Sexual intrusive thoughts

This is really disgusting to even talk about but I been dealing with intrusive sexual thoughts and I get triggered for everything so I avoid the news and all that but my bf was telling me this disturbing story about how someone did something sexual to a dead body and I got an intrusive image of me doing doing that and I always avoid anything bad in the news because of that and I feel so disgusted then it kept getting worse and I got an intrusive thoughts of my bf dead body and I was like wtf why would I get an image of that then my mind started bringing up family member that past away and I’m scared of getting more intrusive thoughts I’m so scared I think something is wrong with me why I’m I thinking like I love my family and bf why I’m I having these disgusting and disturbing thoughts of them or anyone it keeps getting worse I would never even wanna do that or think of that please help

Hey, well, this is my first time ever posting in here but I figured why not? I’ve been struggling with this issue for almost three months now and it’s been a constant battle, I guess I just really need some support, so almost a year ago now, I got in a relationship and I realized I may be Asexual since I didn’t really have any sexual desires towards my partner, starting late November though, I began to have these intrusive images in my head of us having sex. These thoughts have caused me a lot of anxiety and stress as well as depression. It’s weird, I know deep down in my heart I don’t desire any of that with her but the thoughts feel so real at times and sometimes that makes me feel like I want the thoughts. I’m pretty much lost at this point and don’t know if whether it is OCD or if I’m just in denial. The thing is, I don’t want to see her that way, she doesn’t want to ever engage in any sexual activity and I want to respect that and respect the decision we both made to never do so unless it’s to have a baby. I just feel a sense of doom I guess, I’m scared that I might like the thoughts when I don’t want to like them. I’d feel so much guilt if it isn’t OCD and it’s actually me, and the thought of that terrifies me. I hope every day it’s OCD.

Hey , I feel like I’m alone with getting intrusive and unwanted thoughts during sex / mast3rbation and when I’m finishing and it makes me feel disgusted and that I’m a disgusting person and that I agree with the thoughts I get and I get really upset after and guilty and regret doing it Please can someone tell me if they experience things like this and if it’s not just me It’s something I’ve been really struggling with but I try not to let it get in the way of me having a sex life