My ocd is really bad right now. Two days ago out of nowhere I thought what if I have dyslexia and that really made me anxious... I read fine except in front of other people because I get anxious. And then yesterday I woke up and it seems like I read slower in my mind than usual. I don't know how to explain it but doesn't feel right. I'm very scared. I know you can't get dyslexia overnight hahahaha but I'm scared something else is wrong:(
I totally understand these super scary feelings when it comes to health. I get scared all the time. This could be a result of a lot of stress from your ocd in general and then the added pressure of intrusive thoughts. I’m no doctor just my opinion and just trying to help maybe ease some of your anxiety
@m ♡ I'm going to see my therapist tomorrow so I'm gonna mention this to him. I think it's weird how I thought about dyslexic the day before and then this happened. Thank you:)
@Pija That’s great that ur going to talk to your therapist about it, they definitely should give you some really helpful tips to get through these thoughts and feelings! And ur welcome! Always happy to support!
It is scary, but at the end of the day it will be okay! Even if at the moment it does not feel that way. I can relate to what you said, because I would get scared about having x or x and spend a lot of time thinking about and researching it.
@Anna,hi! Thank you:) It's just really hard with health ocd because you can never me sure if this is ocd and anxiety or something serious
Sometimes I worry that I don’t have ocd and that I’m losing my mind and that I’ll never feel better again. I was starting to feel really good last night and I thought it was finally over so I went ahead and did a lot of the stuff I enjoyed doing before this happened (the reason I had to stop was because certain things were triggering in either one way or another) but eventually I hit a point where I just could not bring myself to do something because it was causing too much anxiety. I got this horrible image last night in a dream and then I began to get a flurry of bothersome thoughts, so now I have 2 obsessions to worry about now. The first one is kind of in control but I’m just afraid what’s going to happen to my brain and I’m worried about having an episode in front of my family, who I’m supposed to be having a small dinner with today. I don’t want to tell them what’s going on but I’m afraid they’ll notice that I’m not well. I’m never present because I’m always in my head analyzing and ruminating and worrying. The feeling last night gave me hope that I could be myself again but I just worry that these thoughts will always linger and make me lose my mind. :(
These last few days my ocd had been maybe the worst it’s ever been. Currently, I am trying to do schoolwork assignments but I’m having a hard time reading because my mind is reading too fast and just skipping over the words then I feel frustrated like I have to go back and read the words carefully one by one with the same brain effort put to each word. Then I feel like I need to go back and look at how much I’ve read up to now and how much I need to read still and compare and it’s a never ending cycle of frustration. My mind is also racing about negative past events on top of that
Ive been doing well with managing my ocd for a while since ive been putting all my focus on my work. But today was a particularly bad day, and im scared that I might be getting a flare up again. My last one was horribly debilitating for months so I am terrified of it occurring again, even though this time around im better equipped with a psychiatrist and meds. But its just such a scary feeling of doom and panic, I havent been able to sleep all night. I just hope im overthinking it again and that ill be ok.
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