scared

Hi everyone. I'm feeling scared and overwhelmed by my intrusive thoughts. It's so tough to try distracting my mind and overcome my thoughts because I'm isolated at home all day. I have no daily schedule, no car or job. So I spend a lot of time alone, which doesn't help my OCD at all. Does anyone else feel lonely or distressed by their scary thoughts? I'm trying to go to sleep but I can't seem to relax

Username: Nameless000

Date posted: 28w ago

a nightmare delegimitized me from having triggers

After that triggering dream where the worst thing could have happened, I don't feel legimitated anymore to feel genuinely distressed by triggers, to call compulsions as such. It all feels disingenuous. They don't feel valid anymore. Like crocodile tears. Because the one thing I didn't want to happen probably happened, that undoes everything else. I feel like a hypocrite, to feel distress and worry about those things, being anxious of that particular fear because in that dream it happened. I felt arousal and probably genuine attraction, I'm afraid that I could have agreed with it. Maybe it isn't true, maybe it didn't happen, maybe I'm misinterpreting, but then why I was left with that impression? All because of a damn dream, because ocd, all my triggers intrude even in my sleep, because I can't even be safe in my dreams. This is the worst mental illness.

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