religion doubts

i am a christian. i am constantly terrified of offending God and going to hell. i love God so much but this so scary. i feel like a really bad person. i have to pray in specific ways at specific times of the day in a specific order and sometimes it feels like a chore. i feel so bad about this. the reason i became a christian in the first place was mostly out of fear. i feel so bad admitting all of this but i really need help. i wanna continue being a christian i think but it’s all so scary and stressful. praying has become a compulsion, i feel like a terrible person with every sin, and it’s so exhausting. also, i’m a lesbian and i’m so scared God will send me to hell for that. i can’t change my identity. i’ve tried, but i just can’t like boys. i’m so scared and sad and terrified and stressed. i have no clue what to do.

Username: Brian__Brian__

Date posted: 14w ago

I’m sorry your going through this I go through ROCD to and it’s horrible, just remember though that Jesus knows that these thoughts are unwanted and that the reason you became a Christian does not matter to him, he’ll love you no matter what and as far as you being lesbian goes don’t worry about it, I highly doubt god sends people to hell for being gay, especially since he knows gay people can’t help it, know that god loves you and it’s completely normal to sin and that everyone does it and that no one is perfect, I know it’s hard but trust me it’s gonna be ok

Username: katiscoolkatiscool

Date posted: 14w ago

@Brian__ thank you 💕💕

Username: "Fear not for I am with you" -Isaiah 41:10"Fear not fo...

Date posted: 14w ago

I am so sorry you go through this sister. I have Religious OCD to and it is very tough; and I'm sorry that you feel that you became a Christian out of fear, Christianity is about God's love for us and our love for him and our love for others ; [16] “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. -John 3:16. And [19] We love because he first loved us. -1 John 4:19 and [11] Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. - 1 John 4:11. And as far as you being a lesbian goes I don't want to offend or discourage or push you away from God; there is the sin aspect to it which I want to emphasize I can relate too. I've had more than my fair share of sexual sin on my part, that Jesus washes away with his blood; now I am not condoning being a lesbian but I'm not condemning you either. I am really sorry that you have this struggle within you and are afraid of being sent to hell; God Loves you unconditionally and cares more deeply for you than anyone and he doesn't want you to pray as if it's a chore but to just Love him and have a relationship with him. And Jesus died on the cross for all of our sin to save us from hell BECAUSE he Loves us. And this is a very hard thing to do no doubt I'm not saying it is but if you cant be attracted to the opposite sex than I would strongly suggest to have Spiritual intimacy with God instead of physical intimacy with someone you weren't made to have physical intimacy with, I know this is hard and I'm sorry it's no easy task but I pray that you can have Peace, Love, Joy, and Comfort in Christ Jesus and I hope you remember that Jesus Loves you and cares for you. I will pray for you sister and I hope that this verse comes to pass. Philippians 4:7 ESV [7] And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. https://bible.com/bible/59/php.4.7.ESV ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Username: natalie m natalie m

Date posted: 14w ago

OCD is such a horrible disorder. I’m so sorry that’s something that you have to go through. I grew up in a Catholic household and came out to my mom when I was 20 I promise you there’s nothing wrong with being a lesbian or identifying in any other way, that isn’t “”normal. /what the Bible says. At times, I struggle with internalized homophobia similar to you and it is scary and it’s frustrating but I promise there’s nothing wrong with you and you’re loved no matter what your identity is by God And despite what some Christian say, you can still believe in God and pray and attend church and be a lesbian or be gay, and still be accepted by God .

Username: katiscoolkatiscool

Date posted: 14w ago

@natalie m thank you 💕💕 you’re so sweet. it’s sometimes hard to believe that love this pure could be a sin. i’ve been told its wrong by many people and it’s hard. i came out at around 10 or 11 (ik i was young, i was outed) and my family has always supported me but sometimes it’s just hard to support myself.

Username: natalie m natalie m

Date posted: 14w ago

@katiscool No like I understand I am so sorry. It really is because at least with my ocd if someone tells Me it’s wrong I have to do compulsions to get rid of the unwanted thoughts. I am hopeful for you that things will get better! Keep faith and stay positive

Username: "Fear not for I am with you" -Isaiah 41:10"Fear not fo...

Date posted: 14w ago

It is incredible true that we are Loved by God no matter what, but we still need to be repentant for our sins and do our best to resist the flesh instead of gratifying it; God of course gave us sex for marriage to both procreate but also for pleasure too but our flesh just wants to lust and have instant gratification; we are all born with those desires to have Physical intimacy but our flesh distorts that and just because people are born gay doesn't mean that that is what they are supposed to actually be; and I'm sorry I don't want this to sound bad or shaming; I have a really hard time with lust and resisting the flesh alot of the time just like a lot of people. And Yes Jesus did die for us and forgive our sins because we can't Be forgiven or Stop these unhealthy desires on our own, that is the whole point of Jesus and what he did for us. I pray that Jesus can transform us all to his image and and help us in the ways that we are weak. Like in 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV [9] But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. https://bible.com/bible/59/2co.12.9.ESV And again this is NOT to condemn because [1] There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. - Romans 8:1 ESV but we should do our very best to not willfully sin and not abuse Jesus grace because he has done so very much for us and has loved us before the earth was even formed.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Username: katiscoolkatiscool

Date posted: 14w ago

@"Fear not for I am with you" -Isaiah 41:10 it’s hard. really hard. and it’s hard to believe that just pure love is somehow bad. i’m just a kid. i’m upset and worried and idk what to do. i love my girlfriend and its hard to believe that my love is not good.

Username: Beth172

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

ROCD? RELIGIOUS OCD? In denial?

After having a religious conversation with my mom I’m feeling quite triggered. She means well, it’s just I’ve avoided going to church ever since getting serious with my bf because every time I go I get this pit in my stomach and this horrible feeling that God is telling me to leave my relationship. But I don’t want to leave my relationship. So I can’t go to church, read the Bible or anything because it triggers this intense reaction and I end up believing I have to leave even though I love my boyfriend and really don’t want to. is anyone else struggling with this? And at the same time, I have so much guilt and feel so scared that I’m going to die because I haven’t been living a Catholic lifestyle and am afraid to die and go to hell. I don’t know but I’m so sad and lost:(

Username: mseb10

Date posted: 43w ago

Religious/Moral Guilt

Hello! I was wondering if people with religious or moral scrupulosity can relate to this! I identify as gay (I’ve known it since I was a preteen) and I grew up in a religiously conservative household and in a culture that does not accept the LGBT community. Growing up, I’ve made a lot of progress in accepting myself and learning to love myself for who I am despite the lack of acceptance and support from my cultural and family background. …however, it has obviously been a tough road. And recently, I think I’ve started developing scrupulosity around my sexuality. Basically, I wanted to rediscover my faith in a way that helped me, but it ended up just causing me a lot of distress because the LGBT are not exactly affirmed by the Catholic Church. And despite my best efforts, I feel like I’ve slid so far back into a pit of guilt, shame, and disgust with myself. I have so many intrusive thoughts that being LGBT is not natural, is not right, is something that can and should be changed or fixed, even when I know these to not be true. I’m curious to know if anyone else with religious or moral scrupulosity experiences similar feelings of guilt or shame about who they are. Not only do the intrusive thoughts themselves make me feel guilty, but I have intrusive thoughts that I AM bad and that I should feel shame and disgust about myself. I’m hesitant to post this not only because I don’t want to trigger others but also because I don’t want it to be reassurance seeking or a compulsion, but I do have doubt that this isnt just from my OCD and that I should be exploring other forms of therapy to deal with these problems.

Username: Jolee0524

Date posted: 37w ago

Religious OCD

Hey guys so I’m new to this. I struggle really bad with religious ocd on top of other themes of ocd i have. But the religious ocd and POCD I have are definitely the hardest two. Today was so hard for me because I was freaking out all day about the eclipse and if it was the end of the world. I grew of in a very strict church and being gay was not acceptable so now I feel I’m morally wrong and unlovable in a sense. I don’t really know how to explain it. Wether it was from my youth pastor outing me on stage in front of all of my friends and hundreds of students, to them praying over me for years on end, before I finally left the church. Yet I still question if my salvation is safe or not. I question if God loves me etc. it gets so bad that I’m convinced everything I do is because I’m possessed by a demon. And I’ll start to vomit. Literally vomit. It sounds wild I know. Wether it’s music my ocd deems demonic or movies or spiritual things such as tarot cards that I enjoy. But my mind will convince me if I use them I will go to hell because that’s what I was taught for so long. I just wish I could get better but I don’t know how and I’m so hopeless.

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